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THE BRANCH Jan. 3,1995
Spoke with the monk a few days ago, and we went through all the arguments; such as: the church will become apostate; God will let Satan loose, and there will be a tribulation. I said "God obviously plays the role of Satan," and he didn't believe that.
Argued with my neighbor today, who is very religious. We discussed 1 Thessalonians 4, and talked about "the dead in Christ who will be caught up in the air to be with the lord;" and this being the same as "the aliens that float people out and up into saucers." Told my neighbor that Christ is the christened one, and all contactee's are, and if you don't believe then you will be found guilty in the end. Asked what he thought of the first resurrection, and said "Don't you see that it's the contactee's who are Gods elect?; they won't have to experience the second resurrection, but all who believe will be changed and saved." Spoke of the visions they give me, and how in the old testament, God also spoke to shepherd boys and others. Although Christ was the ultimate sacrifice in order to form a religion, God can speak to anyone he chooses. It is a salvation plan of "grace" and not by "works" are ye saved brother. It even says many false Christs will arise in the last days, and if possible will fool even the elect. This is true, because one can be elect and not know it until the subconscious is released; or until they have a encounter with some form of Gods plan. They might of even been preaching against it before it happens. This is what happened to the apostle Paul. In my case, I always had a feeling that God was real, but didn't expect this would happen. I hadn't really been much of a UFO buff before either; but I wasn't total skeptic. After it happened, I studied more on the subject then anything else, and found that a lot of information "is" out there, and had been. It is only in the last few years that the media is picking up on it. The aliens are also stepping up the program, but a lot of people are being caught off guard, and not listening. I think that this is so amazing, that people don't think it is for real. It doesn't fit into our way of thinking. The old bible saying that "Gods ways are higher then mans" is being seen.
There was another time when I told my friend's mom: "The aliens told me I'm Christ." She said "When Christ comes every eye shall see him and the heaven will roll back like a scroll." I said "People will see it on TV, and the scroll is a figure of speech that means God will create a new script for the earth." This is literally happening: There are strange new sightings in the sky, and every eye has the chance to see it, just about. Even in very remote areas there is a TV, and people do like to gossip about strange things.
Told my neighbor's wife, who is very religious, that I was visited by aliens, and they are from God; they took me to heaven and I sat at a table on the right side of a father figure, and walked through a temple, took a saucer ride, was at a red sea, etc. She said "You're just supposed to worship Jesus." I said "That's what I'm trying to tell you; they said I'm Jesus." She said "No way!," and jammed her van in reverse and left. This was early on when I had to tell everyone. I wasn't on a ego trip about it; I was just so shocked and amazed that I had to share the story; especially with believers.
Jan. 3,1995
Heard on the radio just now, that "Christ is called the "branch, out of the root of Jesse." (Isaiah 53:2) This reminded me of the sound of the branch that was scratching in my head about three or four months ago; where the day before that, I saw where it had been rubbing on the back of my trailer from the blowing wind. (Sept. 24,1994) There was also a rock I looked at one day, that was just laying in the creek behind my trailer. I was going to move it, but decided to just leave it there, because it came out of the creek. The next morning, I see a image of a white plastic PVC water pipe going up by my trailer, right where I saw the rock the day before. This was about a month ago. I didn't realize it then, and thought they were telling me to hook my water up, because I need to still do that. (I even have a valve buried in the ground right down the creek from the rock, and could have the pipe under water to protect from freezing.) But later I realized that it meant "the water is the gospel, and it flows from the rock." This rock is even near the right rear corner of the trailer, and by the base of the same tree that the now gone branch once lived. The polished spot remains, where the wind once moved it. This is another of some of the most amazing and complex riddles they gave. It took maybe a week or longer to realize this. Some of the riddles have taken a year or more: as in "the corner of the property" riddles. They keep giving you more on the same theme or setting, so you finally realize; and then think back and connect all the other similar scenes and the message behind them. The moon reflecting light in a dark world is another common riddle theme. There was one like this a few days ago. They must have a computer to be able to keep track of all this, and to know what I still need to realize. It is obvious they give further clues in areas I'm still blind in. Remember when I said "It's like your mind is plugged into a computer, and they adjust the program in a progressive teaching helping mode, and is like a spirit guide? Just reading the story should explain it.
JUBILEE FEAST OF TABERNACLES
A few days ago while speaking to the head monk, Father Bonaface, and the nun, I realized that both of them had said "You're not sure," or "You think you had a dream or message;" and in both cases I said "No, you're not sure; I know for a absolute fact that God is speaking to me beyond a doubt." They said "It could be from Satan," and I said "We'll wait and see who was right: if it's from God or Satan." They said "Yes we will, and so will you;" like I might find out I was tricked by Satan. When I left, I asked her if she believed UFO's are from God, and she said "I believe God has control over flying saucers and everything."
When talking to the neighbor up the road, he tried to avoid the subject of abductee's being caught up in the air, (1 Thessalonians: 2) and went on to say how Christ died for our sins, and that we should only worship Christ to become saved. I accused him of speaking on a different topic, and not addressing the end time subject, which is a totally different issue.
A few days ago, I had the image of grabbing the drive shaft of the solar electric vehicle at the solar hippies house. Right then, the words came like a thought in my head: "alternate vehicle." They have set me to tell ("Family Radio stations, Oakland California 94621)" and make the book ("1994? are you ready?", written by Brother Camping,) come true. It claims Christ will return sometime in September at the start of the Feast of Tabernacles, which is a old Jewish festival. This is a Jubilee year, that occurs once every forty years, and it is the most likely time for Christ to return. The head preacher: Brother Camping, has been studying the bible for forty years and has spent tons of time and effort to figure this out. In the book "1994? Are You Ready?", he doesn't believe God is speaking today, except from "the bible alone and in it's entirety," and everything else is from Satan. His favorite verse is "Whoever adds to the prophecy of this book will have the plagues upon him," and he uses it a lot on the "open forum" program, because many people call in asking about supernatural and other related activity. He says "UFO's do not exist, and all people who see them are seeing things. Our minds are very tricky you know, and people hear about these things, and pretty soon they want to believe, and the next thing you know they are seeing little green men; but I can tell you that it does not exist. Believe you me; scientists have looked for life on other planets, and never, never, without exception have they ever found even the slightest trace of life. Anything supernatural is of Satan, because God is very clear about that. He says "I will send a strong delusion, if possible to fool even the elect. But we have the truth, so don't be snared into a false Gospel. Satan comes as a angel of light. The bible is crystal clear about that. It even says that the man of sin will sit in the temple, trying to be worshipped as God, and many will believe a lie. There will be many false Christ's in those days. The bible clearly states that God lets Satan break the barrier between the natural and the supernatural, and you don't want to have anything at all to do with that stuff; you stay a million miles away, and don't even look at a book, or study anything of that nature. You keep your eyes focused directly on the bible; for it is only here we will find truth, and say please father, and beg and pray for wisdom. Admit and say, I know I'm a sinner; oh Father, have mercy on me, and help me turn away from my sin; and plead and beg with God for wisdom. The ways of the world cannot be trusted. Satan is at work more then ever, making the churches fall away. It is getting harder and harder to find a church that still remains true to the word of God anymore. They are falling away right and left, and Satan is having a field day in these times. But we are the true believers, and are safe if we stick with the bible; the bible alone and in it's entirety is the word of God, and anything else is the creation of man, and is totally unreliable; because when God came to the last verse of the bible, he says "Whoever adds to the words of the prophesy of this book, I will have the plagues poured out upon him; and whoever takes away from the prophesy of this book, I will take away from him his part in the tree of life." There: it clearly states, that we are not to add to God's word; and whoever does, is in direct violation of the word of God, and is in deep deep trouble. Frankly, I would never want to be in this persons shoes. He is under the wrath of God, and will stand for judgment for sure, when the believers are caught up with Christ."
He (Brother Camping) and others will not have anything to do with the subject, and won't study any other books. He knows a lot about the bible, and I've learned most of the basic secrets of the scripture from him; but as far as getting him to believe the truth, it is so far not working. He's right in the fact that we have to come broken before God, and to not be arrogant, and also is good on other moral issues.
