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Saw the daisy's, and then the bull. This means to not steal rocks on some one's property. The smell of leather seats in the persons car when he gave me a ride home, was the clue. The bull is jealous of the daises on his property, and the rock I took was where the daisy's were in the image, and in real life.
Saw the saxophone, and the sideways wavy long "S" shape symbol later.
( Figure 53.) shows the circular keys on the sax, and the
playing toward the higher notes symbol. 
Saw the old man's house with the rocks around the chair, and the big green jewel rock I was trying to steal.
Saw a pointed pyramid rock, small piece of glass that was ready to be stepped on. It was on the spiral house floor remains, laying in the center right side of the flair as it uncoils.
I had recently thought of crushing up four thousand panes of old greenhouse glass, for floor fill to make a garden, but was afraid it would be a big mess, and end up cutting myself. I want to finish the rock wall someday before Jeeze comes back, and it will be a temple in celebration of Jeeze and God, and all the angels. The spiral feeling is the shape I made the house in, but didn't know then, that it was them that came to me when I felt that twisting a few times when younger. The triangle glass is the sacrifice on the top of the pyramid, and the right angle where the two dimensions meet.
Feb. 8,95
Vision of a silhouette of me from behind. Maybe means being born again or watched over.
Image of big boat moving slowly across the top of the ocean, was small when seen from under the sea way up there. I was on the bottom looking up. Am I the vessel on the big water?
The time I talked to the next door neighbor when he intimidated me, but was his friend and servant.
The scene of the refrigerators, and the bent disconnected freon pipe slammed in the door. I opened it and a hot blast of air came out. I Was worried about getting all the scrap wood, and the other people were competing with me, but I was actually that person, just like the neighbor also.
A WRINKLE IN TIME Feb. 9 or 10,95
About a week ago I bought a book called "A Wrinkle in Time" by Madeline L. Engle. (• Note 14.) I found it at the thrift store, and had heard the name in some other writings on UFO related material. It's a book for young readers, and at first I thought it wasn't the same book. It's about some strange characters that show up in a thunderstorm. They leave into thin air on a stormy night, and come back to visit the kids off and on. Later they take them on a ride across the universe. The book has overtones of visitation. They can dematerialize, or suddenly appear in a cloud or alter reality.
After getting this book, there was the most amazing coincidence that happened three or four times over the next few days. While writing or thinking a certain word, that word would be spoken on TV at exactly the same time. It happened again. When I was thinking about my father, the word was spoken on the radio at exactly the same time. One time the word that matched up was " looking or searching." I forgot the word on a few of the instances, but think the meaning of the word itself was part of a clue. Another time the word I was thinking was "begin." This word would actually align itself "exactly" with the word on TV or radio, when well into my thought process and subject matter. This happened when I was either writing, reading, or thinking. I had been editing on the computer, and this seems similar to the way the words shift and realign themselves. A wrinkle in time describes the method used. It started to happen a lot, right when I got the book, but had happened a few times before, but I couldn't believe they were doing this then. I just couldn't figure out how it was done. This was the biggest puzzle yet.
THE BIG CIRCULAR EMBLEM Feb. 16,95
Had a dream of a airstream trailer that was a kid's playhouse, and a building in the back yard that was the same similar shape, except bigger like a silver airplane hanger. Later awoke and saw a airstream trailer on a TV commercial.
A dream of climbing down a long rickety wooden ladder with a rock tied to a string, and was picking my way down precariously.
Feb. 17,95
Was at a party in a big room full of people and everyone was talking, but it was all whispers.
Feb. 20,95
A dream of climbing up the court house wall with my bike, and looking at the big circular emblem in the center of the outside wall, above the door. I dozed on awhile, then the whole scene happened again. I was somehow pushing my bike up the wall, defying gravity, and had climbed up there along a corner in the wall on the right side, and was looking left, admiring the emblem with a feeling of loyalty, that I have for Jeeze and the cause. The big seal above the door had a carved stone face of a founding father, like Mount Rushmore, except somewhat flatter. I had a lot of energy in the dream that is similar to real life, and how I've been typing all night with enthusiasm to tell this amazing story about the aliens and how they speak.
THE QUICK AND THE DEAD Feb. 27,95
Watched a western movie last night, called "The Quick and the Dead." It was about a pioneer couple being stalked by a bunch of bad guys. A half breed mountain man helped them try to stay ahead of the bad guys. They were able to somehow pick the bad guys off one by one as they were traveling quickly with the help of the mountain man half breed. Finally the bad guys were all dead.
They homesteaded in a promised land area, and the savior half-breed rode off into the wind and back to the wilderness, which was all he had known. He was in love with the lady who was married, and he longed to have a family, but left them in the end.
It was a late night movie that was so good, I stayed up all night watching it. Later toward morning while half asleep, I saw a image of a bullet laying in the path that leads from my trailer out toward the road.
Mar 1,95
Vision of the water bugs on dirty brown water.
Saw bugs in the flowing water.
Saw the warped computer disk,
( Figure 54) and later the
"L" with the circle around it, that means to look, when the computer shows it's
searching. The doors.
Saw the cracked wooden floor threshold, which meant the foundation was lacking. (Had smoked at a friends house yesterday.) Saw the square houses, and to fix my story.
Saw the pyramid peak, which meant some dying was needed.
Saw a big purple spot like a full moon with a white ring around it. This was a big blotch in my vision when eyes closed.
Mar 2,95
Vision of a snake's hole in the ground. A hole with a ring of dirt around it.
Saw a green deer kicking its legs like it was struggling on it's side. Saw two balls of rice, one slightly larger and in a pattern of woven geometric shape with pairs of two, at right angles to others.
( Figure 54A.) Saw a
woven wicker ball at a friends house the day before.After that, an image I was chewing on the end cartilage of a chicken bone. (They are saying to try eating a wider variety of food, because I eat spaghetti constantly.)
A dream of digging a new grave next to the old sheep's grave, and finding a red rock with two mountain peaks on it. (I had helped a friend bury a old ram that died the day before at a place where some rock piles were.)
Later a dream where I saw my old truck in pieces, and started to cry. (It was the truck that was burned in the fire, and although a wreck anyway, I still was sad to see it a total ruin that wasn't worth saving. The next day I would try to dismantle it.)
TWO BITES IN THE APPLE Mar. 4,95
Dreamed of a room with a woman in a bed under white sheets. The floor had a pattern of crosses that covered it totally in a tile or wood repeating design, that was shiny. The crosses were white with wood brown between.
Later a dream of seeing a few young children standing, than a woman's torso, then a person with raised forearms and hands pointed up. His elbows were bent, forming a perfect square, and he stood by a slightly tapered alter with a fairly large circle on the front.
( Figure 55.) A dream of being in the ocean surf, and there are yellow golden apples floating in the waves. Some other people are getting them, splashing and running in waist deep water. I see one apple, but a cripple girl floating on her back gets it first. I see one through the water being carried along the bottom by the current, and there is two bites in it, but it still looks good. I try to get it and reach into the deep water, and then woke up. (I saw a little girl in a wheelchair on TV the day before.)
Being in a cave with water bubbling and flowing out. At first I couldn't see what it was, but then saw the heavy iron or sulfur deposits on the rocks the water flowed over. It was a sulfur spring. (Means that my story had some editing needed, and bad parts were stinking it up. Like a person farting under a blanket, I know that this is where they connected the idea.)
Later saw what looked like a square spider web, but then soon realized it was the top of a pyramid.
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Figure 55A.) Means there is some dying that needs to be
done. I have seen this before Riding my motorcycle up a very steep paved road, and once almost caught the bars and crushed the mirror when I pulled in behind a big trucks flatbed, but was barely able to grab the clutch in time. Then I kept going up a very steep smooth paved road in a nice neighborhood with trees and green grass in springtime, then into a tunnel where a road flag man stopped me and other people behind a truck. We were all waiting, and some people got out of cars and were visiting. A bat or some black flying thing swooped by and got caught in a older ladies hair. She was upset and trying to get it out when I turned the gas valve of my motorcycle on then, and gas somehow was leaking and running down across the road in a small stream. Right then the whole scene just turned into a swirling mass of smoke and then fire, and I woke up in a very real vision coming out of a lucid dream. This was so real and shocking. (Must mean that I need to not say things that will hurt people.)
Mar 5,95
I had stolen a rock from a neighbors yard the day before. That night while laying in bed, with eyes open and watching TV, the image and thought came in my mind, that I was trying to break into a steel box, like the tool box on the running board of my old truck. This actually came in my mind while eyes open which is very rare. They can even do this, but normally only speak when eyes closed, or in partial or full sleep.
There was one other time when a very strong thought image came when awake. This was very early on, when at a friend's house, and I had smoked. I was sitting at his table, and suddenly had the strong image that there was a burning hot wire in my right hand. I was shocked and opened my hand and saw a line of white glaze across my palm. I thought it was icing from cookies we ate, but it wasn't. I rubbed it off and it was gone, but later I wondered how it got there. The line of glaze was in the exact spot as the image of the burning wire. This all happened when wide awake. I still wonder about the white glaze, and how it got there. Later my friend offered me some pot to take home, but I said "No." The message they gave me was: We give you the burning rod of power in the right hand to overcome and transform.
There were some other rocks I wanted to take, and kept thinking about it. Later had a dream of some rocks I had stashed under the bridge, and then awoke in a vision, of a cartoon distorted army sergeant is yelling at me, and I can see the mouth warped out with tooth bent. This was like Sad Sack is being bawled out by the sergeant, and at the same time, and right after that, I feel a odd wave shock motion in my body, like the reverberation of a gong, except in a odd electric undulation effect. They can do many variations of the wave vibrating. This was so bizarre. It was how one would feel after being bawled out in the army. At first I was mad at them, but later I respected them and realized they were right, that they couldn't let me get away with that after they had already told me to stop taking rocks. It was like I forced them to have to be that way, like a child would test the authority of a father. I just got carried away but it has made me respect them more.
Later a dream of a old man who was laying in a cloud of smoke and looked sick and pale. He is in the sky in a cloud, and looked like he was dying. He had a white mustache. (They are saying to stay away from smoking again. It is true that they have always tried to help me, and I keep lying.)
The guy looking at the world with his eyes, and hearing with his ears. I don't recall exactly but this was a thought I heard.
THE SILVER RING Mar 7,95
Was thinking of the other side, and saw a image of a circular hole in a wall, with another wide open space out there through the hole. This happened while lying in bed with eyes closed.
A dream with piles of junk everywhere around a house. I looked over the fence and saw a nice raised bed for a garden in the back of someone's yard. (The next day I burned my big pile of garbage and dug a garden bed.)
Later this evening I was watching Northern Exposure on TV, and the lady sitting in the theater said "Why are you sitting above and behind me?," to a guy behind her sitting on another bleacher. Right then I heard a faint "beep."
Heard my dad's old library door slam in a dream. There were a few pianos in there that were under the floor. I heard the old door slam like a thought in my head.
Mar 8,95
Saw a silver ring on a stained white sheet. (A finger ring)
Saw a orange light on the end of a blimp shaped tit, and three smaller lights above, of blue yellow and red.
( Figure 56.) Saw a pregnant woman's stomach with a small cut or blood on the left side. I could see the head of the child inside, as it was poking the skin of the stomach up in one place. At first I thought they were telling me I was a implant since birth, and was shocked and thinking my dad wasn't my real father. After a series of images, from them drawing a black curtain across my vision as if to say to start over, to giving dreams of someone telling me I have my father's legs, to seeing someone asking a short cowboy named Sam, with dung hanging on his foot, for help at a neighbor's barn, and then seeing a lamb in the yard full of dung everywhere, to seeing a monkey, to opening a broken refrigerator with the disconnected freon pipes caught in the door and feeling a blast of warm air come out, to worrying about there not being enough wood when I have a massive pile already, to seeing a image of the little man's face that speaks to you on the computer when it's trying to tell you something's wrong or to explain a situation, to hearing a snapping noise like a branch breaking, to seeing pieces of wood as if they are being laminated together, (I was then finally able to realize that the original message was: That I was symbolically born when the odd orange light on the end of the tit, cigar shaped mother ship shone on me.) (I had seen on TV the day before, a guy talking of his sighting of a large blimp shaped mother ship.)
The silver ring on the stained white sheet was the death of sins before or after marriage, maybe. Who knows. I am still afraid to be born. The blood on the left side of the woman could be anger, but most likely is a symbol of the death necessary to be a contactee and dealing with all that goes with it. (The unconscious side is the left.) There is the tit, the conception, the dying and rebirth. The silver ring means a marriage that reflects.
THE TWO FASTENERS Mar 9,95
Saw a white five gallon bucket with macaroni and mayonnaise, like a salad mixture, and a small tub of grease, and then a small pole that falls down on it. (This must mean to lower the boom on the fat habit. I left out a tuna tin of grease for the wild cats or coon that comes sometimes, and it was the same in the image. The macaroni salad is like salad a friend would always leave when I care-take his house, and I had another jar of mayonnaise in my fridge. But normally I eat way too much pasta with tomato sauce, and put mayo on potatoes. They just put the riddle together in this way, using odd facts. This proves that they have a record of everything.)
