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A dream of the worm and bugs under the skin of my foot, like bugs eating rotting wood. I was so afraid about what it meant when I awoke, and was so glad it was only a dream, but was still scared and couldn't figure it out. While still dozing; I thought: "dead." It must mean I'm dead, and then saw a pistol pointed at me. Was still afraid, and reviewed all my sins; then thought: "Oh well, I'm dead." Then a vague vision of a worm slithering, and a set of wicked pointed teeth, like some little bugs that eat the dead matter. It was scary, and I thought of the dragon, or worm myth, that guards the treasure, like the dreams of the days before.
Later, kept hoping for a further message, and saw a book face down with a thin black tar paper cover. Black paper used in the walls of old houses. (I had helped repair an old bug eaten house the day before, and saw how all matter is slowly being eaten by tiny dragon creatures with scary teeth. Carpenter ants had chewed some outer layers away on some foundation sill beams.) Does this mean, the dragon owns the foundation or footing, and it is dead and will corrupt the old ideas of God? The tree of knowledge wasn't to be eaten then, or you will die. ("That was then, this is now.")
The dragon guards the mystery of death, and God's secrets. Christ is the footing, and is dead from taking the treasure. The fairy book says that greedy treasure hunters might die, facing the dragon. Christ died first, so all can have the treasure. The black tar paper covered book, is the word of God. The footing is corrupt now. Black is power, lion is killer, treasure brings death.
Later the next day, my right foot was sore in the same area on the bottom, as in the dream, where the worm and small bugs were under the skin, and I saw a chewed wood grain area. This was from working on the house project the day before. (Psychic dream)
Somehow, they see all factors from past and future, and can find the perfect riddle. This was so amazing that my same foot was sore in the exact spot, the next day. This means that: "In the future my foot will be the foundation with the dragon living in it." The dragon guards death, the foundation is treasure, the black tar paper eaten foundation book is God's word. This is what a lot of churches don't understand. God's word is changing.
DANCING TO THE MUSIC June 29,95
Image of a small red car stopped on the left, on a dirt road parallel, or next to the railroad tracks, where they both cross the main road. A small puppy must of ran out from the car parallel the tracks, and across the main road, but wasn't seen. I hear a high pitched "yelp" scream in my head, a couple of times, that was long, as some people are running from the small red car after the puppy, and the puppy is seen laying on the right in the grass shaking a little, like it was hit by a car. Efficient red (blood sacrifice) vehicle, or puppy running along side God's train tracks, was hit at crosswalk from traffic in this world. The right angle or cross is shown here. Where two worlds meet, some one will get hurt by accident. The people running out from the red car to help the dog, are the dog trainers, or my alien guides and Jeeze. Maybe the scary dream from last night hurt me some.
Image of a black man by a tree, and seems he's being harassed in some way, and is starting to leave.
Image of scraping a small ditch in the earth. (Might mean a powerful man will be sacrificed, or will be planted.)
Image of a folded piece of yellow insulation, in a rough rectangle shape, laying in the trench for the cement foundation pour we were working on at my job site. (Had seen a stack of yellow insulation, through the window of the storage shed there earlier that day.) In the image, it was laying right near the right angle corner, but on the left arm side, in the trench. The trench had not been poured yet, but would soon be the foundation for the addition to the house. (They saw me (insulation) in the other room, and being yellow as a light, or most likely poison, they (aliens) put me there. Silver stands for light, as in the silver backing on the insulation, used to reflect the heat.
Maybe there is another riddle, but I'm not sure. The left means unconscious, and the footing hasn't been poured yet. The purpose of the insulation seems of no importance, but maybe to insulate the footing, and regulate temperature. Like the yellow onion image a few days ago, It can blur your vision if it gets in your eye. Green and yellow, as in the onion, means death and light that is poison. The color green, and the food beans mean death in ancient Celtic myth.
The story of Jack and the beanstalk is a complex riddle of a boy who kills a giant, or father figure. In the story of baby Jesus, wicked king Herod wanted him dead. This explains the yellow onion bulb with green stems in the road that was run over, two days ago, and also the song on the radio: "Wipe my weeping eye's." The yellow sphere bulb is fullness of tainted light.
Dozed asleep for a hour after helping on the house foundation today. It was one o'clock in the afternoon when I awoke to the court room show, where a judge hears the cases of problem teenagers. "Juvenile Court." I dozed in and out, and saw a dream image of a person from behind, who was approaching the judge, with a rolled up paper clenched behind his back in both hands, crushing it slightly, like he was nervous. Then a little later I heard a thought: "There are many children."
There have been a few times when listening to music with eyes closed, and even when open, where I will see an image of myself dancing with the rhythm. This is hard to explain, but it happens on really snappy tunes, and makes me feel foolish. I just see a small figure in my mind's eye, snapping back and forth at the waist with the time of the music. I would be too embarrassed to dance like that in reality. It seems that this is something new, and is from them. This means I'm dancing to their music. This is similar to the fairies that people saw, who would dance around the green fairy rings on the hills.
THE TWO RED JEWEL ROCKS June 30,95
Saw the kink in the clear pipe with black marks that said: "Warm, heat, and roast," after gut problems, and going to the toilet again.
Saw the food can with a black spider on the lip. Meant poison food? Saw the tainted food. Saw the star burst cut top, green pepper, and a small salad stuffing in it, with four small cubes in crooked fashion, forming a rough square.
( Figure
83.) There was an off color in the center area, that looked a little tainted yellowish
green, like it was poison. (See Nov.16,94)
The dream of the red jewel rocks somebody left, that I found on the rectangular table. It was a small deep clear red stone for a ring, and was like a mountain peak on top, but rough without color below. (Similar, to the red star in the book "URI" by Andrija Puharich, I was just reading.) (• Note 22.) A old friend wanted to see the small rock. I had two in my pocket, and said "Look at this one." It was the best, but I wouldn't let him hold it. It was flashing light like a star at first, and seemed to grow. Then it was reflecting a circular silver mirror strobe inside. Then it was now like a silver ball of a trailer hitch, while I was still standing on the table, and he tried to wrench it from my grasp. I fought it back, seeing freckles on his hand trying to take it. Then a vision, started as a big vague light zoomed smaller toward a far away place and came to focus on a square group of people off in a field. Then became a wide stone with rounded top, like a graveyard monument with writing on it, of one line of short squiggly unreadable verses or names. Four groups of names running vertical below.
( Figure 84.) (This was
like one of the ten commandments stones, but bigger. I saw on TV the day before, that they
sold the stones from the movie "The Ten Commandments.") Then the scene was a few
people wandering toward the lower right, and out of the picture, and a few hunting hounds
were sniffing the ground in the same area where the stone used to be, and wandered off
also. (This reminded me of, in the fairy book, there would be seen at night; a fairy
hunting party, with dogs and horses all jumping through a hedge, or into a field, and
chasing a deer, and later no tracks were seen. The fairy dogs were white with red ears,
and all dogs, fairy's and the deer, were small, and usually seen at night, or at dusk,
dawn, midnight, or noon.)PSYCHOLOGY
Later I was worried about my gut, and saw an image of a nurse pulling a long piece of tape, and putting it in a garbage can. Was afraid it meant my guts were too long, and needed a operation to remove some that were kinking. (This is what I thought before the image. They will let you see your fear.)
Was worried, and later saw the back of a doctor's head with glasses. Later saw a white pickup truck and a brown one in front of my Mom's house. (She is also a doctor; I was going to ask for help. The white truck is them. The brown one looked like my beer drinking friends.) I see two half full glasses of beer on the ground, to the right side of the road across from the white truck in front of my Moms house. Couldn't figure it out, and later the thought: "Put it down." This meant, the doctor of the white truck says to put the beer down. (I had five gallons of beer left over from a party keg, and didn't want to let it go to waste, and had been drinking it up for the last week. Otherwise I would have not been drinking)
An image of a stack of black cassette tapes, ( like tapes I read about in the URI book, that would erase,) and when one more was thrown on top of two piles of three, the whole mass went "sproing" like a watch spring, or tape measure when taken apart unwinding, and springing in a tangle all over the place. I heard that "sproing" and even felt it. Means my guts are messed up, I think.