He's got the big world wide radio station, but can't help spread the word, and wouldn't believe it if Christ walked up. Anyway, my main job, is to try to tell all the Christians that this is God. Some people believe the earth will literally melt with fervent heat, and we will all be caught up into the air to be with Christ. Fire is a transformer, and our minds will be transformed. It happened to me both ways, and I was also caught up in the air. Saucers can do that. It says the dead in Christ will rise first, and those that remain will be quickly changed.
CRUSADE AGAINST THE CHURCHES
They came to me on Jan. 20,1993, and I had time to organize my crusade against the churches, and sent out most of the 12000 letters to all the religious groups, before September 1994. That was my mission. I wasn't in contact with the aliens much of the time, because I was so busy getting the story written, and finding addresses. That is why they didn't start speaking again in dreams heavily until around May of 1994. They used to visit every month or two, off and on, back then.
A lot of letters must of ended up in the trash can, but the basic message was heard if they read even only the first paragraph. The news media at that time, was getting the word of strange stories out more then ever before, starting right around Sept. 1994. It seems somehow God could of done this. All kinds of shows on UFO's, and supernatural stuff suddenly were on TV.
1994 came and went, and almost all of my letters sent out went unanswered, but there were a very few positive responses, and quite a few more negative ones. One said "UFO's are demon powered vehicles," or "I feel very sorry for you brother, you've been tricked by Satan." Someone sent a photocopy of a page out of a mental health book that showed neurons in the brain, and explained chemical imbalances. Some said "Satan comes as a messenger of light." One was, the last page of the bible photocopied, and the last four verses are circled with yellow highlight felt pen, and with no other reply and no return address. Some sent cards that say "Please remove us from your mailing list." Some said in a very angry tone: to never write to us again. A few said I'm dealing in occult evil, and had no return address. Some said I need help and they will pray for me.
Sometimes I would write a long letter back, only to tear it up, because I didn't want to waste another stamp. I would get mad a lot, but finally just didn't care anymore. Most of the bad letters I burned in the fire right away, so to not have to see them anymore. Back then I really took it personal when people said bad things about Jeeze.
Someone had called the local sheriff from long distance, and there was a rumor going around the police force that I was into Satan worship. A neighbor who was cutting wood for a off duty police man up the road, was asked, and was wondering if there was any truth to it. He said "No; in fact exactly the opposite; he's all into the bible and Jesus, but claims he was visited by aliens or something."
There were a number of positive letters. A few were from preachers who seemed to believe, but didn't know what to make of it, or what to say. Maybe they were getting used to the idea, and it hadn't sunk in yet. Some overseas letters came from the odd groups in other countries, that are into unusual phenomena. A few real personal friendly letters came from far away countries. They spoke of other amazing local stories. One story was of a sacred mountain in a village that the natives had seen UFO's over. Also, a friend of the person had a out of body experience, where he passed through the wall and was in another room, and then became scared, and was then back in his body again. When it first happened, he heard a buzzing noise.
There was one person who was visited by a ET in South America. He sent a drawing and a short letter explaining what happened. (• Figure 44A.) I got information for sale from the many UFO research groups in the US, and also a lot of mail from religious groups that want me to send money to spread the Gospel. There were hardly any personal letters, and most might of thought I was a kook. There was one preacher who wrote, and seemed interested, and concerned, and told me to tell some psychiatrists. I told him I have told a few, and one tells me I'm crazy. This story is just too hard to believe. Some people do keep a open mind though.
There were maybe three phone calls from people interested, and one other contactee, who said he was a star child also. He left the wrong number, and never called back.
The belief that Satan is sitting in the temples has been repeated over and over on
Family Radio, by Brother Camping. His big mistake is that he doesn't realize that God plays the role of Satan, in preparing the churches for a falling away; so to be prepared for God's kingdom coming on earth. People are superstitious, and God has used Satan to keep people in line. Knowing that Satan is real, one is always trying to avoid him, and will travel toward the light which is the word of God; the bible.
Also, two nights ago, I awoke out of a dream, and a person just opened my trailer door in the dream, and I had a extreme panic fear that they can induce. This could be related to why I have this anger at attacking dogs, or is related to the Lamba dream,(Jan. 3, 1994) where the ram sheep was attacking. This also is maybe related to my anger at women dream. It is true that I had a falling out with my mother when a baby, and the aliens came and I bonded with them, but there was the trauma of the contact that I am always trying to integrate into the other factors. A little anger is necessary if it's you against the world. All the aliens ever gave me was unconditional love, and have done nothing but good for me. Even though they are strict, they have to be, and I respect them.
Father Bonaface said "They took away your free will, and that's why I don't believe it's from God." They knew me when a baby, and that's why I'll give myself totally for the cause. It really hurts me when people say bad things. They don't understand my love for them. I have been used to much anger and rejection caused by my own attitude toward people, I admit. Having been a drinker, and just mad at the world, I am used to confrontation, and actually thrive on it just to feel normal. People do somehow find a person that treats them like they want to be treated. That's why when the aliens first came to me, Jeeze was yelling through mental telepathy "Your supposed to love everybody." I used to be filled with so much anger, and so have developed a hard skin, and can't be hurt much now. I am perfectly suited to the kind of work like Jeeze did. It can be a cruel world, but only if you let it get to you. You can bring it upon yourself, just by acting strange or aggressive. Somehow you have to have pity on people. If you love yourself, and can forgive and love others; and it is easy to be like Jesus.
Be ready to get slaughtered. Can you imagine the feeling when people say they sincerely believe you are in the grip of evil forces from Satan; that you are being deceived, and they will pray for you? The aliens have done nothing but help, and I have this lost love feeling that ties me to them that is hard to explain. The people just don't know what you're talking about. I have to have pity on the people. I used to want revenge on some of these preachers because they threw me out; and it is a real test to face this kind of rejection over and over. Everybody's not that bad, but when you make a point of going to the churches and try to shove it down every-ones throat, you always get in a confrontation, because it scares people. I gave it up for awhile and then went back witnessing, and have learned that there is a strength in me, to not back down from the most righteous preacher. Some held the bible and pounded on it, saying " This is the only word of God, and don't come back." Their mouth would be shaking in anger, I could tell. It's a good lesson in building character, and has taught me that if you love yourself and God, there is nothing to be angry at; you can only feel pity.
Remember the vision of the spider, and how it was casting a web over the doorway that led to the river of God's word? That is a snare, so it can wrap you up and bite, and is like the double edged sword in that it cuts both ways and you will be transformed. It says in the bible that "the word of God is like a double edged sword." (Two stands for church.)Fire is a symbol of transformation also.
Last night, saw a pot of green food of some sort. The day before, I became upset and frustrated in a panic, and realized that I was hungry. It was a feeling as a child wanting to be fed.
Also, the color green means tranquillity. Do you realize that I was fed green food by them when they came to me? I was fed twice on two separate nights. Two means "church," and to eat means to take the manna of God. I could of been fed as a child, but don't know. They took eight bananas on one of the nights, when they fed me. There were two left, and on one was a small sticker saying "bonita." This was back in Jan. 21,1993.
BLACK KISSES Jan. 5,1995
A few days ago, had a dream of being in the back of a pickup truck, and a girl there liked me and was siding up to me. A guy was there and said "This is my party." Then the girl said to me: "Let's go swimming," and I could feel her body rubbing against mine, and was becoming excited and afraid people near would notice. The next night, had a dream I was at a friend's house and messing with a electronic VCR or something with radios. It was a dark room and I had a black tee shirt on only. A person came to me from the bedroom shadows and scared me. It was his daughter, and I knew I wasn't supposed to be there and said so. She came over and gave me a kiss that was on the mouth, and I had a sexual melting feeling on the mouth. Was afraid she would know I was sexually excited, and she said "Black kisses." I only had a black tee shirt on in the dream, and even had one on right than, as I slept in real life. Had argued with a girl I liked the day before this dream, and she was the same one in the dream.