Later that night I was hoping to see those fuzzy red lights in the sky again, and also that melting floating feeling. I saw the lights and almost felt it a little, and knew they were there.
Mar 10,95
Saw two fasteners with large cone tapered tops, a hole in the center of each top, and threads on the lower bolt sections of two inches, and no threads right toward the very end tip. There was first a large pair that was clear, and then a smaller set.
( Figure 57.) Later saw two people kissing. (Had read a book on physics the day before and it talked about the polarity of subatomic particles, and the forces that hold them together and keep them in balance. This is the very dynamics of the building blocks of all matter. The parallel dimension must exist at a right angle to ours, and is at a vibrational frequency that converges always at a right angle. This explains the pyramid shape and the use of the right angle in the visions, and other times in dreams throughout history. The cornerstone is just another example. The triangle is the smallest three dimensional form, and when spinning, is the shape of a cone.)
Mar 11,95
Was thinking that someday they will visit me again. Heard a "beep" right then.
Later while dozing, saw blood on the table of food. (This meant I was going on a diet.)
Mar 12,95
A image of the curtain on the floor, was wet from the leak in the roof where the big "square" hole for the chimney was left open. (Normally the curtain for the window is never on the floor there, so there is a deeper meaning.) The square as in the cross, the water as in Gods word, made the curtain wet on the floor.
Saw the circular top of the big vase, full of water to the brim and spilling over when the person tried to pick it up off the porch floor.
Saw two trees with red maple leaves in the plowed field. They both had twin upright bending out branches.
( Figure 58.) There was a
round sun to the right a little, and the light shone through the leaves. There was a old
piece of iron or a root in the lower center right, that someone had plowed up out of the
ground in the freshly plowed field. Earlier the thought "Sidney the testosterone Frederick," then after that I saw white long curved shapes like ice on tall bending grass.
Then saw a small cat laying there, and then a mother next to it, that licked it's fur. When the mother licked the cub, the wet water on the fur turned blood red on the bending grass shaped fur.
THE BRIGHT PURPLE STAR Mar 13,95
A dream of, I walked into a room and a thin guy who was very drunk, handed me a bottle of wine. The label had a tree with many leaves on it. I told the guy he was too drunk and took the bottle, and he left. I poured two thirds a glass full after my father poured a big glass full. He had a Humphry Bogart gangster look, like I saw on a commercial once. He and another guy were sitting at the back center of the round table, and facing out. I thought I took too much wine at first, but then took a sip as I walked clockwise around the room. It tasted like a strong vinegar slightly, as I got my foot caught under a partly open door that did slightly crush my foot. The taste was similar to some vinegar I tasted at a friend's house, when we had a chicken dinner with potatoes the night before. He (the friend) said it tasted like jet fuel, and was real tainted with a burnt flavor that was similar in the dream.
Had a dream image in the morning, of a tractor plowing in a field heading slightly uphill towards a horizon, and a full moon in the sky that was slightly to the right.
( Figure 59.) 
Mar 15,95
A few days ago I saw a bright star overhead that was purple, and later it was gone. This happened when I came home, and I kept looking at it, thinking it was watching me, but I wasn't really
sure that it was unusual, and would look off and on at it. It seemed too bright and was faint purple, and sometimes I thought I saw a red glare on objects in the dark. Later the star wasn't as close, but a bright star was further out in the area, but it wasn't purple. I could swear that it was altered reality at one time. The star wanted me to clean up my place, because when it was there I was studying what I'd do, and was making plans for a major alteration.
Heard the saying "no more raviolis and rocking chairs" in my head this morning. (I'm trying to loose weight, and not get too fat.)
Later saw a image of a old woman crying and in much distress over a son gone bad.
A GOLD COVER ON A SILVER WATCH Mar 16,95
Steps leading to a very full lake of water with waves washing on gravel. There were three sets of square white four by four posts, three or four feet high in pairs, on either side of the steps. A set of posts on the sides of the third, fifth and seventh step. This led into a old remodeled house, and Dave Webb was there with a Michelob beer he was drinking.
Later saw a egg shaped sky sitting on a stand, like a piece of pottery, with a gourd style stem on top. The egg was a clear blue sky with some cloud in it, and was tilted slightly to the right, and the stem also. It was on tripod feet in a stand.
( Figure 60.) (I saw some pottery shaped like vegetables in a
magazine today at the collage library.) Once in a dream I saw a person with a black front upper big left tooth. He was facing me. (That meant greed, and how I should not get caught up in that.)
Saw a person with a chipped left tooth in another dream once. (That meant anger. Left means weakness I thought, but after reading Swedenborg's journal of dreams, I found it also means unconscious.)
What is amazing is that the people in the dreams were the people I was having the trouble with in that area, and the problem was actually mine. The character was a combination of two people that I was angry at, or jealous of.
Later saw a golden watch on a chain, that I put in my watch pocket, and then gave back to someone.
Then I cut a gold cover off the silver watch inside, (like my dead dad's two watch covers found in his pocket when he died. This he did to say that time had stopped.) The silver was so bright compared to the worn out bent gold covers of the old watch.
Then the silver watch was a perfect big sphere that was opened up with the lower half filled pretty full with snow, and had blue sky with some puffy clouds above. There was a small golden watch or object in the snow, on the left side in there. The gold object in the snow was on the right, but seen on my left since I faced it.
My brother and I were looking at this. I asked him what it meant. He said "Look at the mountain, it's burning." The trees were like a Van Gogh picture, and changing in a swirling mass, like being on fire. It became less and less until bare. We watched this at the same time the open globe with snow, sky, and the small gold object in it, was still in front of us. There was open blue sky with some clouds in the upper part of the globe, (like the egg had, that was seen earlier.)
As the mountains and trees changed in this swirling pattern off and on, being eaten away in time lapse photography, the snow became somewhat less in the globe, and the little gold object (watch?) laying in the snow before, was now gone. The other scene's burning trees got smaller to the ground, and soon the mountain became like a desert on part of it, and the snow now was very much lower. That was the end.
I heard a bible verse on the radio the night before, which spoke of snow on the ground, and the preacher said (Right now while typing this, the number "33" just was put in at this place, and I didn't press the button for it, but it was there when I read it.) it meant the gospel. The snow means the old gospel is now changing.
(The day before I was feeling sorry I had traded my old gold watch for a rock, a long time ago, but knew it was worn out anyway and was one less thing to worry about.)
Later I saw an image of a deer dashing through the brush on the lower fence line by my house. (I was slightly puzzled, but knew that a deer did die in the fire when my place burned, and it was buried in a pit that my brother put a big rock on.)
A little later I see an image of a pit with water in it. (I knew it meant that the deer had died from the fire and was now the water of the new gospel. It is like me and my transformation.)
There was a time when "The King" would appear on the box that says to write the title and author etc. This has happened at least three times that I can recall. The computer's title box would just appear and in the author line is written "The King."
THE GREEN SNAKE CANE Mar. 19,95
Saw bright light on the floor boards of the old barn, below the big leak, where it always got wet.
An image of a slit shaped cut in the center, palm of my hand.
An image of a sliver of glass removed from my penis, like it was at the surface just popping out and I was relieved.
A black cushioned covered inside of a culvert pipe, that was just big enough to crawl through.
A bunch of food, and I took a piece of dark bread and gave some to a black man. Some fell in the bushes and the rain was dissolving it. I thought it a waste, but oh, well.
The night before, I saw bugs on the surface of a pool of water on my trailer roof, and leaking in. This image was after worrying the roof would leak again if the puddle was too full.
A time earlier once, I saw two specks of white light, and then the radio became obviously playing in my head, which meant "listen." This was the night of being born, when I misunderstood the message, and they gave all the symbols to correct me. This was one I forgot.
A few days ago, had an image of the herb plants I was going to plant, and saw one right outside my trailer door on the right side, planted in the ground. (Maybe this is related to the Bible, where they use herbs. When you crush the leaves it gives a sweet smell.) There was a plant on the right side only. Maybe they washed their feet in water with herbs, and it is an ancient custom.
Mar 20,95
Was running down a road full of gullies and really reckless, but somehow didn't get hurt, just gliding over the most ragged ditches. A girl is running in front, but was all right. We ran up a narrow path and climbed in the back way up blocks and through empty boards into a old wooden building. I was jabbing a friend in the leg telling him to move, and was very impatient as we climbed the block steps. Right then, a vision of seeing a police car with flashing red lights, pull away. Saw this from above, eighty feet in the air. Later a vague vision of maybe an earth spinning like a ball or globe.
Later that day I saw cop cars on TV, and later that evening saw a globe of the earth spinning on TV. This was a psychic dream with two facts in the riddle, from different times of the next day. This means the message will come true in the future.
Mar 21,95
An image that early evening, of a field of green grass with light rain drizzling on it. (I was out in the field earlier that day cleaning up the last of the tree branches cut last summer, that the fire killed, and it drizzled.) This image uses facts from the day before. Now its a nice green beautiful place, and with the rain.
Mar 22,95
Woke at five, said "Hi Jeeze." Saw a blue spot in my eye.
Saw an image of a bright white light twice peeking in a window on the edge of the shade.
Saw a small radio. (Means to look and listen.)
Saw my old metal safe that's sitting out in the field. ( This must mean to look, listen, and put this away. Or maybe it means, we see, we hear, and you are safe and secure. The fact that my old safe's door is not able to lock, I think doesn't matter. I think the color blue means industrious, or to create.
A vision of dark sharks fins circling, and then a vision of back peddling a bicycle. (Means to be careful in certain areas.)
A vision of Rocky the flying squirrel and Bullwinkle; a vision of the Lion king; vision of Yosemite Sam or Quick draw Mc Graw. (All these characters represent me and telling the story.)
An image of a green snake with its head in the shape of a cane crook, the body like a corkscrew twisting up the handle a little, and the head horizontal for the handle.
( Figure 61.) Saw a rock with a Indian design on it. 
( Figure 62.) The cross design was on the breast pocket over
the heart of a earlier vision. (This is like the Navajo blanket design my parents have,
where a group of dancer medicine men are in a row. My parents were working with the Navajo
as doctors, when I was a very young child; maybe at about the time I developed my
relationship with the aliens and Jeeze.) Saw a big fallen tree, and then one that was all rotting into the ground.
PURPLE FIST HOLDING A ROD Mar 23,95
"We tried to blow it all off as foolish pride's mist." I thought this after a dream of putting insulation on a big pine tree, and then the branches started falling on me. I was then running away and someone was shooting at me with a hail of bullets. Then someone stood in the way, and right then, had a clear vision of being towed behind a horse by the hands; towed through the dirt rolling naked on a rope. This was as real as being there. They can do this by using virtual reality that's obviously beamed into the brain; induced sounds and emotions that fit the subject is also added.
Later once, saw a large purple glass dome lens on a chair, like a hat but thick purple glass, like a half saucer. (I have a couple large lenses like this, and also a old, small tinted purple glass "fist," holding a rod. I had saw that just the day before or so.)
Later a dream of getting a bunch of brass things, brass horns and junk off a white picket fence, and had them in my hand to save them, because a big grader machine was coming down the fence line to plow the area down. I took the brass items and went in a big old white house near the ocean, and saw a secret door hatch to the attic with steps leading up, and went up there. There was a big pile of old books heaped across the wall, and my mother was there straightening up. I wanted to hide the brass horns and candlestick holders etc., and asked her where there is a safe place so nobody would find it. I picked a place by the wall, and she said "Why don't you put it by a window?" I thought it safe, stashed by the wall, and told her I didn't want anyone to find it. I spit on her foot as she was sitting with me in a pile of books, but I wasn't angry at her and didn't know what it meant.
Mar. 24,95
A vision after a dream, of a cow, I first thought was a lamb, but later another vision of a cow that wrapped upward around a person, as if a cloth or hide unfolding, and then spinning like the loose flap of a window shade that has rolled up on it's spool, flapping as it slows down, and then becomes a hamburger that filled the picture. It meant to eat the holy cow of the hang-up with my mother. (They once said "Holy cow" after a fight with my mother, and got this phrase from me, when I speak to myself.) Before the vision, was a dream of arguing with my sister about a heirloom, and a little kid with a weird bulging eye was putting a marble under my rocking chair. Later saw the holy cow that represented my hang-up.
Earlier was an image of water running down a road of gravel, like the nearby access driveway just past my gate. Maybe this means that other family members do have the pure water (love) of Gods word.
Felt the spiral feeling folding in on itself. They do this sometimes when I'm upset.
Saw a road to the coast and high waves.