Later the next day, I was puttering around working on bicycles, and saw two black guitar cases leaning up in the storage trailer project, and right then remembered a dream image of the same exact scene from last night, I'd forgotten (psychic déjà vu type dream) Yesterday I wrote how; a few times I have seen myself dancing in my mind when a real snappy song played; and now this psychic recall of two black guitar cases. Black, like the recording tapes, also means power. Two means church, and the guitars are played, or another words: "I am playing for them." There are "three" aspects, as in: "two," in "black," and in "cases or guitars." Three means purpose. The psychic connection means I will play for them in the future.
There was a dream earlier, where I was walking around an old barn shed and met the guy with the bulging marble eye. A neighborhood girl from across the canyon showed me inside the old barn on the neighbor's property.
(This old barn was a part from a long ago dream, mixed into this one. The guy with the eye is a recurring part in a dream. This is rare, to have such a long time span between dreams, but is seen a few times, as in the green apple dream, that's coming up, and a few others. This is similar to a recurring dream, but only a certain part is seen in a new dream, with a different twist, but a similar message maybe. This is proof they can pull pieces out of the past dream life, and mix it with new life events in new dreams, etc.)
Inside on the barn walls were places where old tools used to be hanging, but now there was just a strip of wood running across the wall into the corner, and down the other wall. (Like a right angle.) She said "You can write whatever you want across here," pointing to the board where the tools used to hang, midway up, across the one front wall. She went out and left around the corner. (I felt as though I could have shown more love to the two people in the dream, and in real life, had avoided them. Awoke, and heard a buzzing ring in my ears.
July 1,95
The dead numb arm feeling happened yesterday, but I forgot. This was like my arm has fallen asleep, and feels dead. Thought it meant my circulation in my guts was cut off.
The sets of eyes. Two open, then two closed below that, then two open below that. Six in all, in a square.
( Figure 85.) Maybe means
I had fallen asleep, and now was awake again. "Six" as in the number for man.
The square as in "four," the cross, or a time to die again. It might mean I was
awake and fell asleep, and now woke up again, as far as staying away from bad habits goes.The writing that said: "psychology," and was spelled wrong, like: sycalogea, or other, but I knew what it said. This was related to my hernia, and all the fear of not knowing what it was, and the way they spoke to help me, convincing me to live a better life. They used psychology. A lot of what I saw yesterday was seeing exactly what my biggest fear was. I thought my gut had wash out bleeding areas or was kinked, and I saw that. I thought I needed an operation, and saw that. Thought I was probed or reamed for cell samples, and saw that. They used psychology to make me stop bad habits, and overcome unknown fears of death.
THE SPLIT GREEN APPLE July 2,95
A dream of washing or cleaning up.
An image of crossing the bumpy railroad tracks at fair speed. This happened yesterday, and a while back, but I forgot.
While standing up, the two small telescopes were held in a vee shape, on lap of thighs, pointing up and out, maybe like dual phallic symbols. What could this mean?
Three times I crossed the bumpy tracks, and only remembered now, the first two times. (I roller skated today, and fell down at the railroad crossing, (possible psychic image) and now the two telescopes on loins. Maybe this means the fruit of loins is carried through space by bending light or space, or two legs carry the message I spied. The idea of the two tracks or God's train path I tripped over, and my legs seeing beyond, later, sounds right, but am not sure. Three times over the last three days, I recalled a dream image of tripping on tracks, and finally tripped in real life. The fact they can see three days into the future, lets them prepare this riddle.
July 3,95
A dream of walking with Willie, past the apple trees, on the "left" (unconscious) side of the right angle corner near where the Calpella bridge forks after crossing the river. A sign by the house said: "apples 25 cents, and in lemon mint leaf tea." I looked on the ground for stray apples, but there were none. Willie had to go to the outhouse, and took a path down the right side towards the back of the people's house. It was free to use.
Awoke and recalled a very long long ago dream that was vague, but seemed very important. It had to do with a green apple that was cut in half, and the center like a button. It was a window to another world that held a super secret somehow. The button was part of the opened apple. It was a bright green color. This dream seemed to be from thirty or more years ago, and remembered for the first time. I knew this beyond a doubt.
This dream also ties into the "climbing the red manzanita dream from back when I was seventeen." Manzanita means "little apple" in Spanish. The deep red bark is what I recall most in that long ago very lucid dream. This relates to "blood," and the apple: "knowledge." Suffering and knowledge go together. It took me a long time before I saw this connection, but I knew it was a hidden message, because there have been a few other long ago hidden messages. I was on their list.
SCIENCE THAT GOES BEYOND MAGIC
There is the Michelin commercial with the baby professor in the center of the tire's circle, that has the silver spiral rings wrapped around the baby like a cage, and then becomes a baby magician with a wand in right hand, with a five pointed gold star on the tip. It says: "Michelin's are science that goes beyond magic." I saw this on TV a week or so after the dream of (June 15, 1995), of the bird wrapped in a silver spiral cage to protect it from the bratty kids throwing stones. Then later, the bird was trying to get away down the side of the railroad tracks, and a kid threw a rock at it. This ties into this Michelin commercial, and other railroad track dreams, such as the small red car, and puppy being hit at the crossing, and feeling shook up crossing the bumpy tracks images. The tire the baby is in, is related to the efficient red vehicle on the tracks. The railroad crossing is the right angle where dimensions meet. The riddle took a week to figure out, because I hadn't seen the ad on TV, until four days later. They gave me the further clues of crossing the bumpy tracks, and finally I was able to put all related pieces together. They know exactly what you've missed, and kept adding clues, to bring me on track.
The baby bird in cage of steel tire bands, became the magician with five pointed star on tracks at crossing. I was even starting to read the book on Uri Geller, by Andrija Puharich, when the riddle started. This book has been the most amazing so far, as to understanding what they (aliens) are capable of, and how my relationship with them is very different, and also a little similar. They can use many ways of speaking. In the Uri book, they would speak through a tape recorder, but would always take the tape, and leave no evidence. They spoke through the radio also, and did a lot of more amazing miracles, making objects disappear and reappear, and gave Uri the powers he had. They also did a lot of light shows and saucers in the sky, that only certain people could see. There was even an eagle messenger that appeared before an encounter or message, a few times,
They have shown me unusual blinking lights in the sky a few times in the past, but not a saucer in the sky yet. I also thought I met with an eagle messenger once. There is the feeling in your mind that this is so. I talked before about how they have spoke through the radio once a long time ago, but I didn't realize it at the time. I thought it was the religious station for some reason. I realized this after reading the book "Uri." When this happened, there was some real spacey music at first, like Art Bell's "Dreamland" radio show. Later was a garbled voice in a smooth tone, and a buzzing noise overtone that would slowly rise and fall, and keep drowning out the voice. Only a few times I could hear the voice clearly. It said: "It is like we are just behind a wall," and I heard two pounds on my room wall then. Another thing said was: "It is like you're connected by a umbilical cord. That reminded me of the spiral feeling when they took me. The guy was talking a lot, but I couldn't make any of it out, and I was straining to hear. This happened sometime right after the major encounter. (This is the third time I've talked about this.)
The tire ad fits the "Uri" book, by the saying: "Science that goes beyond magic." I started reading this book, at about the same time I had the bird in the silver spiral cage dream, and that was the first clue to a riddle.
ANCIENT PETROGLYPH SWIRL July 5,95
Vague image of a cloud shaped saucer on edge, moving down. Cleaning the crusty spots baked on a stove, but in a pocket, and the "pop" noise, like a stitch broke.
Climbing a barn door, and can't find hand holds, with a great fear of falling. Ed's jeep came behind me right up the wall, and I sat on the hood. He climbed right up and found the hand holds; no problem. (Means to spend money burning a hole in my pocket, and not worry about the book. Ed is my old friend who spent a lot of money and always said I was tight. I even was thinking about him the day before this dream.) A little later, saw a coil of rope in a perfect circle, like I was looking right over it. Maybe this means the rope will catch me, or I will use it. The barn could mean I have much in storage.
The one swirl design focused, and became clear. This was the very common ancient petroglyph swirl.
( Figure 86.)The muddy water in the white bucket, meant I was tempted to a bad habit.