TWO CIRCLES
The next night, had a dream of cutting wood in a park. Then was driving with a neighbor in his truck, and we saw some elephants which was rare around here. We spotted three in separate areas. We then arrived at his house, and I saw a perfect baked loaf of bread on the ground, and it was still fresh. I said "Can I have a piece?" He said "OK, but just a piece, because I want to feed the rest to the dogs." Thought it a real waste.
Later in another dream, was walking by a loading dock, and got porcupine quills stuck in my bare foot. Pulled some out, but one broke off and I needed a pliers to pull it out, and was worried that it would go deeper. Than realized I was holding a pliers in my right hand. Was now in a vague boat dock house and saw a circular plate with two pieces of chicken on it. (The circular silver plate is a recurring idea, but this plate wasn't silver. It was maybe lite brown or pink orange like the door to heaven.) Something else happened that was vague, and I remember a clear picture of a burning cross in a circle of fire.
The "two" circles (the plate and circle of fire) are the two stages in becoming a member of the church: First to eat the flesh of the sacrifice and take it into your body, and then to die on the cross and be changed. The porcupine quill in the foot, and the cross is a symbol of suffering. Fire means to transform obviously. The circles mean full completeness or wholeness.
The silver plate is a common theme, and must be related to the moon. Silver is the metal best suited to reflect light. The moon lights up a dark world, and is a mirror for the sun, which is the light of the Father. Old civilizations used the same ideas.
The two pieces of chicken are the sacrifice, and is a similar theme. Remember the Cornish game hen I saw once in an image? (Oct. 10,1994) The pigeon and dove used to be a common gift for sacrifice in Old Testament times.
Jan. 6,1995
Last night, heard a dog barking in my head, that was so real. Thought it was outside at first, but then realized it was from the spirits. Sometime after that in a dream, I recall the image of a crucible that had molten metal in it, and was glowing as if on fire, and was burning like a bright spot sparkling. This obviously means the impurities are being burnt out to make the metal pure. I'm still trying to overcome evil in myself and in dealing with the world, and how I get along with it. I'm trying to stop bad habits and realize proper conduct in the way I relate to disturbing things. Sometimes one must suffer and endure. It is the Christ way.
THE BLUE PENDANT
Also, the night before, had a dream of being in a room with a girl in a black witch hat and cape, (similar like the nun had) and a guy sitting at a table. I knew the girl, and the guy could have been my brother. Drank some water from a faucet near the girl, and was afraid she didn't want me too near and personal. Walked across the room and heard a drum beating in a Tonga style native beat, and realized the big oblong oval table had a leather see-through skin on it that was the drum top on a steel frame. As I was leaving, and halfway out the door, the guy gave a dirty look, like he didn't want me around the girl. The guy wasn't my brother, but someone who used to go with a girl I tried to get to know. After this, I went out the door and found a blue oblong oval warped shaped pendant in a silver jewelry frame, laying on a rounded cement patio of a similar shape; a curved cement style slab that is level with the grass on a lawn.
( Figure
45.) I picked up the blue pendant and gazed into it, and it seemed cheap glass only.
(Saw the blue "Hope" diamond the night before on TV, and thought how just a rock
could mean so much to people. Had also just been reading a book on the Tonga islands, and
the drums they were playing at a party.) This is a complex puzzle to figure out exactly.
It is a combination of many different parts of my life.
The odd dream of the girl in the witch, or maybe nun's dress, might mean my distrust about women, for I was thinking about witches and how they thought, before this. The girl in the dream was a girl I had liked once, but never developed into anything. I also was attracted to the one nun I met, who talked to me the most, and had wondered what made her want to be one. She was very young and attractive.
A few days ago while waiting for a guy to show up real early one morning, to go work nailing sheet rock, (but he didn't show up) I had a feeling he might be out there, and tried to imagine that there was a light shining through the window like a saucer would. Thought I saw in my mind, a scene of a red glow of activity over there by the road, like a mist of red orange light in the distance, over the ridge on the road in the darkness. I was trying to imagine what it might of been like when they came, but couldn't remember. I felt this nervous sense of anticipation, thinking he would be there any moment, and then saw the image of a glowing red orange in the darkness over the ridge, like it was them. They will let you see whatever it is that your scared of.
PRECOGNITIVE DREAMS
Also, the dream of the porcupine quills in the foot is a precognitive dream: because the next morning I saw a commercial on TV, and a kid says "My throat feels like a porcupine." There have been other times when small parts of dreams are precognitive, and the scene is not connected until later the next day. They have proved this to be more than a coincidence, after it happens a number of times. It was the one odd factor in the dream that I couldn't remember from my past, (The porcupine quill) and then another piece of the puzzle fits in later. This is symbolic in that I can expect this to happen in the future: "Get ready to suffer a little." Can you believe how complex this puzzle is? I only discovered this little fact now while re-doing notes. I'm going to have to re-study some other similar physic dreams and look for secrets missed.
(Remember the dream on new years, of the amazing river flowing out of the mountains in the sky, with the violet light?) Later that morning, saw a image of a football with stitches being tightened in it like trying to sew up a bloated pig-skin. Then later a image of, as if a big invisible tray or force was squashing my gallon cans of beans and tomatoes against the back of the stovetop, and I saw the cans bending, like saying: "Make room for a big extra dish of food." Then later after awakening, I saw the football game on TV on new years, and right then remembered the football being sewed up, and the scene of having this big invisible dish set on my cooking area. Naturally, I saw that it was a precognitive dream in a riddle where they were saying: "You are fat with food for thought, or writing material." This could also mean: "We give you the ball, or try to eat this." Some UFO's are shaped like footballs, and a pigs skin is a unclean animals skin holding air under pressure. Like the porcupine quill dream, but looking at the positive side of it: I can expect a full helping of a satisfying meal in the future. The psychic dream told me what to expect in the future. This is so amazing, and maybe that's what the double edge sword means: You are transformed on both the cutting edges. One can hurt more then the other, but both are necessary.
THE BIG TIT Jan. 7,1995
A dream of scraping food out of a pot, and I decided to give the leftovers to some people who were two girls and a dog. They quickly ate the leftovers as if they were hungry, which was surprising. They scraped the sides of the pot with bread, and the dog was searching for scraps. The one girl was a old girlfriend of mine who was real skinny and always broke, and I used to feel sorry for her. The other girl was one of my sister in-laws, and the dog was the same dog of my mom's that always barks at me that I used to really hate. After this, a vision of a eyeball it seemed, and then I saw it again; and it moved on a pivot and turned a little. It took a day or so before I realized it wasn't a eyeball, but was a tit or big breast.
Later a dream of being in the old red house, and looking out and seeing lights that were like flashbulb shooting stars; and I looked again and they were different colors of red, yellow and blue-white. A bunch of kids came running out as if a party. I hid in the room of the house, and my brother-in -law pushed the door open. Later I was making a room clean to live in, and saw where other guys had left there stuff and abandoned the ranch; old friends who had gone for good, and never came back. I followed the track of one guy: "Bill" on my bicycle, and saw white chalk marks he had left on his trail through the woods and down a muddy hill, and then up the lumber road up the mountain. Saw white chalk on the road in certain spots as if to show the trail. Wondered why he headed up the hill and not down the lowland road. Then realized he had got away from it all for good, and had taken the high road of spiritual quest, and left the struggles of the valley behind. Also, when I had the eyeball vision, (and later realized it was a big tit) I felt a feeling across my legs as if I were sitting on a swing. Could this mean that I am carried to another area of thought? Maybe it means I am child like.
Also had a dream of seeing a lady I once knew, and her kids had gone. Felt odd talking to her as if only yesterday, and didn't realize everyone was gone. She was sitting in the bedroom and trying to tell me that things have changed and people were gone, or something.