Later saw a man and a woman naked and laying on their backs, in a field at the coast maybe. Then saw a bunch of monkeys holding hands like the game "a barrel of monkeys," where you try to connect little plastic monkeys all together by the hands. The monkeys were hanging together next to the people laying there, and right then I felt a pin prick on the little finger of my right hand. This meant that I should try to find a girlfriend.
THESE ARE MY SHEEP Mar 25,95
Saw a rectangle green stone. ( Figure 62A.)
Had a vision of what I thought a squirrel in the woods.
Later a vision of peeking through the trees. Could mean I am a preoccupied with saving for the future constantly. (As it turns out, the color green is connected with wealth or greed for material things. I didn't realize this until much later.)
An image of poring oil where the oil stains on the wet road were, (that I saw yesterday) then an image of pouring oil by my beer bottle collection. (I got real drunk yesterday and knew it was wrong.) This meant that a stain was caused.
Saw an image of green cabbage or lettuce leaves unfolding out around a flower stem. (Means I should eat greens and not alcohol.)
Mar 26,95
Heard a dog barking in the middle of the night. Later had a dream of fighting with a dog, two people were trying to fight, one stabbed the other, and the dog was involved.
A vague remembrance of cleaning black dirt out of my big thumbnail. Later awoke and remembered all that, then thought of the meaning, and heard a "beep" right then.
Later saw an image of some wine bottles with a little oil in them, all in a row.
Later a dream of saying bad things about my mother, then a vision of black and white static.
Later a vague image of a hollow tire stem?, and some teacher pointing to a chalk board about two things, and then a vision of jumbled static. (Maybe means to not use the rod of power.)
I am going to go to church today and don't want to create a scene this time. A few days ago I heard a saying "If you stub your toe, your mother would give you money if you asked her." I stubbed my little toe today and almost broke it, and remembered that.
I thought about the hollow tire stem image and realized it is a transfer of energy system like the rod of power. The tube or laser, and the dynamics of travel or transport etc., but maybe it means to let pressure or stale air out.
A few days ago, had a really neat dream that seemed very important and left me with a certain resolved feeling, that taught something. I was totally not able to be recalled it at all, but knew it was very important. They can make you not recall, but it must still be in the subconscious and could possibly be recalled if necessary. They can unlock a certain area at a certain time, and this must be part of the mystery as to how you know that you know them. This is how they prepare you. It is all on an emotional level, and you don't even know what they look like yet, as if you were a blind baby and only remembered the long lost love of a family. This had been reinforced off and on over the years as you grew up. You can't recall the actual family, but just the emotional attachment and the dedication to them. It is a deep love and devotion.
Went to church yesterday and promised the preacher I wouldn't bring the UFO subject up. After church I talked to someone outside, and the preacher saw us through the window and came out and said "These are my sheep, and you can't tell them that here." During service he talked about how Christ is the bride of the church. I was thinking about that later that night when dozing, and then saw a image of myself as a girl in a pink dress. I know it was me in this brief image. I was the bride of the church.
They must use a teleportation tube that is surrounded by a force-field, used in combination with light waves and particles, and or electric microwaves, or other. I just recently saw an article in Scientific American magazine at the college, about how lasers can alter the vibratory rate of the magnetic glue that holds the subatomic particles in the atoms together. This is a very new field of study, and seems the likely way of this high technology, but who knows.
When they speak to you, they must use a form of electromagnetism, possibly to a sensor or implant, but maybe not. There is a beeping noise usually in the left ear, and they can do this in the right also. They must beam this from the higher dimensional side somehow, with the harmonic frequencies readjusted to merge with our dimension at a different time space continuum, so I've heard from all the media hype and books. This explains the fact they can see into the future and give psychic dreams, and will "beep" you a split second after a thought you just had. They can see the thought coming before you even thought it, and so the response time is very fast.
When they actually take you through a wall, or when the light got me, there must be a combination of several factors. It is still part mystery, but they have said in dreams and visions, that it's done by both waves and particles of light and electricity, or some other.
HEART BREAK HILL Mar. 27,95
Saw a carrot, a cabbage, and a knife.
Saw some moldy potatoes in another dream image. (Later at the very end of the day, I found some potatoes I had hidden while looking through a storage tub for spaghetti, and they were slightly moldy.) This was a psychic dream connection.
An image is like a dream thought while barely or fully awake, but can sometimes even blend into dreaming, if a flow of events keeps moving. There is a fine line where the two mix, and can be either. Like I said, they can even give you a vision in a dream-state. Any combination is possible, but mostly this is rare.
The carrot, cabbage and knife scene was similar to a guy I saw on TV the night before, where a guy called "Carrot top" who was a comedian, pulled a bunch of stuff out of a trunk and made jokes. They (aliens) were telling me to eat more fresh food instead of canned vegetables.
Mar. 28,95
A dream of climbing a big rock, and was struggling to be able to find the right precarious handholds. Then saw a friend do it with ease like a monkey. He was also able to deal with people the way I am trying to, and not get in confrontations.
Later saw a can opener being buried in the ground. Later that day I was digging in the dirt for a garden, and realized that I need to bury my habit of eating canned vegetables. Or it might mean to open the grounds fresh vegetables.
Mar. 30,95
Yesterday a dream of riding a motorcycle around a plowed vineyard road, and hit a small two by four piece of wood caught in the dirt, and went down, but wasn't hurt. (In the March12 scene, there is also a snag object dug out of the plowed ground.) This was a vineyard of the Lords that will be harvested.
Last night had a dream of two girls I saw walking up the steep lumber road that my Mom calls heart break hill. I saw them almost at the top of the long steep straight section, and they were maybe forty feet away, and further up from me. They were dressed in black matching outfits of pants and shirts, and were short girls. I heard the name "Adravino" in my thought then, which was a girl whom I have almost forgotten about. She was the first name the teacher would call in grade school when we sat in alphabetical order. Does this mean I am among some of the first, and can see others before me who have gone further? We are the brides of the church. The black must mean power, like a pastor's black suit, or men in black business suits.
MANY BLACK POWERFUL STARLINGS April 1,95
A dream of a friend and I stealing three old TV's.
Later was crawling through a culvert and under a bridge, and some guy found a crude rock and said "Look, a knife."
Later saw a sparkle in a cars headlight, that I thought was a bright light.
Later saw a group of many black starlings feeding on the road, behind where a burned manzanita bush once was, and where the old big blue trailer they (aliens) visited me in, used to sit. (I have since moved the trailer.) The birds were in a perfect square rectangle patch. This meant that many black powerful starlings were eating the bread of life behind the burning bush where the encounter with God took place. The rectangle patch of birds is the pleasing shape, and holds the formula for the golden mean spiral. That's the spiral feeling I felt when they took me, and the same feeling I remembered sometimes when falling asleep or waking when younger. This vortex might be a factor in the dynamics of the transfer system, or is one of several methods, and is calming effect.
The day before while working cleaning up, I heard the random thought in my head "fits of rage", and a little later "child abandonment."
The gaming piece had the designs
( Figure 63.) Can't recall
this exactly, but seemed to have been a dream of a game like checker pieces with designs
on them, of three lines crossing, and also two and four lines crossing. This could of been
ancient gambling pieces.THE RUFFLED CHICKEN April 2,95
Woke out of a dream where I walked with a guy who showed me a secret cabin in the woods that was hidden from the road nearby.
Awoke and saw an image of the place where I hid my bag of oranges down by the river the day before. (I stashed them there when I rode my bike to town, and would pick them up on the way back. Later coming back from town, I found a nice steel pipe like a signpost, on the side of the road, and hid it there, and got the oranges.) In the image, I saw my bike down there with its front wheel off and on its side like I was packing it. I have nine bikes now, and this meant that I'm a pack rat. Just last week I packed one on my back from town, while riding another. It was such a deal at five bucks, I had to get it. The water from the river, where the bike image was seen, means that my gospel is being a packrat. The word gospel means God spiel, or God speaking.
Saw an image of a light in the sky like a saucer.
Had another image of a saucer moving through the sky, after an image I can't recall.
Later that morning, saw a ruffled chicken running under a bus. It was Sunday morning and this was a warning of being sacrificed if I talked about UFO's and God. Had eaten chicken the night before, and the day before that, and was maybe eating too much chicken.
Saw a red blood spot by the door, on the lower edge of a small broken refrigerator.
A dream from about a half week ago, I forgot to write down, but was planning to. In it I was stepping into the double folding doors of a big stopped silver bus. Another fact that made me want to recall it, was that I saw a scene on TV the day before that dream, of a person boarding a bus for a journey. The double doors on the bus means "church." This ruffled chicken taking refuge under the bus on Sunday is a takeoff on the first bus dream, and was a warning, because as it turned out, I ran into one lady that shocked me. She got upset and said "I just don't want to talk about it." That was the mother of the girl I used to really like, who's name was Eden.
April 3,95
Saw a person dressed in a white coat walking through a vineyard in the spring before bloom. It was me.
Saw a cat in, or coming out of a loaf of bread.
Saw a big round beetle like a perfect shiny big black button, in the outhouse and crawling down.
The vineyard scene meant I was pruned. I even have a white coat that I felt bright and clean in. Sometimes I wear shaggy cloths and girls might think me a bum, but the white coat I had even just worn to improve my image.
The cat and the bag of bread meant I let the cat out of the bag, because I drank a lot and smoked that Sunday and got sick, though hadn't done so for a long time.
The round beetle in the outhouse meant that I was cleaning up all my garbage that day, and the whole week before. I cleaned all around the outhouse area that same day. The perfectly round bug was the fullness of garbage, and a dung beetle. The dung beetle was a Egyptian symbol of God pushing the world around. It took me a long time before realizing this.
I recently read that Beelzebub was the name of the devil, and meant lord of the flies. The ancient Egyptians regarded the fly as a evil spirit that brought death and disease. This explains the dream I had a while back,(Feb.13,95) where a fly stuck its head in my skin, and when it popped out I saw a hideous demons face with yellow bloodshot eyes. I didn't know this connection then, but God did.
A WOODEN BUDDHA BY THE DOOR April 4,95
Saw a big old cross cut saw, like the one I moved the day before. This meant I have some major pruning to do, as far as getting rid of some of my junk goes.
Saw an image of some brown dead manzanita leaves like the ones I saw and thought about the day before, about how they would be nice soil when mixed as a cover in the outhouse.
April 5,95
A sign post with a small square street sign, that was sinking in my newly cleaned yard. At first I thought it was a bad sign that meant my name would be lost because of no offspring, but later thought it meant I can call this my place. The steel post was like the steel post I found on the road and hid down by the river. I was recently afraid of possibly being forced to leave the ranch.
Saw an image of a light in the sky last night, and later saw three shades of brown which meant all woman are good. Later, a lady with kisses on her behind.
A wooden Buddha on a cabinet by a door. It was old, eight inches high with a cracked two inch round warped melted green plastic light cover imbedded in the top of its head. There was writing on the front that said something like "The way to be is the right way for the world." I looked on the back and it said "To be happy."
This day I heard a "beep" while stacking bark. It was right after I thought about how I didn't need to work for the winery as much as everyone else, and it was good to let them have it. I had worked there today for the first time in awhile.
Also heard a beep a day ago after I saw a ad on TV about sexual harassment, that came on right during the show "Love Connection." I knew it meant to not take it seriously, thinking women don't want to be approached sexually.
April 6,95
Remembered a dream from last night, where there are three old dead oak tree bodies standing in the old spiral house foundation site. Two are big and one is smaller. I'm the smaller one I think, and the two bigger ones are God's church. There is a big push broom without a handle and painted white that has been dug up in a foot deep hole as if it had been buried there and was found now. It is right there by the area in front of the trees, and to the right a little. A broom like the one I have. The white paint reminds me of the earlier white coat scene of me walking through the pruned vineyard. The old oak trees are either two mentors, or the ones that made it through the fire that came earlier. The spiral house is a symbol of when they came. I had been doing a clean up effort, and they helped me find the broom.
WHITE BIRD FLAPPING BEHIND WHITE BOARD April 7,95
A dream image of a white bird like a dove, flapping behind a white small board of plywood, (that was just leaned up against my woodpile stash, I had recently covered with tin and old boards to keep dry.) There was a lull in the storm then, and I had left my roof open with the chimney out all night. Early that morning was a dream of a white bird that looked dirty grayish and dark like a thunder cloud. It flew up into the air in an arch from my front yard and headed south. (I was then hearing thunder claps and worried another shower was approaching, and brought my stove chimney back in the vent of the trailer roof, closed the vent, and drew the tin back over the one area. The fire was now out, and the roof had a small puddle that leaked when it got full. The rain also caused the stovepipe to corrode when the water reacted with the acid in the soot, for there was no vent hat on top. It had eaten holes already once.)
It was true that a downpour did occur soon. The white bird behind the white board in the dry wood pile (I even have a square white board) might mean that things are dry and in order, or is another message. (I even thought of putting a cover over the big brush pile the day before. It's where all the birds I feed hide in, but figured they would maybe hide in the dry covered wood pile in a heavy rain. The birds are light brown in real life.) The dark gray bird heading south, meant a storm was coming, and it did happen. Maybe the white bird behind the square white board is a symbol of Christ, and the purity and shelter from the storm, if one eats of the bread of life, that is the cross. To die is to be reborn.