I learned from the book "Uri," that the number nine stands for the nine months of birth. Also learned that "six" stands for man, and three is the triangle, or purpose. Both equal nine, or purpose of man. The book tells of "The Council of the Nine," that speaks to them through the radio or tape recorder. They say that seven has to do with the speed of light. Eight must be two crosses combined. This is not said in the book, but was from a vision I once had. This could mean two worlds coming together. In the book Uri, the saucers they saw once were doing circular spiral coil spring maneuvers, similar to the Michelin ad and the silver bird cage dream, but maybe it's a coincidence. Also, the seven flares and pillars of smoke they (aliens) left, was seen by them, and this happened twice. They saw sets of two red lights, like big bright stars many times, that were like eyes. This is in the Uri book.
GRATEFUL DEAD HEADS July 6,95
Saw a loaf of hamburger, regular grind. Knew it meant to eat some grease for the gut problem.
July 7,95
A dream vision of people singing on stage, and one girl was singing lead. Later a vague image of purple pixie dust floating up on stage in a ribbon of smoke type wafting shape. I saw this scene from where the singer was standing on center stage.
A little later is a dream image of a compact red car crashes into hay bales, breaking in pieces, with fender flying, and right then I heard a loud "CRASH" in my head.
Had slept in till noon, from typing late last night, and when awoke: on TV was spoken of some people hurt at a Grateful Dead concert, when a bleacher floor collapsed.
Later that morning, I rode my bike to the swimming hole up the road, and the song: "The boys in the news room have a running bet, is the head dead yet? Give us dirty laundry," Sung by Huey Louis and the News. This song kept going through my head. Later the song: "He's one of the walking wounded," keeps going through my head.
The night before, I was typing about the high tech room image; like a news room where they operate and watch earth. This relates to the song about "the bet is on, if I fall into sinful bad habits," and I have to prove them wrong. Either that, or is related to the Grateful dead band, and all the dead head followers. We're trying to create a following of "dead heads," and I'm the girl on center stage, and the bride of the church.
A dream earlier, of an old friend lit up a joint, and I said "Oh I quit, the aliens helped me to stop."
A hack saw and ?, don't remember.
Seeing funny spelled words in the writing three times, starting with "D" and thinking: "People will really get a kick out of this." Darrighers, and dillebuers, or deggeroues. It was "one" quick dream image. All had "two" same letters together. There were "three" words, and all started with the "fourth" letter in the alphabet. The numbers one, (God) two, (church) three, (communion) and four (the cross) are seen in this riddle. This explains the "dead head girl singer." The "D" word almost sounds like a weapon's name.
CASPER THE FRIENDLY GHOST July 8,95
The static green ball of tentacles that shimmered and rose up, expanding like a jealous mass. (Similar to the green spider web swab I saw at Dusty's.) Means people can act jealous, if they have something you might like, and don't take it personally. This is a clue as to the real meaning of green, that I was confused about.
Dug up the Casper the friendly ghost head clay pot, buried with rotten food in it. A couple big loafs for a stomach, of stale puff ball mushrooms that went "POOF" when it fell and broke open. It was old, dried and moldy, with some other old fruit. A rotten apple and a nectarine that still tasted good and tart, (like the one I found on the side of the road the other day.) I was amazed it was preserved in the ground all this time. Later saw the two yellow rotten orbs, like grapefruits in mid air. Then could see right into the centers, that were a tainted sick, off yellow, compared to the bright outside.
Later saw a small sledge hammer with the wooden handle completely riddled full of bullet holes, like Swiss cheese. This was a real puzzle at first, and I thought it had to do with my sore back the next day. (Means to not eat old poison food, or Mark lost the handle? Mark means "hammer, and that is my name.) The idea of the dead food being in the ghost is amazing.
MY TOOTH July 9,95
Flying with long curly yellow hair, that towed me in swirls through the air, in the field where the redwoods are, at the spot where the cabin wasn't built, but was a chosen spot a long time ago. A round stone falling through space. (I'm the stone.)
Blood seeping wide from under the one long step, between the floor and the stage, and seen from on stage. (I'm the singer.)
The girl wanted a core sample of my tooth, to fix hers. I felt honored, but was afraid. She was so persistent, and with the drill.
The old black BMW car along the fence line where the pig was shot with the pellet gun. (One day we cut into a leg roast on the dinner table, and saw the pellet. We ate the pig. A neighbor heard, and said he remembered when he shot it when it was younger. We used to raise many pigs.) The old car was dragged up in the redwood field, and put on the site where the cabin wasn't built. There were some other vehicles there that were going to be worked on. (I'm the black car.)
The girl loading hay from Potter valley, I tried to get to know. (Being in love with the person (aliens) in the next valley.)
My brother tried to burn a door with an inlaid cross pattern. At first I wanted to save it, but decided not to. (Give up the material world.)
We drove a bike up to the top of the hill, (Observatory Hill, where my dad wanted to put a telescope) in the field where the cabin wasn't built, (It's actually not there, but in the meadow below, but dreams can be weird.) and the old cars were put there to work on. We came down the road nearby, and I saw the site in the small creek gully, where the old tooth was found. Some old tooth was buried in the ground, by a small side creek. (This ties into the earlier tooth the girl wanted to drill, and must be related to when I was younger and they knew me. The idea of the tooth must mean biting or eating the word of God, the way a baby learns to eat solid food, and take hold of the world. The pig eaten is a symbol of a sacrifice, and carrying a buried wound.) The found tooth must be my buried contact when younger, is now resurrected, because it was found in the gravel near a small running creek. I'm dead (reborn) by the water (word.)
July 9,95
Being in the ocean.
A donut shaped island, on a jetty joining land. Looks like a long wand with a circle at the end. A circle symbol on a staff in big waters. (Might mean that two worlds are joined. The circle (fullness) isolates water on the land, and the staff forms a bridge into God's world. The ocean (big waters) is God's word. The vast unknown is the ocean.)
July 10,95
The little girl fell off the small kid's roller coaster at a corner. She fell in the water and came up swimming.
Saw an image that said "terminal exhibitionism," spelled wrong.
Saw a fly on the lip of a dark garbage can. (Don't eat garbage.)
Going through two white orbs on pedestals, seeing shoes and legs of a runner running a race. (I have two orbs at the foot of my bed.)
Seeing the end of a silver object in a leather case, that looks like my stove sparker lighting wand. (But is not silver. It is yellow.)
A image of writing, spelled wrong, that says "self engrandziment." A vision of a person standing over a sink, and he seems to be using mouthwash, or trying to.
July 11,95
Image of a motor home coming towards me from the left, on a narrow road, and with left blinker on. I'm on the right side of the road. I knew it was the neighbor up the road, whom I met right at the corner yesterday, when riding my bike. He was walking with a walking stick. We met at the very corner, where the two roads intersect. (The idea of the kingdom of God coming from the left or unconscious, is seen again in this corner of the property scene.)
MANY BOILED SHRIMP
A record album said " blue and counting," with a girl in a blue sweater on it. (I called the girl up later, but she turned me down. I had been wanting to ask her out, thinking she might want me to.)
Saw a big long vat of shrimp, covered with water. Then the water level dropped, and filtered through them, leaving a massive pile of pink shrimp, (like ones I saw on TV, boiled for the Southern feed.)
Saw a silver airstream trailer back, leaving the ranch, and out the gate down the road. I squinted my eyes once, to see it as a silver saucer moving, and almost saw one a little. Then it was down in the valley making the turn at bridge, and speeding down the highway. Was still seeing it from behind, like a airstream saucer shape, but couldn't get it to look like one flying when I squinted. Then it was down the valley where the river comes near the road, (where the two raccoons died,) and now I saw it from above and moving fast. Now saw a pure white bus roof, and then a river was seen to the right, of pure clear water on the rocks, (Normally this is a small vineyard and small creek, and the creek flows from the big mountain I call God's mountain.) and right at that instant, I hear: "first John, one, verse seven," spoken as a thought in my head, or could of been on the radio right then.
Later this morning on TV was seen a very large group of airstream trailers from the airstream club. The guy said, "If you don't get along with your neighbor, you can hook up and leave in twenty minuets." (I was having problems when visiting up at the Big House, and one way to avoid that is to leave it all behind.)