Later that morning, a image of a white bucket, (like I have and had cleaned) and in the white clean bucket, there were five turds in perfectly clean water. Could mean I have plenty of food to eat. Five means redemption and judgment, and could symbolize disgust toward shit that is unreasonable. Later I was still puzzled as to what the dreams and vision meant; and right before getting up, I was thinking it could mean to give up on trying to be part of the family business, competing with everyone, and still trying to overthrow my mothers grip on control over who's favored and who needs support because they have a family to feed; to be able to forget about the past, and realize I've just got to give it up. No matter what I'd done in the past, nobody cares anymore, and that's why I am to follow others who have left for good.
Later that morning, saw the image of a door corner with a window, which meant "There's the door," like my dad used to say. There is a way out if I just give it up, and be happy with what God has given me. I am now a writer of dreams from God and am blowing the trumpet, and can still be happy.
LOOK FOR THE SIGNS
A few days before I asked the head monk "What does the bible mean when it says to look for the signs?" He said he didn't know when the end would come and in what manner God will appear. I said "Don't you believe it's by the year 2000?; it's the tribulation now." He said the bible wasn't clear, and it could be another thousand years.
It was flooding all night and I awoke feeling sick and was spinning from food poisoning; either fish or beans that were old. Had a feeling of peeing, and awoke to a vision of a crude child like drawing that at first looked like crossbones: a poison symbol. Then saw it become a child like drawing of a kid's face with one eye bigger then the other, like the kid was sick. Later saw a image of white spore cysts or the poison organisms. There were a whole mass of tiny spore chambers imbedded on a brownish background. I knew they were saying I had been poisoned. It turned out to be canned fish, bought at a wholesale can goods store, and was packed in Baha California. It tasted good, and I bought a whole case, but later brought it back for a refund, because it made me dizzy, with a headache.
Later was thinking of the whirlpool of water seen when I had gotten up to check the culvert. Was feeling depressed, and imagined myself being sucked down it. Later after that, thought I saw a image of a whirlpool, and then a newly planted green plant in fresh dirt and with a similar twist in the leaves, as if a whirlpool. Means that to be reborn, you have to die. (This is like the spiral they put you in, and the water is the word of God you grow in.)
Later was thinking of a murder scene I saw on TV last night, where a guy had stabbed a guy with a big knife. As I was thinking of that, in a feeling of frustration as if I was the killer, I saw a roll of toilet paper being unrolled in the murder scene, as if in a image along with the murder scene. Must mean that strict toilet training is the cause of anger. Later was thinking how my mother must of been in a totally bad relationship when I was a baby, and something tormented me in many ways in order for me to feel so much anger. Right then, a scene in a image: of a thin two by four board that was between two rocks out in the ocean with very rough turmoil sea waves under it. (This was similar to the ocean seen there recently, while helping sheet rock a house right on the coast. There were big rocks that made the waves churn.) Later thought I had been hurt by the poison maybe, and then in a image, saw a marihuana roach after that . (They told me that the real poison I should worry about is the one that has hurt my lungs.)
THE DORK Jan. 9,1995
Back on Jan. 7th I said there was a vision of a eyeball, but now think this was a big breast and tit. That changes the whole context as to what the dream meant, but the basic interpretation is similar. It meant that the tit was the source where all people drank from, and it was best for me to go away and let all others feed off the power of mother earth. The image of the door corner and the window I saw later that morning, might mean that I'm at the corner and can see through to the other side. The door might mean for me to pass through, because the door had a window (like a door I have that I'm going to use on the trailer I'm building.) The reason I figured this out is because the next night I had a dream of a guy playing volleyball. He was a dork, and a person turned on him because of his odd attitude. The person grabbed the dork; twisted his leg and threw him naked into the lower tool box of a big truck; (like a big under-bed storage tool box.) He threw him in there like a used piece of machinery as if nothing more then a chunk of iron, winch or shovel; like one would toss a chain or breaker bar; and I saw his legs just curled up and together. After this, the guy who threw him in there, went back and tried to brush some shit off the dock or ground, as if trying to get rid of shit related to the guy. It was gooey, and there was still some there. (What is odd is that, the way the guy grabbed him and sprung his leg, was similar to a guy on TV in a football game who pulled a hamstring the day before, and they replayed it in slow or stop motion.)
After this dream which represented my anger at the way I felt I had been used as a tool and then tossed aside; I saw a big rounded breast and nipple in a dream image. Could this image mean that after one suffers one is expected to be reimbursed by the breast of plenty? Or does this mean I'm angry because I was a reject and was denied the breast; tossed aside and am still competing for the breast? There are ups and downs, and a time of feast and famine. Also, there was a sexual aspect of the breast, and there is a connection between food and sex obviously. The desire for both is a common factor, and the eyeball is even similar in form. Just as the eye sees a situation and guides a being to it's purpose: so also the mother earth's breast supply's and serves a similar purpose.
A few days ago I heard on the radio a talk about "respiratory counselors," and then heard a "beep" in my head right after that.
THE MOUNTAIN PATH Jan. 12,1994
It was flooding major. Saw in the newspaper earlier that day: a picture of a man in a boat in a flooded city street. That evening I saw a image of a baby in a boat like a kayak, and the baby was smiling and near the shore. Later had a scary dream of monsters in the water that jumped up and tried to flatten the boat. One was a timid animal that became a warlock I heard.
Later that night, saw a vision of a net or grid with crisscross lines in a wavy pattern both ways. Is this related to the spider at the door vision? Is it a floor or foundation, or do the waves mean radio waves? After this, had a dream of arguing with my sister who was typing my story. Maybe this a clue as to what the net like grid with wavy lines is. I thought it was similar to the grid pattern seen in my earlier virtual reality saucer ride. Maybe this is the way they can see everything, and track you from the other side; by using some form of net.
( Figure 46) Maybe this
means I was caught in a net.Later saw a image of a big mountain in a picture frame. It was the same frame I have a Van Gogh in, and had just moved and covered the day before, because it was getting damp. My Van Gogh was the washer women and the boat by the old stone draw bridge, with the horse and covered wagon on it. I don't think this is connected in any symbolic way, but it probably could be if you stretched the imagination. Van Gogh did a few paintings of that same bridge. It was just the special picture and frame I was trying to preserve, and later saw the image of a big mountain in it.
Jan. 14,1994
In a dream I was walking on a cliff mountain path that was crumbling, and it was way down to shallow water if you fell. The fear I could fall was there. I thought we could make it past the sliding place, and could see where the path got better further down. I was pushing my bike, and there was a guy behind me. The girl who was in front of me fell first, and she dove. Then I just slid out in the air, and went feet first, as I left my bike, and saw that the guy behind me didn't fall. Somehow we seemed not afraid and the panic wasn't there anymore, and when we hit the water it was deep. I held my breath, and then we were swimming underwater towards shore and it was OK. (Had been walking down by the river earlier the day before, and was walking on a gravel bar that was caving into the river. That was the same scary feeling you feel in your stomach, when it just breaks.)
Later that morning I said "Hi Jeeze," felt a floating feeling, and saw a vision of a open hand that was a silhouette. A hand like mine.
EAT THE SCROLL Jan. 15'1995
Early on I saw a square image of a sheet of symbols that were odd,
( Figure 47) and was thinking of all the money that Family
Radio was getting for offering the Bible. I saw a church offering bowl being passed by a
arm, and a guy with a hammer in my wood pile; and then a big bird way up in the sky headed
north. Could this mean that I too am working for God and am like the big bird?Was thinking about all the rain and big flood, and all the people in turmoil. Then heard a "beep" like a car horn in my head. (Not the high pitch tuning fork sounding beep that I hear in my ear when they speak sometimes.) This was heard in my head like a sound thought, and then the thought "Both sides of the coin" came.
Jan. 16,1995
Saw a animal that was a big bird with a long beak, and it was biting the head of another type of bird or monkey. I was mad at the way my sister had edited some of my writing yesterday, but didn't want to be weird about it because she had done so much typing. I saw the big bird was a monkey or raccoon now, and it bit the head of the other creature, and it crushed like a skull cracking. The next morning I saw a show on penguins on TV similar to the big beaked bird in the dream. (Possible psychic dream again.) It means it tells a future event. I did eventually tell my sister that she totally warped out and misinterpreted my story, and even started changing it and using fancy words. Do you know how it feels when your story has been messed up and the person has added their own style? I know my notes were really a mess to deal with and I had to redo it myself anyway. She did get a lot of typing done though; but now I'm finally learning to type. I've been typing all night. I borrow the winery's computer and return it in the early morning. It's a whole different world being a night person, and seeing the mist floating above the lake on the cold crisp dawns. All the grass is green now and just coming up, and its a real wonderland out there. It gives a fresh new outlook on life, like you've died and gone to heaven and are born again. Just getting this story done is my main goal, and I will have time to enjoy life later.