The day before, had a dream of being in a house, and had the bathtub full of water, and getting ready to take a bath. I looked outside and there was a line of people all dressed perfectly up in black, as if all going to church. Women, men and children were perfectly clean with shiny shoes and in black or gray, like at Jehovah's church. They all came in and I was worried my bath water would become cool, but decided I could just add some hot later. They were all about the room and talking, like after church service when people visit.
In real life the day before, thought I saw a vague orange dim light in the cloudy sky for a second as I glanced, but wasn't there when I looked again.
A BIRD IN THE SURF, AND TWO IN THE WIND April 8,95
Dream image of a bird running out on the shiny ocean surf towards the northwest, right after a large wave had broke and was now rushing back into the sea. You could see the glare of the light around it.
A little later saw an image of two birds fluttering in an arch towards the north as if being blown in a wind. (I had read about a bird that was bloody and on the top of a large rock, and some birds were flying around it in mourning. This was similar. I saw my birds running across the ground the day before, when I fed them bread, and they ran and hid during the rain.) It was similar to the bird running in the wet sand.
This day the storm was over. The massive water was the word of God, and the bird running with the bread was the messenger running after the wave that had receded. Either that or it was running to look for food in the surf that the wave had washed up. The two birds flying in a arch against the north wind, are the two witnesses of the church being affected by the spirit of God that came with the storm from the north.
TWO DANCING MAGPIES AND A LEMMING
Had a really strange dream where I was hiding on a side road in the woods. (This scene was above our place, and seemed it was on the dirt road below a big water tank that is on a higher road up the hill. We used to call it the rocket tank, because its long and painted silver and the upper section is smaller like the stages of a rocket with rings around it, and a dome top. It's laying down as a gravity feed water storage, and used to be in an ammonia factory. I almost missed this setting of the dream, but recalled it when reviewing the writing. Remember that the water is God's word.)
The scene of the dream was on a lower side road off the side of the lower road below the higher tank road. (This spur road in reality doesn't exist.) I then saw a fancy classic car like a fifties Chevy driving in the snow up toward me. I met the guy who was pulling a real heavy trailer with steel frame and was welded from chunks of steel in a random sculptured way, with steel tables and boxes, with tools or engines in them maybe. I talked to him and mentioned how the trailer seemed too heavy for his car to pull, but he was real calm and relaxed, and not worried. Then while sitting there, two black and white magpie birds that were pretty big, appeared and were walking about in front of us. They came from behind a bush near the canal, and then suddenly a most amazing lemming like creature walked out. It's eyes were on extended pedestals like a hammer head shark's eyes, and it was a long low rodent with short legs like a Dachshund. (It was like the creatures in the book "The Andreasson Affair" (• Note 15.) where the lady saw the lemming like creatures with all the sets of eyes everywhere looking at her. I think the scene was red, and they were crawling on the walls when she saw that. All the sets of eyes were similar to the vision of all the sets of cartoon eyes, I had a long time ago. "Eyes of love from above.") The head of my creature really wasn't anything either, but just a neck like base for the two pedestals of the eye's.
Then the creature stood in front of us on its front legs, and did a slow dance, moving it's body back and forth, not moving its legs. It swung its body from side to side slowly while doing a hand stand at a odd angle that seemed like it would of fallen back down. It was like a gymnast that does a power move on the rings and holds his body out, defying gravity. This was so outrageous and bizarre with the weird eyes and the odd dance. Maybe the two eyes stand for the church, the animal is exotic and will go as far as standing on its hands and putting on a show for you, and can defy gravity. The fact it resembled a lemming's body is that they are known to run into the sea and swim until they drown.
I was just reading a book about the teaching of the Pleiadians called "Bringers of the Dawn,"
( Figure 16.) and it spoke
of reptiles that were very intelligent, but this creature was a mammal I thought, and that
book was hard to believe anyway. 
The two magpies that came from behind a bush, did a slight shuffle, stepping a back and forth dance, and turned also. They are a black and white bird. I've heard that every factor in a dream is a reflection of yourself. I even saw snow on the mountain peaks later that day when heading back from town. This ties in a slight psychic factor of when I saw the car in the snow. Snow is used sometimes as purity or innocence.
Later that day I went to church and told people about my contact etc., but not the dream. It is something you just can't try to explain or interpret.
EAT IT April 9'95
Watched the movie "The Ten Commandments" on TV, and listened to "Dreamland" with Art Bell on the radio this Sunday. Travis Walton from the movie "Fire in the Sky" told his story on the show, and it was quite different from the way the movie told it.
April 10,95
The next morning, the saying was heard in my head: "You have to use the purple rod if you want to wear the purple robe." I had some dreams of girls flirting, and one that flipped her skirt aside showing her rear end. That was similar to the movie the night before, when the people were partying, and Moses was on the hill yelling at them. I feel they are trying to tell me to get a girlfriend, even though in the movie the people were being really sleazy and immoral. They were carrying on, drinking and worshipping the golden calf. Earlier, Moses was waving the rod that parted the Red Sea, and led his people out of Egypt and Pharaoh's army.
A night or two ago I heard a single pitch short whistling noise in my head once. It took a month to realize that when I speak to the birds, I whistle in a two tone whistle that says "eat it" when I give them bread. (Eeeeeet Iiiiiiiit) This ties into the many black starlings scene from earlier,(April 1, 1995) but I hadn't connected the meaning then, and the single whistle was around the same time. The whistling noise means that a rushing wind is present, and is the spirit that moves, saying to eat the bread of life.
This morning I heard fire crackers and low booms like when my brother shoots off his fire works hobby. It was in my head in the morning, and wasn't mistaken for the other, that he only does in the evening. Could this mean that there is a new dawn of fireworks?
April 11,95
About three or four weeks ago was a dream, where I thought I was awake in my room, and seeing everything as normal in my trailer. Looked at the clock and saw the face with the numbers sideways and a little blurry. (Normally it is perfectly upside down, because it makes a humming noise otherwise.) Awoke right then and realized it was a dream where I actually thought I was awake. The fact I awoke right when seeing the clock, might mean time is not the same. The difference and blurryness about the clock is what triggered my awakening.
A FLOATING UNDULATION
Last night had two most amazing dreams. Was driving a car to the center of the small town at night. Couldn't see out the window for some reason, and just knew for sure a cop was hiding by the firehouse where he sometimes hid. Was trying to pull in the dark lot by the store and not be obvious, but could not see where I was going. It was like being in a dark rain, with iced windows, and I was faking it. Thought the cop was going to see this for sure and get me as I pulled somewhere by the phone booth maybe. Then the scene changed, and I was in a similar car in a friends driveway and pulling out, but thought I was hitting a building and fence and couldn't see where I was going, and very worried. You know the kind of panic when things are going wrong and you're struggling? Right then, awoke and was a floating undulation, like rocking on waves under me in bed, and a squeaking in the room or wall near the sink area side. I knew they were there, but wasn't even afraid, and was so amazed at this undulation feeling, of floating in different parts off and on like moving waves of water, while totally awake, with loud squeaking in the wall by sink right then. My radio was off that night, which is rare. There was too much either news or talk.
This is a new variation on a feeling they've done before. It was mixed wave feelings in a localized area, with mild buzzing off and on like waves lapping on my back. My body floated in certain areas with a wobble that would move across, then fade out, and new ones were starting and going off and on. There was a shaking jello floating with mild buzzing moving across in waves. I had a mild sexual feeling at the same time, that seemed a side effect. I was so amazed at the feeling, that when I heard the squeaking I just thought "Oh its Jeeze, hi Jeeze, thanks for visiting me, I really liked that one."
It was a new one. There is this bouncing effect like a spring that's vibrating, and can be at varied speeds. This can be mixed in combination with the electric buzzing effect, and the floating effect. All effects can be either low medium or high frequency, and this gives many variations. I've said before that they can induce all emotions from fear, to anger, love, pity, sex, well-being or joy, sorrow, terror, sleepiness, erase memory, add memory on a subconscious level and release it later. Pretty much everything.
A BLUE FLOATING HEAD
Later a very amazing dream of, thought I saw some lights in the sky. Then I and someone else were standing there at night, and there appeared the head of a person, like a man's head that was just floating in the air in front of us and with a bluish haze of light around it. It was glowing light florescent blue in the dark night sky and was rather shocking and looking at us. It seemed to be moving in front of us when it first appeared, and then was just still and scary. This was a big man's head in the mid night sky right near us, ten feet away. (It reminded me of a story I heard once of a apparition of a head someone saw on a countertop in a kitchen of a old inn.) Then right after this head scene in the dream, it seemed the head was gone and then I saw in the distance, a small person come floating out of the sky, that I thought was a witch on a broom at first, but was a small little man with a pointed hat that was bent like a leprechaun's hat, and he maybe had a long nose. It was a moonlit night sky that glowed, but with no moon visible. He floated down from the upper left. The first one went away somehow, when in the center of the picture, when I first realized what it was. I looked again and saw him coming again from the same place, and was shocked that it was a elf or small witch guy hunched over and feet down with legs bent slightly, who just floated down across the scene in the sky. It was a replay of the first scene. Then suddenly I saw to my left in front of me, a silver elongated globe, maybe a foot or two long, and with a circular suction cup or flange thing with a hole in it, on the one rounded end. Like lips were on the one end near us. It was shiny silver and floating close, maybe ten feet away, and was to my left side a ways, but closer in then the head was earlier. It was bright around it and glowing in the night sky, and stood out so clear. Right then I was afraid, and then quickly it started coming toward my head as if it had seen me and picked me out. In a instant it zoomed in on me as I panicked, and went "suuuck" like lips smacking, and attached to my head. I awoke right then in a state of shock and fear, but somehow it wasn't too bad. I sort of felt proud and very special that it wanted me.
It was so amazing to think back and recall all the strange things. This dream was as strange as the magpie lemming dream, and more real then usual.
Right then when I awoke, the thought "It won't be easy" came to my head. I thought they were preparing me for soon eventual contact in real life, but later that day my electricity went out, and it might be related to that. Maybe both is true. I did finally fix my electricity, and it wasn't exactly easy. I learned that I'm paranoid and think people are out to trick or get me, but is not the case always. This could be what that means.
There was one time while working outside and the word "schizophrenic" came in my head. I think they are saying I am a slight paranoid schizoid, but so what.
Also had a vague vision of a saucer stainless steel object that was hiding behind a partly closed door. It wasn't lit up, was small, barely seen, and like some dishes put together.
A CLEAN SLATE April 12,95
Had a dream last night, where my brother had a trailer that he carried something on. (The next day I was talking to him, and he said someone had given him a old trailer bed for free the day before.) In the dream, I had asked him how much he paid for it, and he said "Seven hundred," but in real life it was free. In the dream it had one axle and was twenty feet long and with a plywood floor. In real life it had two axles and with a free disk for plowing, and a old plywood floor. This was a psychic dream that was close, but not in all perfect details. That is how it always is.
There was another dream where I had a new table in a trailer. (I had even just put a new table in mine the day before.)
A few days ago, a dream of putting labels on wine cases, and the labels were just blank white pieces of paper. This puzzled me, and could either mean my life is a blank sheet, or maybe the purple wine or ink is the blood that is shed, and one is made clean again. The sins have been paid for and the slate is swept clean. I was working in the winery the day before this dream image, and was the label man. This could mean that I don't need to try to be a steady worker there, and to not get caught up in jealousy or greed in the world.
April 13,95
Awoke in the night once and was struggling somehow. Awoke in the morning and had a image of reaching to pick up a small stack of cards from a table, and thought "law and order" in my head. A little later the thought "childhood fantasies of love" came as if a person was starting a song on the bottom of the scale with "love," and doing the opera style progressive, la la, rolling up and down the scale slowly rising on one syllable higher and higher.
BLOODY HEAD IN TOWEL April 14,95
A few nights ago, a dream of struggling severely about something that left me quite upset, but when awoke, couldn't remember what it was.
Before going to bed last night, saw a image of me with my head wrapped in a towel, and blood soaked. I was in a friend's shop. It scared me and I thought I might have a accident soon. (Earlier that day I really was at a friends shop and forgot my UFO book and wanted to go retrieve it. I had also used a towel to wipe dust off all my religion, UFO, ancient Gods and metaphysics books that same day. I haven't found time to even read them all yet, and just look at the pictures in the center. My eyeballs hurt too much, and a headache develops sometimes. The dream of the bloody towel wrapped on the head might mean my head is bleeding from so much stuff.
This morning, had a dream of being at the Jehovah's church and talking to a little girl there, who told me her mother didn't want to believe in that stuff. I was sitting in the chairs there and someone had somehow put a number tag on my shirt that said "ten." Later saw in a chart that I would be studying with a certain person. (I was supposed to meet a preacher at the library today at noon, but he was a no show.)