This evening I also heard shrimp mentioned on TV. (The idea of a vat of reddish (sacrificed) shrimp being cooked in water and transformed gives a message.) I have finally caught up with typing at this very moment.
THE OLD PLASTIC VISHNU STATUE ON A HILL July 13,95
Thinking about telling my story to people, and heard notes winding down. Means to not try so much anymore.
Found a plastic old Vishnu statue on a hill that an Indian left. Saw my sister-in-law with her kid on the same hill.
Saw a fox giving birth running in the field above my place, with a lion running up and tearing the sack off.
Saw the green army truck storming up the vineyard row towards my place, then awoke, and heard the wall squeak. (Had recovered a deer at three in the morning the night before, when bringing the computer back to the winery. The dogs had chased it down and tore a big hole in the deer's back, and chewed deep into a rear leg. It sounded like a sheep screaming for awhile, and I wasn't sure if I should investigate. Then I thought "The shepherd saves his sheep." I went through the vineyard in the moonlight, and heard chewing noises. I sneaked up behind a bush and then jumped out, and those dogs ran so fast, they didn't look back. The deer let out it's last faint moan when I came upon the dogs chewing on it. That was a gruesome scene. I saved the deer and skinned it out the next day, and gave it to my Mom.)
July 14,95
Heard the whirring spaceship land in a dream, and awoke as it (whirring static) played on the radio.
Vision of a grave with snuff can lid letters imprinted on dirt. (Means to bury the habit.)
The thought: "Standing like cauldrons lost and alone."
Smoke behind a hat.
July 15,95
A young black cat laying dead in the tall green grass near the pump house door on the right side. (I'm the cat.)
Dozed at 5:00 PM, and saw a small splinter popping out of a yellow fester like the minute one felt in my foot today.
Swam at the water hole today, and while sitting there, was thinking "I wonder why Omni magazine hasn't been out for the last four months? Maybe it's because people are hearing too much about UFO's. Right then I heard a "beep." Can you believe that? This is more proof that they are always there. They have tracked me seven hundred miles up to Washington before.
July 16,95
Saw many shoes like Amelda Marcos's collection. One pair was black and white. Later saw a pile of shoes again. (Bought another pair of shoes again, at a yard sale. Only two bucks, but I have too many old shoes already. At least ten or thirteen pair.
July 17,95
"Blood believing is nothing like sugar-fish berries and junipers." Heard this thought in my head.
A dream of tearing a dried red kitten's skin into pieces for my stew. I didn't want to eat the face with the eye holes. (Saw the green leaf cutter ants in a library book later that day. Also a kitten.)
Heard a rapping at the door.
Soap being squeezed into a sink. Felt really sad and the song: "Give it all to Jesus," is playing.
July 18,95
Saw the blue cover of my book on a chair seat under a table, after thinking how to convert Family Radio with all the evidence. (This is the second time I saw a blue book. (See April 29,95) The other time was when I talked to a preacher about aliens, and he said "Do you mean alien espionage?" Blue means industry.)
Saw a red lion seat back in a fancy restaurant, like on the show "Love Connection," with Chuck Woolery. (That's my favorite show I watch late at night while typing.)
Saw a green turd.
Heard knocking on my door, but was in my head only. (They do this sometimes to make me overcome buried fear.)
July 19,95
A dream of a guy who pulled two antique bamboo organ pipe speakers out of a case from under his bed.
(
Figure 87.) We kept looking for a date they were made,
and found "42" to be the year. (Saw a similar pair at the flea-market four days
ago, like a matching pair of book ends, but large bamboo standing up, with a small speaker
inside. A cloth cover was over the 45 degree sliced top. These might be sometimes seen in
the back window area of a car.)Hemorrhoids hurt, and I thought of moving the wood around again. Then saw a image of my red coat on the two by four pile.
July 20,95
Saw a clear picture of a small triangle spike of glass, and the writing: E = M2 or M squared. An arrow was pointing left (unconscious) to the glass.
( Figure 88.) I later realized that "E" means to
"eat" of God's word, (See May 6, ,95 and other "E" symbols.) and the
bit of glass is the triangle thorn (pyramid point) in the foot. M is my first name's
letter, and two is squared, or "the cross."Five small saucers with dome caps coming out of a house wall.
A right angle corner section of copper water pipe, and with a longer piece running in a house. (I helped build a house the next day.)
THE HALL OF THE MOUNTAIN KING July 22,95
The teeth on the face was me. Three other scenes of what I did.
Was in a motorcycle shop in the desert. Some really exotic rare bikes. A wankle?, some very odd. A streamlined bicycle with saddle bags and fairing for road cruising.
Earlier was the hammer. The hammer hitting towards with foot, when I thought what the red light meant? Can't recall this one.
There was a skid plate I think I kicked, and then became the man made tunnel that was the hall of the mountain king's passageway. After kicking the skid plate, it turned into a massive mountain with a hidden stair case, I could see was built with square boulders, like a tunnel going up the side at a angle. I knew it was the hall of the mountain king.
"Dunamus" means the power of the Holy Spirit. Just heard this on Family radio's "Night Watch" with Jerry Ettinger. He's the night watchman, and I think he believes, but isn't allowed to talk about supernatural things.
July 23,95
Saw a sour green very small grape, with a baby face on it, and the thought: "baby being born." (A friend; my sheet rocking boss, came by yesterday. He picked some green grapes, and was studying them to see possible frost damage, and low berry count. He had just become a Grandfather, and told me he helped deliver the baby. I told him later about the dream image, and the thought "baby being born," and he actually tried to tell me my own mind must of made it up. There is just about nobody that's ever believed, or even cared much. It doesn't effect peoples lives, and so they can't relate to this.)
July 24,95
Image of: "don't fall off the ladder, and tipping." (Later the next day, the house builder was worried about no insurance, in case I got hurt, and made me sign papers.) (Psychic Dream.)
I told my boss about the dream, and to be careful, because I had a dream about falling. It turned out a little different then expected. Then the builder began acting worried I might fall and get hurt and sue. I asked my boss if he thought it was a psychic premonition. He was maybe a half believer.
July 25,95
Saw two droopy eyes on a face, (was me maybe) and heard "zombie." Saw two bright open eyes (on me?) and heard "creative." Saw "Moe," the mean dark haired one, of the Three Stooges, and he had droopy eyes, and I heard "Creative." This means drinking makes me angry.
A dream: "thinken stinken," meant to change the bed sheets.
July 26,95
Orange glow on the side of a dirt road.
Small skull on storage bin, full of never used but good items. Extra cloths, blankets, coats, shoes, etc.
The rock tray, and the cross of rebar, in the old cement at the swimming hole, and then seeing the pool of water bowl on top of the pillar of wisdom, and filling it with my cupped hands.
A dream of someone suing me because of a hit car two people were driving, that was mine. (Makes me understand suing.)
A dog barking, then a girl with a very good disposition on her face. (They showed me the things that were bothering me, so I would have a better attitude the next day, and not dwell on those things.)
Thought of writing vague images, and felt fingernails breaking. Thought of trying to explain some of the off the wall riddles, and felt rocks being chewed on, or jaw breakers.
July 27,95
Flying the tail of a guppy shaped ultra light, silver and very long. My brother was up front and crashed. It shook like a long silver snake in the air, and broke apart.
July 28,95
Clear water with one water bug and green water plants in the stream by my trailer project. (Means to finish project.)
Broken glass in chest, left side, or right?, with knife stuck in it. (Means to loose the fat I'm worried about.)
Dog barking at night. Saw a vision of a dog's head.
Told someone in a dream, that they can see 36 hours into the future, and heard a "beep" right then, as I awoke briefly.
Awoke and the thought: "angels and extraterrestrials."
Later that day, a cop gave me a ticket, and I told him I was visited by aliens from God. He asked "What happens when you die?" Said "I don't know," but thought about it later and should of said "You go to heaven." When you get stopped by a cop, it's similar to being visited by aliens, and I don't panic anymore like I used to. I got a 175 dollar ticket for riding in the back of a pickup truck holding up a new water heater It's a new law, and I will go to jail before I pay that. My boss's ticket was the same. That's 350 dollars, and probably more then the new hot water tank. You used be able to get a good used car for that. What's the world coming to?