Just now I was reading the writing my sister finished typing yesterday: and read May 28'1994, where it talks about the scroll that the prophet eats and it's sweet in the mouth and bitter in the stomach. A "beep" is heard in my left ear just then. Had been talking today about how you must face rejection with the special gift of Jeeze. It is also a honor and quite glorious, having all this knowledge, and the power to feel like you want to change the world. This is the double edge sword that cuts both ways. It cuts the person holding it, and also the person it is used upon. I'm still trying to figure out the real meaning of that saying. Maybe it just means you end up dying from the message, and also from trying to see the mystery of God. Whatever.
THE SILVER BOOMERANG Jan. 15,1995
A dream of running up the road and circled back into the gully, and I hid under a pile of dried grass that was rolled and fluffed up. My brothers walked through the pile and almost stepped on me, and I could hear their voices. Than I saw a pallet with a dark open space under it, where I hid. Early that morning I saw a bloody boy's face. I was upset by a book my sister gave me and felt tricked.
Later, a dream of a pot of food cooking, which broke into a vision of a barbecue pit stove with a pot on it, and than just a pile of ashes on the ground, shaped like a little mountain. There was a chunky white marble stone cross laying to the side on the hill a little. Then off to the side I saw a silver object laying on the ground a little ways away. It had three wings connected at the center like a propeller, but was like a Frisbee or boomerang silver flying object;
( Figure 48.) a three leaf
clover except with tapered back silver wings, that looked like bird wings. This could mean
I am not to stew in foolish thoughts, but transform and soar beyond. Three equals purpose,
and the silver is the mirror metal like the moon. To eat the food (message) of life and
let the fire change you, is symbolic. The white ash "mountain" pile is the new
you. The white stone cross is the purity of death. The impure has been burned away, and
now one is to soar with the eagles or higher birds beyond. Do you realize why the three
and four leaf clover has such a connection with leprechauns and old fairy tales? Probably
because they were given as parts to riddles to people back then. The color green, the
number of petals and the circular shape are all symbols. Even the shape of the petals can
be a wing or propeller.Also, earlier that evening I saw sheets of vertical lines. This could mean that my thinking is to ridged in one way.
There was another dream that happened twice. I was picking up quarters, and one was melted. This happened after worrying about money
Also, a week or so ago, I remember eating a avocado in a dream
Talked to my mother about my bad childhood, and we had mad peace finally, because there has been so much wrong between us. It has been a on-going neurosis where one is angry at the other for not giving them attention or respect; and is how her mother treated her also.
My parents used to work as doctors on the Navaho Indian reservation. My Dad used to work at Mendocino state hospital before it closed and became The City of Ten Thousand Buddha's. In the meantime, our family of twelve started a small vineyard and it has now grown to a fair sized winery over the last thirty years, but the winery is only about fifteen years old. Most of the kids are married now and there are maybe almost twenty grandchildren, and most of them still live on the ranch. My grandparents on both sides of the family were ministers of a church, and their parents were preachers also, and the ones before that even. Our family kind of rebelled at that, but we used to go to church when I was younger. It was just too much for my mom to have to do; to get everybody all dressed up.
Do you realize that they can predestinate you before your born. They can see the patterns in your family, and what might be the product for a good angry prophet. They just look for a syndrome that will turn up again. The bible says that the iniquities of the parent will be passed to the third or fourth generation. The aliens came when I needed them the most, and I bonded with them, and that's why I am so dedicated to their cause. People who say that they have no right to control your free will, just don't understand. They are like my other family.
Listening to the religious stations is nice when you hear good music, but sometimes having to hear all the news and same stuff over and over can just turn you off. Some of the preachers and the constant talk and advertising of their station can just ruin the whole thing. Its as bad as TV, and every two minute's you have to listen to more garbage. Religion: Even this can be boring, if it becomes too judgmental, arrogant, or repetitive, like my story. I don't want to sound angry, but that's how I feel sometimes.
Jan. 17,1995
Religion was made for all people, so you can't expect them all to be saints. A lot will use it as a weapon to point out how evil everyone is. Even though they are right, they are boring to have to listen to; just on and on; I have the truth and I am saved or whatever. Some people might need to hear that, but it gives religion a bad name. One can always just turn it off. The world is so busy, but there is a peace you can have if you believe that God wants you to be happy and he is always there. If you try to be good, your karma won't catch up to you. You can love others if you can love yourself.
THE OLD BLACK PHONE
Woke out of a dream where I walked around a closet and saw my trailer's door frame totally broken sideways with the door missing, and a great fear overtook me. Also, yesterday Japan had a 7.2 earthquake. Later in the morning, was thinking and wondering about why I haven't been receiving as many messages as much as I used to.
Also, the night before, was thinking about what shall I call my book? This morning, saw a image in my mind of a black book like my favorite bible, that said "Mark" on it, and was being bent and the pages were flipping by like a fan. This could mean that my book is almost ready. I was getting that feeling, and was tired of having to write so many notes.
Jan. 18 1995
Had a dream of a old black phone of the 1940's style; the chunky type of desk phone with slightly curved lines. My one sister has a old phone exactly like this one that I've went up to use a few times. This phone was similar to the old black bible. I have a old 1940's "f" hole, arch-back guitar I was playing the night before, but don't know if that's related; but it is from the same era. Could mean I am playing for them. This black phone must mean that there is a powerful unseen message to deliver. The message is the book, that contains the word of God. Believe it or nut's.
Jan. 19,1995
Had another dream of being in the library of the big house, and went outside. There were a whole mass of tomatoes all over the ground, and some were smashed and chickens eating them. I thought "What a waste," but there was so many, it didn't matter.
Had a dream of wanting pot before this. Talked to a old friend "Don" today, and tried to make him believe UFO's are from God. We talked of the first resurrection, and Pentecost, and how many were saved when the Holy spirit was poured out. I asked what he thought the Holy spirit was. Told him how God plays the role of Satan and that was one of the mysteries. Said how I also was superstitious even after they came to me, and wouldn't read many occult books at the library and thought them of Satan; but now believe it's all part of God. My old friend refused to read anything I offered him on the subject, and his neighbor also told me: "God won't arrive in a UFO; when Christ returns every eye shall see him, and we will all be caught up into the air to be with Christ. I said "Yea; the aliens are only floating people out through the walls and through the air into saucers." He said "Christ will come as a bright light from the heavens." Then I said "Yea right, and saucers are bright lights in the sky."
I can't believe that people don't even care and won't even study the subject. I tried to explain how they came to me as a child and I bonded with them, and that's why I'm so dedicated to the cause; but this scares people. It is too hard to believe I guess.
THE THREE ELEPHANTS Jan. 20,1995
Before falling asleep, saw a image of a small child, maybe one or two years old. He had a look of apprehension, and was turned slightly toward me.
This day is the second anniversary of the encounter. This is the first of the exactly three full day visit that started about a hour after midnight of the 20th, and ended right before midnight on the 22nd. Three was the number Jonah and Christ was visited. Remember how Jonah was three days and three nights in the belly of the whale? Christ was three day and three nights in the heart of the earth.
Jan. 21,1995
Woke out of a dream and was very afraid that someone was coming to get me. Knew it was them, and said "Oh hi Jeeze." They can make you feel very afraid.
Jan. 22, 1995
Had a dream of seeing my trailer and piles of junk arranged in nice order. A pile of brass horns, and my guitar that I had left in the rain, and brought it in to dry off. I walked up the path along the row of rocks, and felt very tired and saw a big flat circular chair rock, and wanted to sit down and rest.