Then had a vision of what I couldn't figure out, and was worried about what it meant. A little later had the same vision again. A random mess of dirt and some hairs. One hair was moving slightly as if in a breeze. I actually felt my eyeballs moving and trying to focus on a specific area. (Before a vision appears, there is usually a slight fluttering floating bodily sensation in the chest and head mostly, that lets you know one is coming. When the vision appears it is cloudy, and then becomes clear. You know there is only so much time to check it out, so you have to be sure to look hard at details.) Only in the second vision when focusing in on one single hair, and seeing it barely moving in a wind, was the meaning understood. I had cut my hair the night before, and afterwards swept up the floor and threw all the dirt and hair in the fire. About midday the next day, I finally realized that it meant I had a bloody head that was changed when I cut my hair, and the UFO encounter (book) was part of my dying and rebirth. The fire was what burned and transformed the parts cast away.
Later that day I almost wrecked, going down a hill on my bike, and was so shocked. I thought that was going to happen after the bloody head wrapped towel image of the early part the night before. It was a close call where I almost went in a ditch while really speeding down a hill.
A few nights ago I heard a dog bark, and then a faint "pop" noise in my head as I awoke.
Saw a image this morning of a white quarter dome panel on a roof front, like a false front on a house. It was a airstream trailers corner panel painted white and being the corner of a buildings roof above the porch in front.
( Figure 64.)
(This was at a house site where the guy left garbage out in a messy way, and I even had
thought and wondered in the past, why the guy left that ratty couch out on his open porch
to deteriorate in the sun and rain. The stuffing was just all shredding.) This meant that
I should put on my best looking "front," when trying to meet girls like the one
at the station, who I thought regarded me as shabby dressed, which is true. I have always
admired the curved airstream trailer shape, and this building was white and seen from the
corner as if to say: "This is the cornerstone of beauty to use as a example of how to
present yourself." The house it was on, was also at a right angle corner of the road.Right before I got up that morning, the thought came "I was baffled in my search for a maiden. I had labored hard and long for truths and came down with a laden."
EASTER SUNDAY April 15,95
A few days ago, was getting ready to ride my bike after I woke up, and while walking outside while the coffee was cooking, the thought "green beans" came in my head. Saw green beans on sale the day before, and wanted to buy some but didn't.
Before going to sleep while half awake, had a dream image of sitting at a small round table with two kids, and maybe a woman was there, but am not sure. A circular table in a ice cream or candy shop in town was the setting. Later a little boy walked up as I was leaving outside. He showed me a piece of paper that was unfolded like a big wrinkled candy wrapper, and on it was a nickel and a small green ball of gum I thought. A medium large ball of either green gum, a jawbreaker or marble. (I had found a green "M n M" candy on the road earlier that day, but it was broken in half and with the peanut still in it, and I did eat it.) This image was before I went to sleep.
The next morning, remembered seeing myself in a picture frame like my Jesus picture. I had a blue superman suite on, with the red diamond and the big "S" in the middle on the chest. The picture was sitting on the new table recently put in my trailer. There were some other objects on the table, I can't recall. Maybe it was similar to the objects on the candy wrapper that the little kid showed me.
Then later, heard a faint alarm clock ringing noise sound in my head. It was eight thirty. I was so tired, but wanted to go to church today because it's Easter Sunday. Went to one church and told a few people. Said to try to get used to the idea of parallel dimensions and flying saucers. Later went to the graveyard and sat by a statue of Jesus, reading a book on Swedenborg's dreams. Then went to the other Jehovah's Witness church in town, to talk to the preacher who hadn't kept his appointment with me at the library last Friday at noon. I met the other preacher first and told him to look for the signs, because he said he didn't watch or believe the shows about UFO's, ghosts and such on TV. I got kind of mad at him when he said "You've told this church already" and acted like I wasn't welcome. I told him "Your not the only preacher here, and you better believe what I tell you, and don't think you have all the answers." Later found the other preacher out back, while waiting outside. I told him how serious this was and how important. He was not very believing, and was more interested in trying to disprove it and give his own ideas. People just think they have it all figured out. It's amazing how they won't listen or even try to believe you after you give so much evidence. They don't even care. I gave him a bunch of Bible verses to support evidence of the theory that shows it's all hidden in the Bible. Hope I shook them up, because he said that next week they were having a big talk about false prophets and signs that were from Satan. Tried to convince him that God plays the role of Satan and he didn't believe that.
THE FADED WHITE TABLE April 17,95
The night before, I drank some wine for the first time in a long time, and drank too much again. That evening when dozing off, had a image of being on my bike and loosing control of the handlebars for a second and it scared me. Later in the morning, had a dream I was bargaining for a round table with fold down sides.
( Figure
65.) It was a rectangle with slightly curved ends, and became a complete circle when
the sides were up. It was a white table with old peeling paint a little faded. I really
wanted it, and was having to bid against some guy at an auction, and was prepared to pay a
lot. (The day before I was at a place where an auction would be held, but that would be
next week.) Right after this I awoke and saw a vague image in my mind, of a white circular
saucer cloud that moved in the sky with a slight dash forward. This meant I wanted to be
part of the saucer story, because the day before I saw a lot of footage of the Mexico
video sightings during the 1991 eclipse. Also, while listening to Art Bell's dreamland
radio show, they had talked about Billy Meier and also the Mexico story of there being
UFO's around volcanoes and sacred mountains. The ancient Aztec or Maya legends predicted
this exactly, as it happening during a solar eclipse. The Gods were to return then. The
pope's prediction was that many craft will be seen in 1995, and there will be many
sightings in Yugoslavia, Iceland and many other odd countries over the world. I was so
saturated with the subject, I felt my story was insignificant, and who would even care
with all this going on. I got in on the action right at the tail end, and my story was
just a minor incident that was one of thousands. That's what the dream and image about me
wanting the faded white rectangle table meant. The two sides folded out into a lens shape,
cross slice of a saucer, and two stands for the church. The rectangle also holds the
formula of the golden mean spiral. Faded white peeling paint shows the state of newness
and innocence is fading.Later this day, saw a superman sticker on a nitrogen tank at the winery. It was just a company logo design of the pressurized gas factory, but I remembered the superman sticker on the picture thirty eight hours ago. (April 15, Easter Sunday) This could be a psychic dream riddle that has proven they can see this far or more into the future, or is a random coincidence. A few times in the past I thought they gave a psychic dream that spanned two full days, but was not sure, and thought I was maybe mistaken. Normally they have only done a psychic dream one full day into the future.
Was a little upset that day, because I wanted to work at the winery and get the fun jobs, and was jealous. Later saw a image of dung smeared on a case of wine.
Saw everything with a red tinge, mixed in with odd images of chicken bones and marrow? Maybe I was poisoned by uncooked chicken.
Saw an image of putting a pure white label on a case of wine. Felt very upset when I awoke in the night, and then soon a vision of a big circular splotch that seemed like a fire with a burned darker lower half. A wave passed through this, in the way they used to calm me. This happened twice.
Later was still thinking of how my Mom's dog barks at me and she doesn't care. Saw an image later, of a shaggy eared lamb or sheep heading toward the big house across the field, where I walked that morning. I could see its head from behind, and the ears hanging down flopping as it was trotting up where the dog is.
Heard the thought "child abuse."
Later saw an image of Superman and a bunch of kids in a picture, and all were in shock and shaking from some trauma or turmoil of hectic outside influences.
Saw the same fire like red blotch with red torched area. Something like burnt logs in the center and brighter red on the upper half, with darker below, and then the slow moving wave pass through it. This happened twice, with a five or ten second pause between the visions. This same dual event happened earlier on this same night. Each time it was seen, it was seen twice, making a total of four times. The number two means church, and there were two at the beginning and two at the end. This must mean to endure the fire of change. What other choice is there?
HARMONIC CONVERGENCE April 18,95
A dream of a trailer with round windows like the old TV, built low with a old camper shell pieced together, and chunks of bark spread out randomly sticking on the crude tin surface. A real pile of junk. I wanted it and was arguing with my brother near the winery. This means I am greedy for material garbage and that is against the spirit. After that I was thinking of how everyone I know, I have been in a argument with and had a falling out.
Later a dream of riding a new two fifty motorbike I had bought, and was talking to my brother over by the lumber road, and riding.
Later was heading down the road and saw a deer like goat creature with a single horn in the middle of its head. It jumped off the road real high and got caught high up in the deer fence. I stopped at the corner (right angle) and ran back to catch it. I ran by some people stopped in the road and hoped the one big guy didn't think I was trying to attack him. We then tried to catch the creature which jumped on the face of a store front window at night. I tried to put my glove on but couldn't get it on fast enough, and knew it would be too late, and was worried the creature would get away. Someone else was helping catch it when it jumped down. It was a cat with a pointed spike like a quail has on its head, but longer and like a unicorn.
Later awoke in a vision of what was like looking into ice or a sheet of crystal. There were faint lines maybe a inch long and equally separated, that were moving vertical slowly up across the white glassy bright scene. This was like seeing lines moving on a turntables speed adjustment. At first the lines all slowly drift one way, then as you adjust the speed, they all slow down and become still, or start moving slowly the other way. There was a pulsating effect in the glassy ice with it. The lines drifted up slowly for a while, and then slowed down and became perfectly still, with this slight pulsating effect from the bright milky icy glow in the background, like a heart beat that made the light dim slightly on each beat. The lines were thin and black, a inch long, and perfectly straight, exactly in line and with uniform separation.
( Figure 66.)
This was similar to seeing a wagon wheel, or propeller in a movie. The lines of harmonic convergence slow to a stop when the wheels speed overtones or frequencies are matched with the frames per second in the film. Something along these lines. I thought it had a connection with crystals. It moved like waves across a TV screen, that slowed their drifting until they stopped, and with this pulsating effect, in the icy background.
Right then at the end of this scene, I just caught a view of a snake's body slither across a shadow of a corner in the still icy white scene. It crawled right across the line of a "right angle's" shadow in the iciness. This was just added right at the end, like a snapshot, because the right angle shadow wasn't seen before, and the snake shocked me. The snake passes through the hole into the underworld, and can bring life and death. It must mean this.
MY DADS OLD LIBRARY DOOR April 19,95
A vague dream that ended with brushing my teeth.
Dreamt I was struggling with a butting ram or goat. I remember it was a struggle during the night that left me with an upset feeling, and lasted a while. The sheep would jump on its hind legs and fight. (The night before I was looking at my head in the mirror and trying to think my frontal lobes were sort of big, but knew I wasn't very smart when I thought back over my life. I couldn't believe how stupid I actually was in so many areas, but still wished my brain was bigger like an aliens. Then I had this dream where the ram is fighting, and that's about my mentality in dealing with the world. If you've ever felt or pushed on the two hard lumps on a ram or goat's head, the next thing you know is it's attacking you.
A dream of wanting a shell shaped sink that someone was going to take. I actually do need to get my sink hooked up, and am still using the creek. Had seen a small similar shaped shell the day before when going through some old junk.
Later a guy who is talking to my mom, and she lets him do the easy job of putting the trim on, and I'm mad because I could do it.
Image of a young girl I liked. A thorn is stuck in my heel, and I am trying to get out.
Image later, of birds eating bread in the place on my patio, where I have a bunch of cement blocks stacked. The blocks weren't there in the image, but only all the birds eating bread in the same area. Must mean to eat the bread of life that is the foundation, because these blocks are foundation blocks. Had drank seven beers the day before and started back the old bad habit, and felt guilty. They have given me the power to quit all smoking , drinking and chewing habits but I had a relapse.
April 20,95
Had a bad day yesterday, was upset and in turmoil over working with someone for low pay and few hours. Saw an image of a roofing nail on the ground, and pointing up.
Saw a song bird rolling on its back on top of the tinted phonograph cover that's sitting in the sun out on the patio.
Saw sap running out of a board a little right (actually left) of the center of a big door that I'm facing. It is partly open and leading into a big house.
Heard a "beep." This meant to enjoy the warm day and not to bleed or worry. This was the first really nice warm springtime day. Later at the end of the day, was moving stuff cleaning up and came across my dad's big old library door. It was like the one in the image. I had also been to a big old Victorian house the day before, and at first thought the door was connected to that, but seems a little of both. It looked like my dad's door but was on an old house like the one I saw the day before.
( Figure 67.) This might mean my dad's heart is broken from
being the door in the past. He did have a life of turmoil with much heartache. Maybe it
means my heart is bleeding from yesterday when being the door to my father's house, and I
should enjoy the warmth and music or goodness in life. Maybe this is God's heart bleeding
for all those who suffer when they enter his house. Also that morning, was thinking that out of all my seven bikes, none was working because all had a flat tire. Then saw a image of a bike with a bent tire and rim, by a big pile of wood. Meant I have a big pile that can't be used. I do have my pile of bikes heaped by my wood pile.