THE BLACK METAL BOY July 29,95
Thought of not getting involved with arguing. Was burned out with people. Saw a dream image of a faint red spot of light at the center left of the big black burnt mountain to the north.
A dream of my black cat slept with me over the old outhouse hole, and in my trailer. It kept slipping in the hole, while it slept, and I thought it would get shit on it. Was plucking a flexible tone bar musical instrument then.
A dream my trailer was over a well. I looked for a outhouse hole and came upon a black tarp and new black tires in a old mine building. A black metal dog statue was caught in the mud, and then was alive, and I petted it. My dog greeted it. Then saw a black metal boy with a wide black flower hat on his head, and I touched it, but was a statue sinking sideways. The dog then became immobile.
A mean black dog visited another one, and the other acted casual and avoided a fight.
A dream earlier of my pen being out of ink, and I wanted to write about the red spot in the mountain.
The song: "On Christ the solid rock I stand, all other ground is sinking sand," is now playing on the radio at 3:30. This relates to the black metal statue I just wrote about. When I moved in the statue dream, I thought of the kind man in the field, who knew what young people had to go through in this life. I had said "So the dogs are barking again, and somehow I'm just turning the radio up, and won't fight people about it this time."
The right papers weren't in the mass of writing.
July 30,95
Little fish on hooks, all swimming. (Later that day I saw all the little fish gathering around in the swimming hole nipping my legs.) Fire flaming up in a freezer.
A white girl asking a charred Indian man to go out, and he said he's not feeling good, or is mentally upset.
Saw a skull in the woods, while clearing brush at a friends. Could this be related to three or four days ago? Is it possible a psychic dream can go this far into the future, or just a coincidence? Maybe they knew I would stumble upon it, because they knew my friend planned to have me cut brush there. In that case, they knew the skull was laying there. I don't know.
Aug. 1,95
Cutting a deer's leg, wanting to cook it all in the microwave. Leo said "Only some small chunks is all I need." Later that day I bought a big chunk of meat, and chicken breasts, because they were on sale. When doing that I remembered the dream again. I will eat it slowly.
THE PARTY AT THE CORNER BY THE BIG TREE Aug. 2,95
A dream, we were all marching in a large chorus line from the church, down the road from the big lake in town. We marched up the road and headed toward my house, and everyone was singing "God the father who art in heaven, I will ever be watching over thee." We sang that over and over. I was on the left in the rear of the pack, and was trying to harmonize with others, and feeling slightly self conscious. We approached my place, and the large crowd of people from the church was a marching army singing as we came around the curves in the road, through the woods in a trail it seemed. We arrived, and there was a large party at the corner of our property, at a tall pine tree with a blazing fire near the base, and many people from my family were there. I was a little embarrassed being with the church gang, when they all came over to the party and gathered around the tree. I sat on the left side of a bench, by the blazing fire in front of the big tree with low branches, like our big climbing tree.
Then there was a deep vibrating humming, and a craft overhead that shone a beam of light down in the very area in front of me, and to the sides. It then darted away towards the eastern mountains, and then very quickly swooped back in a flash, and was right over us again. I think there were two saucers, but one stood out more. It was a big glowing hazy white light right above in the sky, that cast a flared cone of light on the ground right in front or on me, and the vibration humming was intense. (All the noise was actually from the radio, but seemed louder. The song we sang earlier was also the same song on the radio.)
I thought people might panic, as I sat there, my brother opposite from me near the fire. I knew the saucer was doing that to make the people believe. It seemed real scary and shocking, but everyone was calm. Then the humming saucer left after about a half minute, and all the folks from the church who were gathered around, started heading back in a crowd, like a row marching down the road towards the church down in the valley.
Awoke with a creak in the wall. This was a high intensity virtual reality dream using the radio for sound effects. A really good one. I felt like a chosen one, and they came to put on a show to convince people, (like the saucers on "Encounters" last night, I saw on TV.) The way the saucer swooped away, and came back so fast with the spotlight, and the vibrating humming, was like a science fiction movie. It was like actually being there. It's virtual reality. (Saw on Star Track the night before, the use of tractor beams. This was similar to the dream.)
Talked to a guy yesterday, who said it's from Satan, and the Bible is all you need. I told him that just as when Christ came and the laws of animal sacrifice were done away with, so now also is another major change in God's plan. Told him to read in Hebrews, where it says: "that which is old is ready to fade away." I said how the Bible is clear that there will be false Christs and a falling away, signs and wonders, tribulation etc., and we can trust in that. He said "Satan is doing it." I said "That's the big mystery. God uses Satan as a means to introduce the signs and wonders, and later we will find out if it was God all along."
I told my friend "Dusty," who I was doing carpentry with, about the dream of the marching singing army from the church, and the fire by the tree, and saucers with light beams. He said "What did you eat last night? Chili peppers can do that." He didn't believe it was a virtual reality dream from the other side. I told him they have been speaking like this for over a year, and I'm writing a book on all of it. It is still true that people can't believe it is real, or don't even care.
THE BELT BUCKLE WITH A STAR Aug. 3,95
A dream of at the dock, and I fell in the water when the dock flipped. Was afraid the computer in the backpack would get wet, but it wasn't there. A old friend on the other dock gave me a belt with a big buckle of two circles and a star in the center. It had one outer black circle, a white circle, and black circle inside that, and a star in the center. Bill's belt buckle was the same, but not with a five sided star in the center.
( Figure 89.) (Bill was the person who left the ranch and
headed up the lumber road, up the mountain and never came back. Remember that? I followed
his white chalk track on my bike, and was wondering why he didn't take the low road.)Saw a square border raised bed garden in a dream that said "my Dad took care of that garden and left it behind."
Aug. 4,95
Was no dream last night. I typed till five in the morning.
The computer did some strange things a few times during the last two days. Once a few sentences disappeared, and I realized they were unnecessary. Once my work showed up even after I had dumped it in the trash. Once when trying to decide to edit a bad part, I saw a shift in my vision similar to the "straighten up" effect, that happened in a image a while ago.
When they first came to me back in Jan. 20,1993, there was a person speaking on the radio who said "There will be a period of struggle that will make you stronger." This was on the Christian station, and was on the very night before the major encounter began. It seemed the music program became more contemporary, compared to Family Radio, but what was strange was that it was tuned into Family Radio then. They (aliens) were speaking through the radio even way back then, on the very night before they came. My radio would turn off sometimes then, and there was no explanation. I even checked the wires on the speakers, but later it would be working again.
It seems they are giving fewer messages, because I am trying to get the book done, and was hoping it would slow down some. Back a week ago, when I realized they could see 36, or more like 60 plus hours into the future, it seemed I was feeling mad at them for some reason, but would feel guilty and knew it wasn't true. Maybe I felt I was tricked, but didn't think I was mad about that. Maybe they induce that emotion; sometimes I have that feeling, because when I awoke and realized the long psychic dream, I knew it wasn't true.
Sometime I kind of feel mad because they are always pointing out my bad points, but realize they are trying to help me. Other times they will make me feel sorry for myself, by saying I have been killed or blood has been shed and I'm a sacrifice. Then I feel it's not really that bad, and feel guilty. Other times they come up with a totally off the wall dream that is really humorous or peculiar and doesn't seem to fit. Writing down these dreams and thoughts has been a lesson writing in the simplest way, what was actually experienced. I know it isn't easy to see unless you are really there, but pictures will help.
Sometimes I step outside my trailer and look out, or head up the path, and for a split second, out of the corner of my eye, think there is someone standing over at a distance, but is only a tree, bush, or some other object. It's like somewhere in my buried memory, I met some people and am having flashbacks thinking someone is there. This is a phase I go through off and on. Another thing is that when I see a bright flickering strobe type of light on TV, or even car's headlights flashing through the trees at night, I have a flashback slight panic feeling of having seen this before.
The Macintosh computers "Apple" with a bite in it, "logo," means the tree of knowledge has been eaten from. The rainbow colors on the apple must mean something too.
THE RED PEPPERMINT SWIRL Aug. 5,95
Removing many material objects from a washing machine. Roller skates, guitar, brass, metal objects, old small vial of red peppermint powder swirled red and white in a barber pole pattern. I smelled it, and it was like raspberry. (The barber pole spinning design was seen before, in the two pillars of fire. This could be related to the swirling tube they transport you in. Both times the color was red, and this time it is removed from a spinning washing machine, and has a sweet smell.)