Another dream of a monkey coming down a mountain trail, who was sliding down a wire as it crossed the river, and dropped a rag doll monkey, or other into the river as it came over. (I used to have a monkey doll I called "Monkey Bean," and carried it around even when too old to be doing that anymore. It was a nostalgic attachment.)
Was thinking of the church where I got into a argument and people were all shook up, and the preacher showed me the door. This was my neighbor's church, who is very religious, but I think I have cast doubt on his belief. Right then, saw a image of a frying pan overflowing with water in my hand.
Was thinking angry thoughts about my brother who tricked me, and saw a flaring fire being stoked with paper, like I stoke my stove.
Jan. 23,1995
A dream of being in a bar, and a girl behind the bar was serving beer; it cost 40 cents. I said "40 cents?; it used to be 25 cents." Then she mixed a watered down drink that I thought looked like a lot, but then saw only a third cup full. I had been worried about money the day before, and if I could afford to publish a book, or if I should self publish one. Thought maybe to have someone publish it, because of better distribution, and saw a faint light spot in my vision while eyes closed and laying in bed before sleep.
Jan. 24'1995
Told a religious friend and his friend up the road that they came to me out of thin air, and spoke with mental telepathy, and told me "Love your Dad, and love your Mom, and love yourself;" and that it's God. He said I was tricked by Satan, and still wouldn't believe. I said "Don't you see?; it was the same with Jesus."
Jan. 25,1995
Woke out of a dream and saw an image of three elephants standing out in the big river down in the valley. They were spaced out across the river with one near the edge on either side and one in the center a little down stream, in a V pattern. What could this mean? Had been reviewing my story the night before, and read about the elephants, and the time I dreamt of swimming down the river to the heart of the valley.
THE KING Jan. 26'1995
The other day while working on the computer, a box came on that was for describing the title, and the author. In the author space it said "The King." This has been there three times now, and it always says "The King" in the author box, but the other spaces for title and date are empty. This doesn't seem possible, because why would it be there three times now, and shouldn't it be empty? This is so amazing, and I'm starting to feel that they are doing this. I have heard of one other case where a lady was writing on the subject of "the little black boxes" that people always say they see in sightings of aliens, who have them on their belt sometimes, and have also been seen in other circumstances such as a needle in a small black box, or a box on the ground. Well, this lady was doing a study of the meaning of the black box, and she said that one appeared on her computer screen, and she had no explanation of how it got there.
The black box could mean that there is a mystery inside it, and is part of the puzzle to get people aware. I have a feeling that they can put things on the screen. How else can this be explained? If they want me to be a King, than I'll try to live up to that. I will study this, and see if it shows up again, or what's going on.
Jan. 26'1995
Had hung gypsum that day and had eaten a dinner of spaghetti. Went out to the outhouse after listening to Family Radios Brother Camping say that UFO's are a figment of peoples imaginations. Was still upset, and wondering and brooding about if anybody took my story seriously after the 12,000 letters I sent out. While crouched over the outhouse thinking that, I suddenly heard a odd low humm, sort of vacuum noise that only lasted a moment, but seemed to come from the inside of my head. I could feel the noise as a vibration that was changing pitch slightly. In the end I put my finger over my ear and said "Jeeze, is that you?" I knew it was. This has only happened once before, while sitting in the library at the college, and had almost finished writing the letter writing project. That hum was a little different in that it didn't have a low hum at the end. It is similar to a vacuum sound like the wind is rushing in your head for a few seconds, but has a hollow effect, and this one ended on a odd drone of low vibration that is a totally new one for me. This low "duunngg" sound is like a big gong at the end of its gong, and then just a faint low buzz. It was an electromagnetic field that caused this effect most likely, I think. It almost seemed they were saying my story was regarded as dung by many; but it could mean that I have just cast off a burden by not getting upset at the world.
WOOD STEEL AND FLEXIBLE STONES Jan. 28,1995
A dream of a camera rewinding like I saw on TV the night before. Saw a symbol in a circle, and the phrase: "There's lips on both ends."
( Figure
49.) The image of a misty mountain peak after that.Had wanted to get a camera, in case I saw a UFO. They are saying that it's more important to get married, which is the symbol, and the phrase I had earlier. Saw a mountain peak like that the day before on the way over to Boonville. There are many really impressive nice single mountains with peaks out that way. (Later, after a further clue, I realized that we are each one of the many smaller mountains, that are spreading God's word.)
Jan. 29,1995
Last night early in the evening while laying in bed, I was half asleep, and saw an image of a big ship that was just docking. I asked: "What did it bump against?" "Wood, steel, and flexible stones," was heard like a thought in my head. Saw big fist size or larger rocks in a wire net, and could imagine it crunching as the massive ship bumped into the dock. I quickly got up and made a note of it to write better later. It was a very good symbol of God's presence coming upon the earth. Do you remember the one a while back of when I saw the big blimp mother-ship hovering way above the virgin field that was being recently ripped for planting grapes? (Oct. 28,1994)
Anyway, I had been reading a book about "The Loggers," the day before this big ship image, and in the book, saw many old lumber schooners they used along the north coast when cutting the big redwoods; but this ship was really big like the Queen Mary, and was seen as if being at the bow standing on the dock and looking down the side. I was where it was going to be first tied up, and saw this pile of rocks in the net on the side of the dock, and had a feeling that when that rubbed into there, it was going to be crushing with sparks and smoke. I just could feel this about to happen. (Also, there was a bunch of gravel just recently put on the road that's my access road, and I saw that and drove over it the day before. My brother and a friend were fixing the road after the flood.) This must mean that we are the flexible stones.
Had a dream later in the morning of a lady that died because she used to smoke. A really straight guy from the Jehovah's Witness church told me that. It gave me more strength not to smoke, because I was scared that I also had quit, but wanted to live.
REFINING THE STORY Jan. 30,1995
A dream of fooling around sexually with a women who I thought was a long lost girlfriend. Had even read my notes the night before, of a part that said: "They give very sexual dreams to let you realize that it is only normal, and one doesn't need to feel embarrassed." Later was thinking bad thoughts about people's sexual habits, and then saw a pot belly that was surrounded by feathers. A friend had recently spoken how people used to be tarred and feathered, and I was worried about developing a slight pot belly. Does this mean to judge not? It is amazing how they can use odd facts, and later create a riddle. Maybe it means that a selfish person is concerned with his belly, and that will get them into trouble.
Jan. 31, 1995
Had gone to the library and read in "Omni magazine" about the creation myth of the Maya. It was all ideas from the positions of the stars, and what the patterns resembled. One idea was of the scorpion that was at the base of the tree. Another was three stars that were like the three stones of the hearth that was the center of life. When they cooked, the corn bread patties puffed up like a belly. (Had a image of a belly last night.) It was all tied in to a creation myth of "the people of the corn." Bloodletting sacrifice and the serpent played other roles. The serpent was a conduit to the underworld, and the pyramid was the abode of the Gods. The lower plazas were the earth, and the ball court was the crack to the underworld, where sacred games were played and you could live or die. They buried a person in the floor of the court, or house sometimes.
Later drove home on my scooter and stopped at a store to get gas. I asked the girl that I liked there, if it was Valentine's Day, because for some reason I thought It might be. She said "You're two weeks early." Said "I wanted to say happy Valentines day." Later after leaving and heading down the road, I was thinking that she probably didn't know what to say. Right then, heard a "beep" in my left ear. I said "Jeeze... Hi!" It really caught me by surprise.
Was editing my story on the portable computer that night, and while reading over Sept. 27,1994, where it talks of the rocks with many faces and the slab altar, I heard a "beep" in the right ear, which is rare, because usually it's always in the left.
Feb. 1,1995
Had run the computer until three the night before. Later had a dream as if trying to rearrange blocks of words similar to the way the computer shifts the chunks of words around. Then saw a flapjack of square molten steel that was slammed into a upright smaller refined long square rectangle between two hammers, like side bars that formed it. This means I'm refining my story. (About a week or so ago I even saw a scene on TV, of a big slab of red hot steel moving down a conveyer in a refinery.)