HUNCHBACK INDIAN FLUTE PLAYER April 21,95
Thought I saw a figure in the distance walking down the hill near the bottom on the road that leads up to the big water tank on the hill overlooking the college. (There is a big eagle painted on the water tank, that is the college mascot.) At first, thought I was only thinking this myself. Imagined it was the hunchback Indian flute player,
( Figure 68.) seen in rock art etchings. Still thought I was
the one who created this idea, but now it seems the message is too profound. They can make
you think it is your thought, it is so well mixed. (This is similar to the magpie lemming
dream,(April 8,95) and is what made me recall the "setting" of that dream, where
there was a big water storage tank on a road above.) They know clues you overlooked,
especially in the "setting" in this case, and do give further similar ideas in
hopes you will recall. I didn't connect this clue of the "setting" of the water
tank being above, as being similar in the magpie lemming dream until ( May 1,95.) THE RED RIPE TOMATO
Saw the very bright red shiny ripe tomato on a dead withered vine hanging at the corner of the white picket fence a few days ago. The one tomato closest was the most obvious, and really red. I think it was at a place where I stole a tomato at the corner of a lady's yard fence, about four or five years ago in Lake County, (Nice) by the lake at the end of the road across from the boat harbors canal. I had thought of that tomato just recently, before this dream image of it. Maybe even the day before. There must be a message in this. Obviously the tomato was ripe and I was tempted and fell into sin and now feel guilty. The vine was dead and withered, but the tomato was at its prime. It was at the very corner of her property and hanging over the white picket fence. It was at the end of the road and by a large mass of water with the boat jetty nearby. Could it be a portrait of Christ or the thief on the cross? He was hanging dead on the cross, but his heart was ripe and ready to be given freely to pay for the sins of people. He was at the end of his road and by a large body of water which represents all people and nations. The canal nearby could be a symbol of movement between the two worlds. I almost forgot this dream image, and didn't realize, when I made a quick note of it later, that now as I went back over it, the message was so good and tasty. They can take a random thought you had the day before, and if the setting is right for a good riddle, will give it. Some of the best riddles are the ones you almost didn't bother to write down. You have to review the "setting", and what it ties into, in your life. That is why I record every last detail even though insignificant at the time. This happened a week or so ago.
THE THREE TOED TURKEY TRACKS
Last night saw an image of a three toed turkey foot that was wilted and sticking out of the edge of a browned cooked pot roast with potatoes and carrot chunks around it. I heard a "POP" noise after this, that kind of shocked me, because it was loud like a firecracker.
I remembered seeing turkey footprints on the side of the road yesterday when I took a ride up in the hills on my motorcycle. It took half a day after the foot image, before I realized and remembered all the shot gun shells laying in the field near the tracks, from people that just shoot at stuff and target practice. Then I knew what the loud "POP" noise meant right after the three toed foot in the dinner image. Three means purpose or communion. To eat the flesh is part of the ritual if one is to become one with Christ.
There was a dream with a three toed bird track in the wavy dust on a steaming tractors running board once, quite a while back. (See Oct.19,94) I mentioned this turkey track then.
About a week ago, a dream of a old Chevy car that was a miniature classic fifty five Chevy. An old farmer had it at a yard sale. I liked it and was hoping he thought it junk, and started to ask him about it, and pretended to not think it much and just acted curious. At first he seemed to say it was junky but then he wanted eighty dollars and said it was rare. I looked around it, and it seemed to have gotten bigger and nicer, and had a pink interior. I noticed a warped area on the one left front fender, and I said "That's too bad, but its not too bad." I knew it cost too much, and then awoke.
Later that day I was in town and saw a classic older car like a semi-hot rod gray thirty's Ford coupe, and when looking back, I noticed a warped wrinkled place on the rear left fender.
Had also seen a girl I used to like the day "before" the dream, and she was driving a nice looking gray Volvo. Thought she finally had a nice car because she used to drive a big pickup truck. I had thought than, that to have a girlfriend, I would need a nice car. The one odd thing in this dream is the bent fender, and the psychic connection of the gray car and bent fender the "next day," and the gray car of the girls the day "before," but maybe it's only chance. This might mean that I am the car, and carry the wounded spot that ties into my mother, and carry it with me into the future. I even still have a small antique red fifty's Oldsmobile child's car that I used to pedal around in when a kid, and still hold onto it for nostalgia. This dream is tied into childhood and my relationship with women, and how I carry that slight dent with me into the future.
"HEIDI" THE GIRL FROM THE SKY April 23,95
My three brothers were riding bikes, and said "Lets go to Blue Lakes. There is a guy we can work for." They were leaving on bicycles, and each bike had a small pack in the center of the frame. They said "Why don't you come also?" I followed them with a crescent wrench in my hand and walked around to the front of the house, and saw my mother by the right side of the kitchen window.
Heading out the driveway, one brother turned back and said "You could take this bike," which was a old pale blue three speed. I said "But that's Papa's," but then thought and said "But he's dead." I knew he wouldn't care. Then I pumped up the front tire and drove in a circle in the driveway in front of the big house. (There are three big windows in front of the house.) The handle bars steering was a little loose and wobbly, but figured it OK. Then I saw three books that had fallen off the bike from the small black pack hanging in front on the frame's backbone. Somehow I was still there, but now off the bike, and saw these three books tumble onto the ground. The first one I looked at was a water damaged book like one I bought at the flea market the day before, by Jess Stern, called "The search for the girl with the blue eyes," (• Note 17.) and I had seen her picture on the back. Her eyes were hard to make out because of slight water damage or wear. The book picked up in the dream was like a major water worn "The best SCI-FI of 1979" or some year, and with many titles and authors down the front, like one I'd also seen in real life the day before.
In the dream, when I first picked up the book, the thought "Heidi, the girl from the sky," was so clear, as if spoken in my head. I flipped through to the pictures in the center like I usually do when looking at UFO books. The pictures were of a little girl in the water, and another of her on a floating board with her arms reaching out to grab someone. On the next page she was in soapy or white bubbly water, then more pictures of her in water. Then she was in a lake, then in water up to her neck, and then the last one of water over her head, and I could barely see her shadow under water. In every picture her eyes were sad and droopy half closed. Then there was a clear picture of a nurse in white, with her right side facing and with a serious open right eye, looking intently at, and holding the baby in her arms. She seemed worried and concerned over the baby, who was held in a white blanket.
Saw on TV the night before, a lady with a intense look in her eye and acting upset, that made me uncomfortable. On another show was a person, a psychic woman who said she saw the witness to the killing. "He was a mousy looking man with a thin face and droopy eyes, and people called him "Needles" because of his drug use." There seemed to be a connection in the events from the day before.
The dream scene of the nurse was a clear picture, that came right after all the pictures of the little girl in water, seen in the book. The nurse with baby picture just appeared right after, and wasn't a page in the book, but was also in black and white.
I awoke, was sad and felt like crying because I knew the baby was me, and the aliens came to me when a baby.
Dozed off again and was there in the dream again, next to the bike. There were still the other two books laying there on the ground, and I picked the next one up. It said something like "God in a particular vein," or maybe a "specific," or "a similar vein." The last book I picked up and read, and it seemed real profound and important, but later couldn't recall what it was, and was upset that I'd lost a important fact.
Went back to sleep and had a dream I can't recall, but it ended in seeing a clear vision of a face that looked like a baby alien similar to a show on TV the night before where they showed a wounded alien on a table that was a survivor from the "Roswell" crash. It was a feature on "Sightings," and they had made a real life looking alien that was in a daze and looked ill but was moving its head. In my vision was the same similar scene, but looked like a baby alien. This vision was while awake, and was perfectly clear. I tried to remember the dream before the baby alien vision, and was upset because I couldn't, but maybe it was something about silver saucers. One unusual fact is that I awoke, and then fell asleep again, and the dream continued where it left off. The third book couldn't be remembered, and was very important!
Dozed off again and had a dream of my brother sitting at a table with a bunch of tapes, CD's or electric machines like a computer or tape decks. Awoke and realized to use the tape recorder before I forgot. After this, I got my little recorder for the first time and spoke to record the dreams. In the past I have always used pen and paper. By chance the recorder was already set up from when recording music the day before, but I hadn't planned to use it for the dreams.
I used to have a girlfriend named Heidi who was my first, and never got over her for a long time. When I knew her it was the same lost love feeling I have for the aliens. I even saw a book named "Heidi" at the flea market the day before. The story is about a little girl reunited with her grandfather. Haven't read it yet, but know some from when my mom read parts when younger. I always felt a sad feeling every time I saw that book someplace. It is the same with the book "Bambi" and the "Ugly Ducking" and the one about the little girl in the girl's school where she is sick at night and the head nurse comes and they took her away. The book is called "Madeline" about a little French girl. I read that part when younger, and really felt deep emotion and cried for some reason. Cried once when I read The Ugly Duckling, and the ugly one went away. Felt the same about Bambi the deer. Remember the song "Honey" that was a hit in 1968, and the guy sings "I long to be with you if only I could?" The lady he was in love with was caught alone crying in the middle of the day. A long time ago I heard that, and somehow could identify with the lady, but couldn't put my finger on as to why. I knew the lady had a emotional problem of a sort that nothing could cure. She was crazy.
Robinson Crusoe was a book I also had when in grade school, and the first and only one I ever read completely. The idea of being alone on a desert island was what attracted me.
Blue lakes are the deepest natural lakes in the western United States.
Was still dozing, and later saw a image of a young girl in white pants. She was opening an outhouse door at the edge of a big vineyard. Was wondering if I could recall more information, or be able to handle a mass of complex riddles, and saw a image of a piece of fried chicken, like the one I cooked the other day, and got food poisoning. Means I could become ill trying to deal with too much.
A little later, saw a image of a silver jet plane heading at a pretty steep climb toward heaven. Maybe forty five degrees and heading north in a blue sky, and passing a white cloud. The next day when I went to church, I even saw a jet climb into the sky, and while in church the noise was a real shock. It was the little Baptist church by the airport, and I thought the world was coming to a end for a second. We're not used to that, because normally big jets don't land here. This was a possible psychic mix in dream again.
Image of driving down the Boonville road past a large vineyard, that was similar to the scene where the little girl in the white pants was opening the outhouse door. I even have a friend who lives right across that general area, but further up the road. He is very religious and doesn't want any part of my story about aliens from God, and won't read anything on the subject. He says that the bible is more then enough to study, and is too busy anyway.
The church I went to the next day was towards the south end of town, and near that same area. The riddle of the girl must be that, the vineyard on the right, is the people that will be harvested to this new idea. The white pants mean innocence or purity. The outhouse must be the shit one must face, or is related to the girl's own shit in her life. The girl is the bride of the church.
Later was wondering if I could handle more riddles, and saw a vague image of a lady painting black over a piece of glass, as if blocking me, or herself out from view. Maybe this means to go to sleep, or to not bring this kind of message to our church and scare us. (She was a girl I was thinking about right before this image, and whom I saw and knew at church last Sunday. She is the one with the gray Volvo, but had left early, so I didn't talk to her. That church was Jim Jones old church, and it was the first time I had ever gone there, even though it's a local church. It was Easter Sunday, and when I came in late, the young preacher said in his sermon, "Christ is in this very room." That was a little shocking, because I knew that later I would tell him about the aliens from God.)
After that, there was a image of a little boy who ran by me and said "The lady doesn't want to speak of that," or "Don't bring that to us." They (aliens) will actually give you a immediate response to the thought you are thinking at the time.
THE WIZARD'S KITCHEN
A little later, was an image of walking on water covered wet cement in the bright warm sun. The warm hot water was bubbling a little like when water is sprayed on hot sun baked cement. This scene was out in front of the San Hadrian Courthouse up in Willits, where I have been to jury duty a few times in the past a few years ago. This is another complex riddle that has many factors of just about everything. The water is the gospel, the cement the rock or Christ. The hot sun is God's beams of light force that creates heat in the rock, that makes the water bubble, and does make the feet tingle. The name of the court house is right out of the Bible, and the same mountain is in the east. (The big mountain off in the east is actually named Mt. San Hedrin.) The "San Hedrin" is the name of the court that Jesus was taken to before his crucifixion. Each riddle must be looked at in the most simple way.
Had a image of being in the wizard's kitchen, the guy who writes the magazine called "Green Egg," (• NOTE 18.) that's about all sorts of old folklore, druids and ancient religious stuff. I was just thinking of him and his magazine right before that image of being in his kitchen. I haven't been in his kitchen in maybe ten years.
A little later saw an image of a brown red bear walk down the road and into a group of people, like in a campground scene, and it looked scary. At first I just couldn't figure it out, and was a little shocked, because I had no clue. Realized later that I was going to church and I hadn't shaved in a week or more and people might think me a little frightening. The amount of dreams on this one night is a record. This is April 23, and I later realized that 23 is a sacred number.