There was a glass dome with a brass spinning pendulum governor clock inside. One like my Dad used to have.
The check my Mom showed me was for my brother. It was for 360 dollars, and made me jealous.
Then a image of stepping in sinking sand on the bank of my creek, (in the same sandy area I saw yesterday.)
Later saw a shed snake skin. (Had even seen a water snake in the creek yesterday, and also saw where a lizard had shed its skin.) Also recall the black metal boy dream, in sinking sand?
Later on a race course with bicycle, racing a person. I speeded in front once, then didn't care, and went over bumps that I didn't feel. On the radio someone spoke of how material wealth was lost, and he found true happiness elsewhere. He was speaking in the dream, and when I awoke, continued to talk on the radio.
Riding mini bike by big lake in field. Wanted to swim, but many people.
Aug. 6,95
Papers advertising fish in my brothers cubby hole box. (Later the next day, I found out he was going fishing. Psychic dream. Also, fish is a Christian symbol.)
Climbing the neighbor's steep road with mini bikes.
Aug. 7,95
Dream of a dark figure, of a face like a storm cloud, moving across my vision. Then it came again a little later. Forgot some images.
Saw the face of the black eyed battered woman sign. (Means to avoid people who can mentally abuse you and bring bad habits.)
My brother and I, swimming in water under the old red house porch.
Midday of the seventh, saw during a nap, a old sun baked orange rubber rugby or flyer's helmet laying on the right side of the road near where the scarecrow is, by a neighbor's garden down the road by the forks. (Means Eddy eagle was hit or scared off, because I was tempted to smoke, and drank with an old friend who came over the day before. I almost smoked if it had been good buds, but barely didn't. Saw the red tailed hawk at Dusty's later that day. Psychic.)
Here they have taken a part of a dream from a while ago; mixed it with the scarecrow down the road, and also the psychic part of seeing the red tailed hawk circle overhead later that day. The scarecrow scared the bird, but it was seen later watching over me. (Eddy eagle was the one who soars and fights bad habits for me. This was a little ways back.)
A image of visiting Bill and writing. He was visited by spirits he said.
A few times, they (aliens) will say other people's faults, if it is a fault I don't like, but this is rare. Mostly they always direct the faults to me. That is where it is.
THE HOUSE PEAK AND THE OBELISK Aug. 8,95
Five potatoes wrapped in silver tin foil on the floor by the big east window space in the new house I'm helping Dusty build. (Means I couldn't go to Usal for the beach party, because I had to work on Dusty's house. My party is here. Five baked potatoes ready to eat, and reflective. They are transformed when cooked. Five means judgment and redemption.)
Later, a dream of a guy and a girl. She was called "Snake," Later the next day, I saw on the "Conan cartoons" on TV, after work at 2:30, a serpent woman who was the evil queen of an empire. Psychic.
A dream of the old Buick Riviara. It was like an old classic. The next day I went and saw it, and smoked. It was two days ago when Eddy eagle was shocked by the scarecrow. He saw it coming.
Aug. 9 or10,95
Awoke in the middle of night. Wondered if they spoke no more. Vague image of a red candy wrapper. Later a bloody section of cut bone from a steak. Maybe means to not worry about wasted food? Maybe means to sacrifice scrounging habits. Both are red like blood. (Had seen a old steak bone in the dirt, and a red candy wrapper on the road, I thought was full, but no.)
A dark horizon straight line with darker below, bends and forms into a mountain peak, then a obelisk pointed square tower on a square base, appears below the peak pointing up toward the center. Later this same vision in a dream came again. (I thought was a breast at first) and then the tower like the Washington monument appears below the peak. Wasn't sure what the peak was at first, and thought it was a mountain or breast. At first there seemed to be a bud forming, upside down on the straight horizon line, before the mountain peak formed
There was a dream of a sexy girl's legs, and she bent over. This was before the peak's visions, I recalled. I still couldn't figure it out.
Later an image of: I was painting under a peak of a house roof, where I had a hard time removing the tar paper in a certain area above. (I had painted a friend's house walls the day before, but not the attic.) This was only a message to show me the meaning of the peak or breast image, I was struggling with. It turned out that the woman's legs are the house peak, and the obelisk is the support. (• Figure 89A.) These two go together like sex symbols that support the world. Means to not feel guilty about sex, because it's only natural.
A few days ago, the thought: "Ped" a luma. Didn't realize it then, but it meant to go visit Don. I was thinking of going to visit him, and forgot that he moved from Petaluma, and now lives in Cloverdale, but at the time I believed he lived in Petaluma. They gave a riddle using the word Petaluma. (I just had typed what the riddle meant, but when I looked again, it had erased from the computer! Can you believe this?)
The dreams have been more vague over the last couple of weeks, almost as if it wasn't important to write them down.
Aug. 11,95
Spent the night in Garberville while sheet rocking during two days. Was a dream of the glass cracked in a circle when hitting a nail. Later saw the small free form cement house on a peak in the woods the next day, and it had some small circle windows.
THE PURPLE CRYSTAL Aug. 12,95
Saw the mosquito again in a vague image. The same one that always tries to get me when I shut the light out, and I always miss swatting it by the TV. Saw this buzzing mosquito image a week ago and also three days ago, but thought it not important, and forgot to write about it. Now I think it means: "it is the pest that wants my blood." I'm the sacrifice and it's always after me, like me and writing this story. This is only the struggling side of it. The other side is so rewarding and interesting.
Awoke in the middle of the night to a struggling dream of dogs barking, and my brothers running heavy machinery across the road near the corner. Was worried they would ruin the land. One brother was up in a big pine tree, (that's dead now, and only a stump shaped like a chair remains.) He was up there in a robe waving his arms and hands like a powerful leader or wizard. Another big green earth scraper machine was on the road nearby, (like the ones seen yesterday, clearing the big slide, on highway 101 south of Garberville) driven by my brother. It was real heavy, and bouncing a little as it sat there running, and I saw the road bending, forming cracked spots for pot holes starting. My other brother was driving and I was overwhelmed with all this action, and also barking dogs nearby driving me nuts.
Right before I awoke, was a scene of standing by the big tree, (that is only a chair shaped stump now) and I was up in the air some, near where my brother in the robe was, and I dropped a white crystal with purple in it, and it fell to the ground near the tree, near the corner. I reached for it and then awoke overwhelmed with a feeling of turmoil similar to when the dogs barked when I came home yesterday.
The next day in the evening, I saw a clicking bug in a spider web, that made lot of noise. The spider was really trying to wrap it up good, and two spiders even battled over it. Its body would bend in the middle with a loud click every five or so seconds, even when wrapped in a tight web. It looked like it had chewed out of one cocoon, but the spider was speedily wrapping again. I set it free, still wrapped, and it fell on or past a cluttered shelf. When looking for it, I found a purple crystal near where it fell. I could still hear the clicking, but it was lost, and later was quiet. Maybe it lived, because it could chew it's way out. This was the first time I even realized I had the purple crystal on the shelf at the foot of my bed, and had even forgot I had it. Then I recalled the white with purple inside, crystal, of the night before. This was a psychic riddle, that unfolded a day later.
Later I thought about them, (aliens) and saw a glowing light in the dark woods, like a saucer was hidden under a rise and reflecting a glow off the bushes and trees.
A dream right before waking of Oprah Winfrey on stage, and said to a friend in the audience: "You sure are getting fat." She (the friend) was put on the spot, and in the front row embarrassed, putting her head in her hands and hiding her face laughing. It was a friendly personal joke. Later the next day, I found a freshly hit deer on the road side, and felt so lucky. I skinned it and gave half to Ken for the use of his freezer. This is the second deer in a few months, and I also just made 200 dollars in the last two days hanging sheet rock in Garberville working with Jim, and am working with Dusty tomorrow, cutting brush and packing roofing. I don't even have time to edit and work on my story. I got some free aluminum tin and bought a very old Wardaway washing machine for $30 from Dusty.
DIAMONDS IN A YELLOW SPECTACLE CASE Aug. 15,95
Image of a small black "Mag light" flashlight, thats top is twisted to turn it on, and a small "snap" electrical spark sound is heard right then, but no light is seen.