BIRD HOUSES Feb. 2,1995
Went over to a friend's house and saw two bird houses in his wood shop, that were on a table. This was midday. Right when seeing that, I remembered a dream the night before of being in the same room, and seeing my friend building bird houses on the same table. This was a psychic dream that was slightly different in the dream. In reality my friend wasn't home, and the bird houses were not in quite the same place. I didn't even know he was building them in reality, and didn't remember the dream until I actually was there and saw them. It's similar to a déjà vu, except in a déjà vu, you can't put a finger on where you recalled it. (This is a rare psychic dream that is remembered at the very moment the two similar scenes meet. This has happened only three times. One was the trees being cut across from the sawmill, when I went to pick nuts. The other was the red rock I found while digging grape holes for planting, back when I was about 27, or 28. Back then I thought it was a amazing coincidence, but didn't know it was from them. (See Dec. 9, and Nov. 26, 1994) There is always a parallel symbolic connection. In the future I will see houses for birds being built.
Another time I recalled a dream that happened in the future, was when I was at the Red Sea scene, on the second day of the major encounter. I didn't remember that until mid-day when my brother and I were looking at the swollen lake up in the woods, and then I recalled the man at the shore of Lake Mendocino, waving the rod in front of the group of people in white robes; and I was at the back of the crowd. (The scene of the lake was even given to me in a vision, two days before, and I thought that was where the saucer landed, but was part of the riddle, that connected the Red Sea scene the next day.)
The Idea that the scene is seen in the future, also holds the message that it (crossing the red sea) will happen in the future. The image scene (of the parking lot at the lake) that tied in back from the two days before, must mean my long ago contact with them from childhood. Both these scenes came together and made me recall the Red Sea scene of the night before, when I walked with God. (This must symbolize my just recent present encounter.)The three separate scenes connected, and three means communion or purpose.
The fact that it wasn't until a full day and a half later, that I recalled the whole first part of the walk with God, meant that: "In the future, after the death, (red sea crossing) we will walk with God;" and that has proved to be true. The idea of the last shall be first, and the first last, is also seen. First you have to die, before being reborn, or first you have to cross the Red Sea before getting to the promised land.
The number two is seen, in the two separate parts of the recalled dream, the night I walked with the Lord. The two parts were: to first die, (as when Moses waved the cane, and the water parted; meaning Christ's blood was crossed, because he made the way clear for all to pass to God's kingdom, and then later to be reborn in the new land. (The walk in the temple in Heaven.) That is why the last was first and first last. It is like this today, when entering Gods kingdom: "First you have to cross the Red Sea." The idea that it was actually Moses at the Red Sea, and not the whore sitting by many waters, took me a while to realize.
THE WHIRLWIND Feb. 3'1995
Typed until five thirty. Slept until noon and had a dream of being in two worlds that was slightly vague, and saw this symbol.
( Figure 50.) Later there
was a guy put in jail. Then had a very amazing dream of riding my scooter down the local
road and saw a electrical storm like a whirlwind, and the air had a strange tingling
effect. The storm was moving across a neighbor's field and was like dust in a twister
cloud, and heading toward my place. I was in a panic and feeling the electric charge in
the air when I arrived at the corner of our property, and saw the storm then in our field.
It looked like a long rectangle of an electric motors wire field winding, the outer one
that surrounds a magnet. This was spinning in a twisted form like a warped twister. The
sky was orange haze and my body buzzing from the electrical charge in the air. I was
panicking and quickly got off my scooter and leaned it against a tree. Then was fumbling
with the ignition key, trying to make sure it was off, and on the fork lock position, so I
could remove it. Here I was fumbling with the keys at a time like this! Finally got the
key out, and started to run. The charge in the air was so strong I could barely run. Right
then, I saw an orange bright flash that was this big orange glowing hazy splotch to my
right in the sky. Then I dove in the ditch, right at the corner of my driveway, because
the electric feeling was so strong and scary. Right then I awoke and was floating with the
electric buzzing feeling, and am laying in bed, and said "Hi Jeeze, I really liked
that one." It was such a neat dream. They haven't given one of these for awhile. One
thing I realized, was that, right where I dove in the ditch, was the same place where I
was in another dream, and also the same general area where I heard the kids yelling on the
first night they came back to me, in Jan. 20,1993. This is the "right angle"
corner of the property's boundary. Remember the vision of the right angle, when I said:
"Where... or how did you get here?" 
( Figure 4.) I
saw the flap moving slightly, right at the corner of the two rectangles. This is symbolic.
Also, the spinning warped long rectangle is like a electric motors field winding. This
whirlwind, along with the electric feeling, is also a symbolic message. ( Figure 51.) It
was twisted slightly like a DNA molecule.
Later while laying in bed, I thought of the girl at the station that I want to get to know. Then saw a brief image of a snake wave shape.
( Figure
52.)I read in the book "Atlantis Rising" by Brad Steiger, the old myth of the snake or wave people from the sky, that bred with the people on earth. (• Note 13A.) The reason they were called the snake race was maybe because of the wave vibrating electricity effect that they use. This could easily be seen on the surface of water, and was probably also shown to them in dreams or visions. This is similar to the idea of the serpent in the garden of Eden; and the seed of certain tribes were from the serpent. The bible speaks of the seed of the remnant that God will harvest, but I'm not sure what that means.
Adam and Eve were tempted, and ate from the tree of knowledge, because the serpent tricked them. The knowledge wasn't to be known then, and they were banned from the garden for trying to get those secrets.
The spiral feeling is also a very common drawing in many ancient rock art carvings or etchings. There are some old English or Irish rock circles and a few spirals.
SIGNS OF THE TIMES Sat Feb. 4,1995
Talked to a preacher today, and he told me the race of "Cain" was of the serpent and evil. He also said something about "the seed of the remnant." I learned from him, but am not sure what the "remnant" means exactly. He kept saying to go to the bible and try to prove this stuff, and wouldn't believe that God had it all in there; that it was kept under wraps in ways people didn't recognize, and so couldn't see the full mystery. We talked of if God has further secrets to reveal. He said he didn't know what Revelations meant where it talks of "the silence in heaven," and "the seven thunders." I kept telling him that there is a parallel physical dimensional world that is similar to ours. He said "No, it's spiritual." I told him many verses that relate, such as: in his image, sons of God bred with the daughters of men, Enoch went to heaven in a whirlwind, bright stars, pillars of fire, chariots in the sky, virgin birth. Told him to look for the signs and become apostate like the bible say's will happen. I said that God controls Satan and uses him as a tool to force the churches to become apostate. Later told him to listen to ("Dreamland" with Art Bell, the UFO talk show in Reno Nevada, 780 on the AM dial at 7:00 on Sunday evening.) He said "You may as well not come to church here; I already have the truth. I said "You have the truth now; I just told you." When we talked earlier, I said "Don't you see the similarity with old testament prophets, and also Saul on the road to Damascus; I know, because it happened to me, and nobody's going to stop me from telling people."
I had started out calm, and in the end, just really used every weapon and became even more a fanatic than he was. Told him to follow the rules and look for the signs lest thee be caught unawares. Finally he said he would listen to the Dreamland radio show. They (Dreamland) have all the experts in the field, except one who claimed to be a expert on dreams. He actually said that God doesn't create dreams, but it is our higher conscious speaking to us. Yea right; but maybe it's true, because God gives us a higher consciousness.
A THIEF Feb. 5, 1995
Thought of a show on TV I once saw, of people that had encounters with aliens. Right after that, saw a image of a burned out trailer. (My place did also burn.)
Feb. 6,1995
Heard talking in my head in a half dream. Something like: "If you put yourself in someone else's hands." It meant that they were trying to help me not go back to one person who always smokes and drinks and is a bad influence. They are trying to save my life from habits that were killing me.