THE BLACK UNOPENED PACK April 24,95
Dreamed of talking with the girl from the Jehovah's Witness church. Was in church, but seemed like at a house.
Something about signing a paper, and my mother approved.
A pair of pants with the crotch cut out.
A feeling of guilt that I should not be attracted to young girls.
Digging a red hot small ax head out of my little stove and then the odd sound of a popping type cracking. (Later realized it meant the ax head had lost its temper and cracked when removed from the fire. Later that day I was cleaning up, moving a pile of dirty laundry and came across a pair of pants with a ripped crotch area that I tore up along with some other ripped clothes.)
A dream of something about another scene on the staircase in the big house, and a black pack that was unopened, but I couldn't recall exactly what it was.
Then another scene of upstairs when I was a kid in my Mom's room, and some talk about my mother did support me and gave me 1400 dollars of food. I went downstairs and one of my brothers was walking past the staircase. Right after that was a scene of a small brick shaped or larger black bike tool pack, that was zipped open, and in it was seen spinning silver balls on rods, like a old time steam engine governor.
The pack reminds me of the small bike pack in the center of the frame on the bikes in the earlier dream of the day before. I think my brother's bikes also had packs like that. They (aliens) will use a certain fact again, and this might be a clue as to what the packs mean. In the last dream, the pack on my bike held the three books. In this series of dreams, the ax lost its temper, and later the dream I couldn't remember, and then the unopened black pack. The scene of realizing I'm cared for in our family, and seeing my Mom and the one brother that does a lot to organize and keep the winery going, and then seeing the governor in the black pack, must mean I should not loose my temper with the governors. There is a castration complex, or a anger and guilt about women. A guilt and anger with money and being part of the family scene. It is true that I cause a problem in that area, and can't seem to fit in.
I'm working for Jeeze and the alien project. Maybe that's the dream I can't remember, and also the black unopened pack. There is a common theme of "the one I forgot." It is usually one out of three in a series of events, or similar connecting ideas. This ties into the fact that the Holy ghost is unseen. My mother and brother were two factors, and the black (unseen power) on the staircase, unopened pack was obviously my unconscious tie with the aliens. In the April 23 dream about the three books, the one important book I forgot was obviously also tied into my still buried knowledge of them. The bike I was riding to Bluelakes in the April 23 dream was a old pale blue three speed of my dead fathers. Blue means industry, and my fathers name was Paul, as in the apostle Paul. Three speeds means purpose. This is why it is important to recall every fact.
Went to church yesterday, and told a preacher. He said he'd heard about the subject, but didn't seem very interested. Perhaps this is a normal reaction. Told a few lady's who seemed interested but I
wasn't sure what they thought. They seemed excited at the idea though. Told a few older guys who seemed to not realize the meaning and didn't really react at all. They were getting ready for the service. Some younger guys seemed interested. One kind of dropped the subject, but the other was very interested in details. He was a person I barely remember from high school. Told him I have a whole stack of books on the subject, and to come over and read some if you want. During service the preacher spoke of a verse in Romans that said "If the words of the prophet come true, the prophet is reliable."
Later stopped at a garage sale and talked to a lady who was a true skeptic, and claimed these people are saying this because they want a fantastic story, and created it in their mind from other stories they heard. Said she believed in God and the Bible. I asked her why she believed in God being such a non-believer. She said the Bible is true, but you can't trust anything else. I asked her how the Bible was written, and talked about how God spoke the same way then as he does now. She said that this saucer stuff is not mentioned in the Bible. I told her there is much talk of things in the sky, and it is part of the mystery that's been hidden. We argued about Satan and if he was created only in the heart of man, or if God had control of him to bring judgment on the church. She said Satan is a creation from the evil heart of man only. I said "Yea but why the verses about the prince of the air or angel of light, or fallen angel?" She didn't recall that. It was a good test to develop my skill in debate, on how to answer others. I asked her what she thought of the shows on TV, and she said it was all fake and just a way to create a story to make money. When I left, I mentioned that the government has recently released thousands of classified documents. A lot of people actually think it's all made up to create money. I've seen this reaction with others in my family.
GIVE ME ALL YOUR MONEY April 25,95
Woke up with the feeling of wanting to be with them again. It was a dream I couldn't remember, that left me with a nostalgic feeling.
Later was thinking of the old ceramic tiles never used on my old house, I had gotten rid of. Then saw a big pottery vase with tiles stacked in it, and the bottom broken out.
Later was thinking of building my trailer, and saw some nails dumped out of a jar that were hidden under some other items, but showed up on top when the jar was poured out.
A few days ago I was mad about something, and saw myself at the winery by a stack of wine cases, and was angry. Then saw some army boots like the ones I have. It meant I was a fighter.
A week or more ago was a dream of a thin bladed hand bow cross cut saw for wood. The teeth were bent back and fourth so it would cut a wide swath and not bind like mine does. I saw a good example of my saw in this dream, and knew it was the way mine should be set up. I'm still studying the message. It appears simple but might be complex to grasp.
April 26,95
A image of the sliding door to the van that wouldn't shut when slid, but would spring back. I delivered wine in that van a few years ago, and delivered wine in a newer van yesterday. Had drank wine a little too much at a friend's house on the way home, and didn't want to get into drinking again. The door meant it wasn't shutting on my habit, but would keep springing back the way the old van's door would. Its amazing that the old van's weird door was used in this image now. Two years ago, right during the major encounter, I was driving it. This was the first time I've driven the new van, and the doors are different.
A few days ago, saw a image of a guy who worked at the winery and did a lot of hard work. As he walked in the door, by his sexual area, a rod of power is waving, like a length of the foils used on the top of the bottles. They (foils) are stored together in rods before being put on the bottle. This must mean he has the rod of power to exert his will on the area.
April 27,95
This morning had a dream of riding a mini bike down the street near the good will store and the flea-market area parking lot of the fairgrounds, but was heading north down State street near there. (I shop in this area often) It was daylight then, and the bike had a lot of power taking off. I was amazed the motor was only a one and a half horse bicycle motor that was so weak it didn't need a license. Then I was in the grassy lower field off the road, and now dark and it is night time. Saw my red (blood) motorcycle helmet laying in the field, partially damaged like a vehicle had run over it, dented like tire tracks in mud. Went to get the helmet and four or five people (aliens?) came over from the road right then as I was starting to grab it. They said "Give me all your money." I was a little shocked but not really in great fear, and then awoke. Right then while laying there thinking about it, I heard a buzzing like "humm" that isn't in any specific ear, but both. Kind of a lower humm compared to the buzzing in the left ear, which is higher like a tuning fork. This could mean that money was on my mind, because I was talking about people and money all the next day, and was getting carried away about who made what and what they spend it on. This caused problems because people are uneasy to discuss the subject.
The aliens in the dream could represent Jeeze and his gang, and I'm to give them all my money as a offering to God and the people. If this book sells, I'll be paid back and can live the American dream in the name of Jeeze. Money is God in action, but the love of money can cause problems. It's been a problem in my life, trying not to be jealous of everyone making more money. I'm trying to be more spiritual, enjoy life, and realize that the more you make the more you have to worry about.
April 28,95
A image before falling asleep, of a burned out fireplace shell, which was my fear. Thought it would rain and the water come down the pipe, and react with the acid in the soot to corrode the pipe or rust the tin stove. Later in the morning, heard the thought in my head "You're pushing it," while seeing in a image "the big boss" who we were working for at the winery. It was like the big boss had said those words while standing in the doorway, just like he had been that day in real life. He was the guy who was paying the contractor who was paying me, and could represent God saying to not push my luck by getting too interested and preoccupied with money, and to be satisfied with what's coming my way.
I told myself and the spirit, that I was giving it up and was going to hide from the craziness of the world. Then saw a image of me hiding above a closet, similar to one we worked on the day before. I hid with me, a rod like penis, soft drink can rolled by my side as I hid up there laying on my stomach in the shadows. It kind of had a hole at the end that made it seem like a penis. The can was the rod of power. (This was a brief image in the mind like a thought. The setting and all is so clear, but quick and vague. You have to go over it a few times and study every minute detail.) I had even had a "Doctor Pepper" soft drink that day during lunch, and my other boss rolled it over to me. You could go as far as saying, "The water in the can was the word that needed to be put away."
Later towards evening, I dozed for ten minuets while reading Swedenborg's journal of dreams, and while in a half sleep, saw a image dream of a lady that gave a written note or letter to me, put near a leather bag I was holding. (A pocket book like a big old leather bag of my Moms that's laying outside with other leather odds and ends. I didn't see myself holding it, but knew I was. The setting here is a store front or house, and she approached me on the right, put the note near the bag as I stood there, and then walked back in through the door or gate of the yard.
FIVE POTS OF POISON April 29,95
Saw five vases full of yellow poison, like a pimple cell, and with a slightly curved to the left, hair in the top of each one. They were sitting on the floor leaning against the wall, because they had round bases and needed to lean to stand.
( Figure 69.) I was breaking pimples on my legs the night
before, that is caused by my pants rubbing on the leg hairs sometimes. Later was walking through large rooms like a school or church and am looking to meet someone.
Later saw a usher driving a new yellow bulldozer with a shiny yellow stream-lined hood like a bullet train, and slowly heading down a dark wide hall that led to the doors of big auditoriums. He was the guy who stood by the doors or held the microphone like they did at Jehovah's church. (This is similar to the grape season time of year, because I heard the tractor going just yesterday.) The usher is working in the vineyard of the lord.
Later saw five pots of yellow poison like paint cans lined up on the floor across the entrance of a door to the preacher's study room or office.
Was in a room telling some preachers about aliens, and that they are from God. Someone said "Alien influence." I was trying to explain how they have silver saucers and are really coming in real life. There was a young guy with me once, that was on my side I thought, but seemed a little doubtful people would understand.
Saw a image of dumping five empty paint or poison cans into a big trash can. Five means judgment or redemption.
Was then kneeling on a table, and a big dark blue book was nearby, with a embossed sunken in silver title across the top. Couldn't recall, but there were two words, the second being longer. The preacher said in a really innocent and calm casual way "You should read and study this." (He was like a preacher I met recently.) I was in a mood for arguing and was going to let him have it for being a know-it-all. I said "How do you know I haven't, I've read that whole book!" I opened the book from the back first, and saw a small brass name plate like dog tag imbedded on the upper right corner of the inside of the back cover. The cover was a flexible nougahide soft style seen on some big Bibles, like one I have. I started reading from the end first, and saw this tag with someone's name on it. (That is a habit I do often, to get to the conclusion of a book.) Then I was looking at the last pages and saw a picture of a preacher at a podium or pulpit, and preaching to a very large crowd in a massive auditorium. I said to the preacher, "Have you been studying about aliens?" He said "Do you mean alien espionage?" He was very tall, looking down on me with a frown, and made me feel insignificant and powerless.
Later while half awake, saw an image of putting sheet rock on a wall and force bending the board around a cast iron sink drain plumbing elbow in the wall. At first I thought this meant I need to hook up my sink, because I still need to do that. Then I remembered the day before when we were working at the winery, and trying to put a piece of sheet rock around a water pipe with a pressure gauge on it, that was used to check for leaks in the water system. We were force bending this piece of sheet rock, and the big boss owner was standing in the door way then, worried it wasn't going to fit at first. He said something like "That looks too tight." The scene was related to the water system and the boss's concern in working around it. He was standing in the doorway then. The fact that it is for a winery even fits a riddle from the Bible.
So now this image of the same scene, except there is a open elbow drain in the scene, and still the board being forced behind it, ( Means to wash the dirt off in the sink) which brings back the memory of when the big boss was worried about the water while standing in the door. Remember the same scene a night ago, where he was standing in the door and said "You're pushing it," and I hid above the closet? The big boss is God, the water under pressure needs to be flowing, and the forcing of the board behind it by the two servants is similar to the two witnesses that represent the church. Somehow they (aliens) can pick the perfect situation to make a riddle with all the parts. When I heard "You're pushing it" yesterday, I had a image of the boss standing in the door, but not the bent board and water pipe scene then. I didn't connect the saying with the board then, but felt it was because I had talked to my other boss too much about money, and shouldn't have. The water is God's word. The door obviously is the threshold between the two worlds, and the winery will be used to bring in the harvest because the time is right.
REPRESSED ANGER May 1,95
Heard the saying like a thought, "You're being presumptuous." Had been interpreting my dreams and typing the night before. Might of did it wrong, so I got rid of some writing about why money is part of our system. I think that the water that flowed down the drain in the wall was dirty water from the sink that was used to wash the hands clean, and was a tainted gospel that had faults. The water pipe had the pressure gauge there in real life, in the very first big boss scene, and was under pressure. That was the real meaning. I realized the second sink elbow big boss scene, after seeing the image that's coming up soon, where I see a drain pipe from the winery floor sticking out the wall, used for waste water. I saw this right before getting up to take a pee in the morning. In this area and probably a few others, I have been presumptuous.