After this is seen an old faded yellow cream eye glass case. It's opened up and there is a small sparkling diamond where each lens would be. The one left diamond, (my left, but actual right) was a little towards the center more then the right diamond. It wasn't perfectly placed.
(I have a small black flashlight, and had also used my reading glasses the night before, when reading "Heaven and All it's Wonders and Hell, by Emanuel Swedenborg." (• Note 23.) He died in 1772, and had been spoken to by angels. (Black rod of power sparks light. Diamond spectacles make light bright and big, as in reading a message from God.)
Later that day I was playing religious music records, and thought about the diamond needle, and how long it would last. Don't know if this is related to the diamonds, or just a coincidence. Saw Ophra Winfrey on TV two days after the Ophra dream, and then remembered that they give psychic dreams.
ARMY BOOT LAMP STAND Aug. 16,95
A small frog and a knife? Maybe. A small frog that's bent sideways shriveled and dead. (My small pond had dried up, and many small frogs had died, and the smell was strong.) The grass is getting really green there now, a few weeks later. Frogs are amphibious and live in two worlds.
Aug. 17,95
Later that afternoon, about 6:00, I took a short nap. Right upon awakening, saw two army boots. One on its side, and one standing, which was the base of a lamp shade above it. A thin black rod connected the two. It was a boot lamp stand.
Today, while driving down the road on my scooter, I felt my right hand sore and numb, having worked it too hard for the last three weeks, building and hammering. I barely have time to write the book. Right when thinking of my sore tendons, the thought "tunnel vision" came into my head. I knew it came unexpectedly. I was going to town then, to fix a floppy disk with a unrecoverable error. Sometimes when I have written bad things that shouldn't be in a book, the disk will mess up and even the disk repair program, used with the computer at the library, can't recover it. This has happened twice, and both times there was evil writing about people. Somehow I got carried away and out of anger would say bad things. That isn't Christ like. Other times I might have said things that shouldn't have been said about Jeeze and the aliens. There are some secrets that can only be speculated upon. I try to just say what happened, and should not try to judge or rationalize. Some things just are, and it's not for me to say if it's good or bad.
Even though I act like a smart-aleck and go to the churches and claim wild things, I have to tell people. When you know this is true and you're not crazy, you want to tell the world. That's when you find that hardly anybody even cares. My mailbox is empty, except for some groups who keep asking for money. No response or personal letters, just more junk mail. Sometimes I kind of get mad. It's so impersonal, but I need to love people more. I can't turn on the religious ones, because I'm one of them. Some have turned against the Bible, and that shows man's true nature, and that's why Christ died. People are rebellious. It was the same way when Jesus came. He must have been quite a leader to get such a following. It must of been the help from God, with the miracles that created a following. At Pentecost, many were converted because of miracles. The apostle Paul must have been quite a person. He had the desire to tell the world that it is true that Christ was the son of God, and there is a God that comes out of thin air. He saw the light on the road to Damascus, and God chose him for a reason. All the people who claim contact with other worldly things, are the same. Some don't want to tell others for fear of ridicule, and some do, because they are so amazed.
It seems the dreams and visions are getting less, or seem less significant as far as riddles go, so I don't write them down. Have been hoping it would slow down because I'm trying to get the book edited.
Last night a dream of grapefruit in sacks at my boss's house. Coconuts with milk that were really onions. I wanted them. (Onions were on sale, four pounds for a dollar yesterday, but I already had some and was debating on passing up the bargain. Later that day at the store, I ended up seeing sacks of grapefruit and onions again. Another psychic dream, but in a fragmented setting, mixed with events of the day before. That's how it's been lately. Vague psychic parts put together in random settings, that aren't the same as real life, but hold a riddle still, that teaches me about myself.
Aug. 20,95
A dream of: my trailer's plywood walls being pieced together, then complete, and then a big two foot wide blooming red rose was on the upper right corner of the trailer. Must mean to go ahead and do the project as first planned, and not just an open deck.
On the KCDS religious radio station news this morning, I was shocked to hear that authorities were studying an old photo of a hurt alien on a bed to decide if it was genuine. This was on the official government news, and proves the subject is coming out in the open more. I was thinking about that, and had an image of my knife in my mouth, laid around in there on the sides. Had a really dry mouth that morning. Could this mean the suppressed word is cut off? Water means word.
Later that day I was saying bad things about my Mom while talking to my sister. Right when I said "our family is always pointing a finger at the other person, and each person should start with their own self:" Right then I heard a faint "beep," like a high pitch tuning fork electric humm in the left ear. I told my sister, and she believed maybe. She is the one who did a lot of typing early on before I learned how, and she read about the beep. The beep now is fainter and more high pitch, than the earlier beeps.
Yesterday I found a book at a yard sale called "The Sky people" by Brinsley Le Poer Trench. (• Note 24.) It is a early book from 1960, similar to "Chariots of the God's." Had heard of it before, but had never seen it. In the forward introduction chapter he mentions two American born Chinese scientists. In 1956 they startled the scientific world and challenged the thirty year law of the conservation of parity. This states in part, that matter would retain it's same basic physical property if the direction of the motion of the particles within the atom were reversed. Tsung Dao Lee and Chen Ning Yang opened new fields of research in physics. This explains the number "two" used so often, meaning the "church," and must be the parallel dimension.
A UFO OVER USAL Aug. 21,95
Recalled a rotten taste in my mouth last night. Must mean I've said bad things, and is related to the knives in mouth from yesterday. Thought it meant to edit bad writing, but later found it relates to saying bad things about my mother, to my sister.
Later around 6:00 PM, I took a nap and had a dream of being on top of a closet or file cabinet. There was a row of old books, a row of floppy disks for a computer, and some sunglasses in cases. I had two eyeglass cases on a plate of items I wanted to take, then opened one, and the lens was one black rectangle, like a welder's helmet lens, but were sunglasses. Then saw a soft leather holster, opened it up and found a pistol that was damaged like it had been run over, and was a spinning drill's head, and somewhat odd looking. I spun its damaged chamber that was the barrel, and right then saw a scene of a Cowboy and a Indian. The Indian had a flaming coat on, of bright yellow and orange flames streaking across, like being blown in the wind, and he was holding his arms forward as if offering a peace pipe.
This looked like the flames I saw on the hood of a car earlier today. Also saw a book at a thrift store, about the Sioux religion and Christianity, called "The Pipe" or something. I didn't buy it because of the idea of smoking, but will go back and look for it.
Heard "Morning Sky," a native American Indian speak on Art Bells "Dreamland" last night, and he spoke of coming world changes and how it connected to ancient Indian myths and religion. He said "The turn of the wheel is almost complete, and a new cycle will be upon us."
My other friend "Clint," with dark sunglasses on, told me yesterday, that he was at Usal beach with a lot of others from my family. He was reading a science fiction book with a saucer on the front. Right when he started reading a little, an object was seen in the sky that was dark and motionless, and turned on its side once. It lasted maybe seven to ten minutes and others saw it. It was a windy day and could not have been a helicopter, because it remained perfectly still, except when it turned on its side and then back again. Later it slowly drifted behind a hill. The shape was just a vague dark shape, and its manner didn't fit any known craft. It was so vague, they were not sure what it was, and weren't really convinced. I said "That must be why they call it a UFO."
I had even hoped they would see a UFO over there, and was thinking about, how that would be a good place to see one. I thought this while back home writing this story, and can you believe now I hear this? I've never seen one in daylight yet, but some of the dreams are so real, it's like being in scenes that are right out of a science fiction book. (I have seen the black birds twice, and the silver plane once that was gone when I looked again, and I was hoping to see a UFO before each of these scenes.)
ON STAGE IN THE SHIP Aug. 22,95
Saw a soft brown leather zip up pistol case at a friend's house today. It was just like the dream a days ago, of the Cowboy and the Indian with the coat of flames. This is a psychic dream.
No dream last night. Typed till 5:30 and only slept 3 hours. Was an image yesterday of a person offering me a hand to climb into the new trailer I plan to finish building. The same one that had the big rose on the upper right corner. This dream was about three days ago, and I have been wanting to get working on it soon.