Feb. 8,1995
Felt a tap on my shoulder as I just awoke; then dozed off again and had a dream where I walked in a house and saw a fish in a plastic bag that was laying on the floor. I took it and went in the kitchen. Then had my head in the bottom of a refrigerator, or freezer, and it was warm. Saw two very small glasses of grape juice like the one I stole from a church communion once. The fridge was warm and the juice stale, when I had tasted one. Saw a full small glass on the upper shelf. Then heard the door open, and was afraid I was busted. A short olive skinned Indian looking guy came in and said "Where is the fish?", in a demanding voice. I said "It's still here, I haven't eaten it yet." (At first I thought it was a religious meaning with a Christian fish symbol, and the wine in the glass.)
Later a dream of a white rock buried with a dirty spot in the center. I couldn't dig it up. There was a path leading to a large mass of water or a lake.
Later had a vision of what I thought was a saw and hatchet, or knife that was cutting. I figured it was cutting the fish. Then saw a bent nail on the dirt road.
Later a scene of being in a kitchen and cooking something I thought was the fish. Then a scene of the little poison spores from the poison fish. Later some talk about all the evidence, and you won't see. Then I saw a fair sized red spot, as big around as a pencil, in my vision while eyes closed. It meant to stop; and that I steal, and did eat the poison fish, and the stale grape juice, and it will make me sick. I'm a thief, but I'll try to not do it anymore. I also stole a cue ball from the thrift store awhile back. Stealing makes a person paranoid. I would also eat food left in peoples refrigerators, when care-taking.
Feb. 13,95
Saw a fly that I was trying to scrape off of my skin. It's head was imbedded or buried in my skin, but I couldn't get it off. It was like a wort with a root that dug in. Was picking at the fly with it's head imbedded in my skin, and then suddenly it's head popped out and it was a very scary demons head on the fly. I threw it in the fire to destroy it. When I finally was able to rip it out, it was a hideous black hairy face with big yellow bloodshot eyes, and it really scared me.
Later had a dream of wine glasses with stale wine in them, and I was at a friends house where I always get drunk. There were clay pots recessed under in the tables, and were like the lava pimple buried in the skin. It was a vessel full of fire a few nights ago, and now I see vessels in the same shape, imbedded in the table top, except empty. This must mean to stay away drinking, because I drink too much.
Feb. 14,95
In a dream at a creek where two rivers meet, found two rocks with holes to hold water in them. One was round with a hole, and one was a flat triangle with a water hole. I looked on the river bank, that was a flooded vineyard. Saw some houses up on the hill, and then saw there was a rock deposit down in the valley with a white rock marble factory that had very nicely carved shapes of a certain design.
(Figure 52A)
These shapes are similar to the rocks found at the forks of the river. There were also
wooden boxes full of pure white blank pieces in rectangular slabs.Later was rigging a conveyer belt, that delivered my pages of the writing of the story, from a boats bow, like a production line. My brother wanted to run the show and I was arguing.
Had a vision of flowing hemoglobin cells pulsing in a stream around a intersection, which is the production line of living life.
( Figure 52B)Saw some flying machines land and a hover craft take off. This was in a train station type of big building; people were standing around, and there was no noise at all. I was telling someone about the ionized envelope effect used by saucers.
Saw handwriting on paper that became circles over the top of the writing.
Later had a vision of squiggly lines flowing in pairs, like in a stream.
(Figure 52C) This ties into the flowing hemoglobin cellsLater was by a table of dope plants that became flowering broccoli, and later was a carved chocolate statue on a table, that people were eating off of, at a party. Could this be related to Valentine's day?
Saw a group of people sitting at a square table (The family from the Jehovah's church.) and on it was a chocolate castle; and the one son sat at the place of honor at the end of the table, and he was the king.
Saw a toy steam locomotive on a velvet cushion or display tray, and it was slightly coming apart like it was wreaked; and someone showed it to me. I was in a cafeteria with toy models hanging from the ceiling, and someone pointed out a small steam engine like a vee twin Harley motor.
Saw a baby laying on it's mothers stomach and chest, out looking in the green field and looking out over a lake; my lake. Then saw water flowing down my snaking little stream from the lake. It was a lot of water; clear and slow flowing, and there were big clear bubbles like half domes on the surface as they moved downstream as the water flowed by.
Feb. 19,95
I had been typing all night. I had dreams all night of when I was a kid, and I was in love with different girls who walked with me and treated me like they would always be there and come back. The one girl let me put the key in the ignition to start her car, but I put the key in the wall of a house by the door, and the car started outside and she had left, but I knew she would come back for me. There was a lady watching as she left, and I was walking uphill and felt proud that I had a girlfriend who really liked me.
Later was on a big boat and there was a bunch of orangutans in a group and they were really friendly. Then I saw one small boy being petted on the head by the orangutan monkey, and I felt a overwhelming love that this animal had, and wondered how animals so dumb could have so much intelligence. There was a person sitting next to them, and I looked at him in amazement. Later I was thinking that the aliens must have given me all this sense of love, and I saw an image of a few cars pulled up outside. There was a big white old fifty's Chevy flatbed truck that just pulled up in my driveway. It was really nice and new looking. I then had a feeling like floppy disks were being shoved into the computer and different programs had been available during my life. There was a vague scene, and then a cross like a Christian cross made of black PVC pipe. This meant that they had come to me when I was younger, and gave me all this emotional support. (Black is unseen power and water is the word.) Later I heard a saying in my head; something like: "Athletes do that because it's part of the program."
When a kid, I remember a small stuffed orangutan doll that I used to carry everywhere I went; called "Monkey bean." I thought back on that and recall I was a big kid when doing this. Later in life I really was fascinated with gorillas, and always wanted a monkey. Somehow they gave me love in the form of attachment to primates or animals. I know that Whitley Strieber in his book "Communion," talks about once seeing a pack of monkeys bounding over a lawn, that he thinks is related to them.
There was another scene of when I was riding my bike at the coast, and was in Mendocino at a big fair that had taken place the day before, in the field by the ocean, and there was a white church across the street. The fair was over because it happened yesterday and I missed it. I could see all the peoples foot prints in the gravel by the entrance, but the field was empty. The white church across the street seemed closed and there was nobody anywhere when I drove off on my bicycle.
Feb. 20,95
I handed something to a person at a table, and the guy pulled out a knife and tried to stab me, and at the same instant, I saw a bright white spot with red around the edges, that was jagged, and like a blood splat. There was a Bible verse in the white center part of this bright jagged splotch, that quickly appeared to my left, as this guy tried to stab me in the left shoulder. Later that day I had a person treat me rude, and I tried to not take offense. I couldn't recall the Bible verse, but it was most likely one that says to forgive, because I was starting to take offense at that guy, but he couldn't help it. This was a psychic dream, and I had the feeling something was going to happen that day; and it did.
After that scene, I later saw a image of a old check that my Dad had left in a old book before he died. It was a check with strange Latin writing on it, and some bible verses, and was behind the front face of a black hardback old book that was called "The Sacred Mushroom of the Cross." (• Note 13B) There was a circular seal stamped on the check, and the verses were Romans 16:18 for the amount, and signed 1Cor. 13:13.
(In real life, the book had gotten a little wet from the flood, and I had tried to preserve it and had dried it out and cleaned mold off.) When I saw the image of the old check in my mind, I saw a old wrinkled check with water damage, just like the one in the book. My Dad had left that check as a riddle type of joke, and had filled it out with strange writing that is revealed in the book, if I study it. The two Bible verses, filled out on the checks lines were (Romans 16:18, and 1 Cor.13:13) There wasn't a circular seal on the real check, but only in the dream.
My dad was very well read in all religious and philosophical books, and was a student of Latin, that he learned when in the seminary, when he became an ordained minister. That is the only place where one is still required to know Latin. Latin and Greek are the roots of our language and our words are still a part of the old languages. This old book I haven't read yet, but have looked through it, and have seen much symbolic knowledge relating to Christianity and old religions. The riddle is that my spirit dad is playing the role of my real dad. The fact that the book became wet from the flood during my major encounter, means that God's word had touched it. Many books were ruined, but that one barely escaped, because it was on top. Most of the books weren't worth keeping anyway. My dads old "Walden" book also survived. My dad really liked Walden and so did I.