Later a dream of sitting on a park bench, and a bird flew right toward me, and on my right side, its body bounced off the seat and made a noise that was heard in my head like a bean bag hitting. The sound was so real, I felt it's body like it was mine, and somehow wanted it to not fear me, and wished I could touch it. It bounced off the seat at a slight angle back up through a bush and kept going. (A bird had flew near me the other day, and I had the feeling I wished it wasn't afraid.) Could this bird be me?
Dreamt of a girl I used to really like. We were in the kitchen of the big red house I lived in when younger. A white cloth was wrapped around her lower jaw, up over her head and tied with a bow like she had a tooth ache wrapped up. I saw on the square table, the last piece of chocolate cake on a dark blue circular plate, that was wrapped or covered with a piece of clear cellophane. (It was the dark bitter chocolate style my Mom used to make, she called Flossie's cake, after a lady she worked on a dairy farm with, when a girl in the Catskill mountains of New York.)
The cake was saved, and I wanted some. Her sweet tooth was under wraps, and the cake also. I lifted up a little cat I loved, that was like the lame cat I found behind the store a long time ago. (I loved it out of pity and the girl also. I felt sorry because she was so thin, never knew her dad, and was angry at her mom because she was raised by her aunt. I always wanted to be with her more but she later left for good. The cat had died earlier also.)
Then saw an image in the dream, of a pile of hamburger, like some bought the day before. At first I just couldn't find a connection at all as to why the hamburger.
Then a image of I picked up a big kitchen knife and wanted to stab it with anger. I was slightly shocked, and didn't realize that I hated the things I loved. That is my repressed anger.
Sometimes when I pick up a knife, I feel like I could slash myself or cut my genitals off, and just try to imagine how shocking it is, knowing there is repressed anger, but wouldn't do that. Obviously if the feeling is there you are aware, and that is better then not aware. When the aliens first came to me I would sometimes pick up a knife and feel guilty that I felt like I could use it to hurt them. It is a natural reaction when dealing with major changes, and a necessary step in the transformation. You have to realize you are a killer, and then you're cured, otherwise you live in a world of repressed guilt and anger. This is what's called a tribulation. I don't blame anyone, but will start with myself. I've done too much finger pointing, and find its a sign of weakness. The Christ syndrome is the perfect outlet for a sinful world in need of a savior. Someone that's odd and threatening to what we believe is normal is a good scapegoat for aggressions. Christ preached goodness and love, and led a tormented life, but was able to overcome it all, and could forgive. I'm trying to be that way but have a love hate relationship obviously.
Later that day I went to an old friend's trailer, and he wasn't there, but I peeked in the window and saw a big bag of sugar on the table, and remembered that he had a bad relationship with women, and thought the sugar his desire. This was a psychic connection. There is too much to be coincidence, even though I don't ever use sugar except at special times when someone has cake or a cookie.
When riding my bike to town that day, I saw many cats that I meowed at as I passed. It was the fullness of springtime. The person I went to see was a old friend from grade school, and we became friends for some reason of perhaps we saw in the other person ourself. Still haven't talked with him in five years and am trying to contact him, but another old grade school buddy told me he gave him a ride once, and said he was in contact with aliens and they somehow speak with him. He thinks we are both crazy it seems. I met him at Jehovah's Witness church when visiting churches, and told him that God must only speak to crazy people, and God obviously uses the foolishness of the world to confound the wise. It says that in the Bible. I told him the whole rap about UFO's, multiple dimensional reality, and cross breeding. He didn't take it as true, even with other evidence, didn't study the subject, watch TV or believe the odd stories, and thought Satan as the suspect.
A NEW OUTLOOK
Had another dream of walking in the driveway of the main ranch, seeing total charred black everywhere, some areas of red embers glowing in the dark, and still some fire burning. Then saw a single big green spinach plant growing right there in front, to the right of where the house would of been, while all else was charred black. This might mean I will have a new outlook on the ranch. Saw a nice big spinach plant I envied the day before when visiting a different friend. I'm getting into gardening now, and want to be healthy.
A dream of riding on the top of a big boat being towed down the highway, and could see people's houses and patches of green, like from a low flying airplane. It was so high up in the air on the flying bridge. It rocked and frightened me, and kept swerving off and back on the road, while being towed really fast. Jim was in front of me down below to the left, his gray hair blowing in the wind. He screamed over the rushing noise of the wind, that he got another boat for his wedding, that cost thirty thousand to move it to a dock in the ocean. I was glad not to have to worry about something that costs so much. On the back bonnet of the cabin was a wave design of many peaks and valleys made of ground metal that seemed to not be ground smooth enough, with some heat discoloration from the grinding. Was wondering why they didn't finish it right.
Could this represent the story I'm typing? This is similar to the wave patterns in the walk with God, where the tablecloth and wall of wavy ivy had this pattern, but was more like ocean waves. Maybe it stands for the tribulation of the rough seas, or maybe it means that the veil is lifted, or needs more work, and the truth is seen.
A NEW CHURCH
Yesterday, the only thing I remember is holding on to some boards on a truck and being pulled away with it. This means to not worry about the carpentry job coming up.
Saw an image of my brothers signature on a piece of paper that looked like one of my scribbled notes of my Jeeze project story. This meant I'm the president of this project. Was thinking that my brother was president of the winery, and was a little angry I was left out and didn't get along. They are saying I'm the head of the other winery, to harvest the ripe grapes for the Lord.
Later an image of a big white Walmart store's back area, that faces the freeway in town. It looks like a big white house with the peaked roof in the center, and the fake column look on either side, and the big lawn. I passed that the other day. Had heard on TV how a community was fighting Walmart, and was afraid it would change their town, and also knew that they operated as a unit, where all employees got along real well. In the image, I saw a small black door, a very small rectangle on the left side edge, open. (My right since I was facing it.)
The massive building was pure white, with a peak roof in the center, with a column on either side, just like in real life. Then a tiny figure came out from the door and walked straight down the path to the corner of the big square lawn. Then I imagined the person went to the mailbox and got the mail, which seemed was on the same side and across a street, but I didn't see that. It was just an image that a girl was getting the mail, like a Spanish girl that lives at my Mom's big house and always gets the mail. I was just thinking about Walmart before the images came. The big white building is the church, and the lady coming out the door is the bride of the Church, or Christ. The fact she walks to the corner of the lawn in front, means that the right angle is where two worlds meet, and is the cornerstone or boundary marker. The dynamics of quantum physics follow these rules. The two dimensions intersect at a right angle. Christ stands at the corner, or at the door and knocks. Then the scene changes and the mail is retrieved. The act of walking across a road wasn't seen, but the mail was received. Facing it, the door and mail box was to my right, but they are on the left side of the building. I've heard that the left represents the unconscious. Getting the mail must represent getting the message from God (visitation.) In that case the big building is God's kingdom on earth, because I'm facing it, and the door and mailbox are on my right (conscious), but is really on the left. (unconscious.) This relates to the image a night or so ago, where a lady from a store or house came across the yard and handed the note or letter to me as I was holding the old leather bag like purse of my mothers. She was on my right as I faced her, but was on her left side of the picture. Does this mean that the kingdom of God on earth speaks and delivers a message on a unconscious level, and we take that and decipher and deliver it on a conscious level. This is hard to figure out, but I know left and right sides always are part of the riddle.
I don't know how they keep track of all these facts, but maybe a computer with artificial intelligence that can sort and arrange all the symbolic meaning and speak in a teaching mode is used. It can recall a small odd fact from the past that is usually the recent past, but sometimes quite a longer time. There is a record of every fact to draw from. Parts for future riddles will be mixed with new facts in a teaching mode. There have been pieces in a riddle, that I have just recently discovered, such as the rocket tank on the hill, and I found they had given me a similar scene a few days later, where the petroglyph Indian flute player is walking down the road below the water tank on the hill at the collage. (April 21) I didn't recall the past setting of the rocket tank as being a similar riddle until just now. In other words, they know what you missed or misunderstood, and will give a further clue along the same lines later, to help you catch a mistake, or overlooked fact. This happened another time once, but I can't recall exactly what it related to right now. There are so many facts to keep track of.
I just heard a song on the radio that said "Lord, who among us is the greatest; lord who among us knows most, the depths of your love? Which one will it be, one of these or me? And he smiled holding a child in his arms." This means that if you approach God with the mind and heart of a child, you will see the kingdom of heaven. I don't know why I was given such grace, and am the furthest from perfect and a little crazy. Maybe God speaks to crazy people because they need it the most, or can accept it. We are used to tribulation and so can integrate this. The fact that you were chosen when younger and had a relationship developed with them, is why you know them as a family and are dedicated to the cause.
A PIG PEN May 2,95
Woke up and was thinking of Family Radio, and how it is such a bragging big money operation that won't listen, and think they have the truth. Right then I saw an image of a big oval beetle like bug with six legs, and on the broken line in the center of the road, where the exit ramp makes the right angle turn coming down the hill into our town of Redwood Valley. (I was even reading a story the day before, where a person in France had a UFO land in his field, and he made a mistake by saying it had six legs as landing gear, but later said it had four.)
Later a scene of pigs at the pig pen. I thought this meant that the preacher at the radio station is a hog, especially when he totally hogs the conversation on the open forum talk show.
A little later is an image of a white Chevy truck driving past on the dirt access road near my trailer, and is heading out. It was a white sixty one Apache pickup, like a green one my old pot and drinking buddy used to drive over ten years ago. I don't associate with him any more since I have mostly stopped the bad habits. White means purity, and my new friends (aliens) that helped me are just passing by.
Saw a red glow in the gutter on the edge of the road going around a corner. That meant to be cautious on blind curves like the one I stopped on yesterday when riding my bike, and a cop passed.
Saw myself by my pile of junk, and felt overwhelmed with having to deal with material things and shuffling them around. Saw a red rag waving where I have a bunch of red rags in a file cabinet drawer, and knew it meant it's a red flag to stop collecting more junk like I did again. Old bicycles, motorcycles, scooters and tires, too many old TV sets, radios, records and players, seven broken down VCR's, beat up guitars, piles of old cloths, etc. I already got rid of four old trailers and so many other burdens. Just having to keep moving it around and seeing it in the way is a burden. The dump fees are high, and fire can be your best friend sometimes.
There was an image once that was something about a glove, but I am not sure when, or after what thought. Saw a rat's nest in a video machine like the one I have that ate a porno tape I put in it last night. I found the tape in the garbage. It was a really gross one that was boring, and the video machine I had just bought at a yard sale for five dollars, had wound the tape into a mass of tangled tape. Then this morning the image of a rat's nest in the machine's insides. This meant the machine needed cleaning, and a dirty animal had made a mess in it. Later saw a vague image if a naked woman sitting with a dope pipe in her mouth.
Saw the empty sack on the wood pile of fence posts at the left side of Bill's driveway entrance. Thought it was a empty small sack, but wasn't sure, because I couldn't really see it in the image. It was a vague red glow like the outline of a crumpled small white sack I have that has a pull string around the neck to close it. At first I thought this meant he wasn't home, and now I'm worried about him, because I was over there yesterday and noticed he hadn't been there since the last rain, judging by the tracks. He's the person who claimed he was in contact with higher intelligence.
THE WOODEN MAN ON A SPRING
Saw an image of a hummingbird visiting a bigger bird in the air and hovering there. (I had actually seen this in real life the day before. A hummingbird was flying, hovering close, like it was visiting another sparrow sitting in the tree, and I thought it was amazing.)
An image of a person with big bulging muscular legs. Thought it was me, because I had been riding my bike a lot, but this was gross big. I kind of felt proud and embarrassed.
A dream of being in a thrift store and seeing a small box of what at first was puzzle pieces. Later I took it off the shelf and had it on the floor or table, and there were two small wooden toy antique trucks (like some I carved a long time ago, and still have.) I remember when I first saw the box, I really wanted it with a greedy feeling, hoping nobody else could get it. There was a small track to let the toys roll down a hill like a roller coaster, and I tried it once. There was also a small wooden statue like a round green with yellow fat bodied character with a round head and nose like a snowman, and a green and red top hat with a flat top. The figure would shimmer like it was connected at the waist by a stiff spring, when I waved a small tube type wand with a magnet on the end, back and fourth over its head. For some reason I thought the little man wooden statue was me. It really vibrated with a fast shake that my eyes couldn't track, and then the moving lines of vibrating frequencies aligned, (like the icy white lines of harmonic convergence on April 18, 95.) Soon the lines converged to a motionless wave pattern, (like a tuning fork put on a dish of water, or sand on a vibrating machine cover. You can see the wave patterns form or merge.)
There were two grooves or round bands that circled the body of the man, where the belt would be. There were buttons down the front, and possibly a shirt pocket on the right, but am not sure.
( Figure 70.) (I used to
have an art game that had a magnet in a small metal wand that drew pictures when swinging,
making swirl patterns, and had even thought about that recently.)