Today I thought of the high pitch buzz that is faint, and almost sounds like ice tinkling, or a snake's hiss. It is a very high electrical ringing. When realizing it kind of sounded like a snake's hiss, this opened up a new way of connecting old myths. I wondered if people of old were spoken to in the same way; and so gave the serpent the place in myths that it holds. The serpent people were a race that came from the heavens and mixed with man.
Aug. 23,95
Picked up a small red rock cone-head arrow tip with a face on the edge.
Saw a brown dog coming out to attack, it seemed.
Saw blood where the pile of rocks were.
Feeling sexual with a girl on the new trailer project floor.
Saw yellow baby chicks run through the grass, (like the baby quail chicks that live under the trailer, and yellow, like the old bed spread I found under the bridge that some hobo had left. I saved it even though slightly ripped.)
Saw two dogs being friendly.
Saw the ear of cooked corn in the reading glasses case.
Later that day when going to get the computer at the winery at night, I took a ear of corn to eat on the way up, and threw it at the corner of the property, just as if for some meaning, but am still working on the corn in the eyeglass case riddle. Must mean to eat of the yellow (poison) food. I did go overboard and buy a lot of corn, because it was on sale.
Aug. 24 or 25,95
On the big ship, and I noticed a cracked step was welded, while walking off the deck, and led up on a stage inside. I wasn't afraid to be seen with the chubby woman, but she went to the upper stage, and I below. There was really nobody out there in the dark seating area anyway, except maybe two people in the shadows, by the aisle. (This reminded me of a empty church, or the auditorium at college.) Was going to eat one of the donuts there in the pink box, on stage. It was chocolate, but I decided it wasn't good, and my stomach felt full with good food.
The two groups of five cast iron window weights placed apart aways on the one long edge of my rectangular cabbage patch, after I saw the book and flipped through the pages that I knew was mine. It was a thick book, like a book I recently bought at a yard sale for fifty cents; called: "The Religious Experience of Mankind," by Ninian Smart. (• Note 25.)
Later that day I went to get the computer again, and when I came back and was cooking, I set a knife on that book just by chance; because it was laying on the table. Then I remembered the dream of that book being like the one I thought was mine, (the one I'm writing) and then seeing the two sets of five window weights on the edge of the cabbage patch. The patch means my new growth, and the weights are the burden. Five means judgment and redemption.
Aug. 26,95
Yesterday, had the smoking pot dream.
Something about the blood, and a silver dime on the side of the road by the river. Meant to have a kid. I worried it would cost so much to have a kid.
Later that day while building the trailer, I saw the three sets of two windows, I planned to put in the new wall, and heard a "beep."
Aug. 27,95
Image of blood. Later had problems with barking dogs.
BLACK PIXIE DRAGONFLY Aug. 28,95
Saw a black pixie dragonfly like a fairy, in a black open bottomed box.
( Figure 90.)Then saw a vague image of two people kissing; maybe men.
Then saw a young girl, happy at being kissed.
Means I am the bride of Christ, or the church. (Saw a picture of the myths about fairy lore in a UFO book at Walmart yesterday, and had read my notes on being homophobic the night before.
The dreams are getting so obscure and they would be difficult to write. Some are still psychic connections in vague parts.
Aug. 30,95
A virtual reality vision of moving at high speed; first through a house with furniture, then through the woods, and seeing peripheral vision of leaves and trees passing by fast. Then there suddenly appears a skull type face in the wood's path, as I then keep going fast, faster, and then into a city suburb with trees and houses, down, then out lanes, and past chain link fences, moving fast, and becomes vague but still in a country town.
A little later is seen: looking down on a large harbor with big boats seen docking up, and a stream of foam pushing behind the boats. (I think it means the boys were attracted to the girl at the party. I liked her but was afraid of her. I'm always afraid of women. The first part of the dream relates to a fear from the past.)
THE WHITE MIST Aug. 31,95
Saw an egg cooked on the bottom, sunny side up, and uncooked on top. (Meant my trailer walls were up, but not the roof.)
Sept. 1,95
Saw a motor's two pistons moving up and down. (Meant to get rolling, I was so lazy, sleeping in so much.
Seeing the square butter cube used for cooking. It was under the trailer. (I Cleaned dry grass later that day from all around trailer.)
Saw the bluebird.
Three times I have found a UFO book stamped "WITHDRAWN" on it, from a library. Once in a thrift store was found "Challenge to Science" by Jacquez Vallee. "The Andresson Affair" was found in a used book store, stamped "withdrawn." Also the book "Dimensions" by Vallee, was seen stamped "withdrawn."
Sept. 2,95
Being towed behind the wagon.
Sept. 3,95
On the straight path with two purple stripes.
The two shoes by the door.
Saw a bluebird image two and a half days ago. (Saw a bluebird fly away today when I arrived.) I was trying to catch one. (Meant to not come on too fast to a girl I liked.)
While at church today, saw the white mist in the air, to the right; out of the corner of my right eye. This happened a little after thinking "I wonder why Jeeze never speaks to me when I'm in church?", such as a "beep," is what I meant. The white mist lasted for a split second, and it was a foot and a half long, in a tilted random shape, longer then it was high, and maybe two feet off the floor. When I looked again, it wasn't there, and I was saying "I know I saw that." It lasted a fifth of a second or less maybe. This was in the old Jim Jones church. I later asked an old friend after service there, if it bothered him out of superstition, to go to this church here. He said "It's just a building." I didn't mention the white mist to anyone though. They were having trouble believing about aliens already.
Saw on "Unsolved Mysteries" TV show; a story of a girl who had poltergeist activity in her house, only when she was around. She had been picked on by other school children earlier in life, for a minor problem relating to either speech or eyes, and had a very bad self image. Her mother took her out of school it was so bad. Later in life she had bad emotional problems from all the ridicule, and had much repressed anger.
Then the strange things started happening in her house, only when she was home. Light switches would turn off and on, and electrical appliances would start running. At first, people blamed her and she became the center of attention being accused. They had an electrician, and later a ghost expert was brought in. It was proven that it happened only when she was home. After awhile the activity kind of stopped. This is a example of how the holy spirit creates a therapy situation. The girl faces the singled out ridicule again, and the root of her repressed anger is brought to the surface. When I saw that show it struck a similar cord. This is like me preaching to the churches, getting ridiculed. The Holy Spirit works in amazing ways.
Sept. 4,95
Being lifted by the right arm, up on stage with a music band.
Saw a nail pointing up.
Saw the big black plastic water jug. (Had forgotten about this until later that day, and then recalled, when I saw it. Black as in power, and water as in the word of God.)
Eggs. (The butter for cooking in the (Sept. 3) image, really meant to finish the trailer's roof, because it was half cooked. I pulled all the dry grass out of fear of fire, but that was also true.)
ALL LIGHTS GREEN Sept. 5,95
Before falling asleep, I was thinking of before it all happened, when driving the van to Santa Cruz. I recalled that every stop light always seemed to turn green, right as I got to it. This has me wondering even now more so, as I think back. That was very unusual. That happened ten or more times in a row, like someone was saying "Come follow me." It was like I was singled out.
This was similar to the red carpet that flowed down the pyramid steps in the major walk with God, when they later came. And now while thinking this, I saw an image of a black zip up pack, zipping around the bottom and up, and then a black duck taking off with speed from a lake and into the air toward the north. This was so vague but clear. I saw this while dozing.
They have now proven they can track you wherever you go, and can also effect electronics; so this seems true that they did that with all the stop lights turning green. How else can the laws of chance do that ten or more times in a row?
Sept. 6,95
Saw a black crow flying after a black raven, in a dream image.
Sept. 9 or10,95
Saw a big black husky dog on a patio, and was frisky. (Had talked to people about them (aliens) all day yesterday.)
Images the night before, and once before that also, of blood in the middle of a spiral mat circle, and once, as if a person were a pig and its throat cut, and with a pool of red under it.
Sept. 12,95
"Jeep," Dusty's dog died last night. Was thinking "All breathing creatures go to heaven, except flies who don't breathe." (Heard that on Dreamland) Right then heard a "beep."
Later a vision of: long straight hair came together, and spelled a word in handwriting. It was pescomistic or ? resurrection maybe.
Later a vision of wire screens that had depth of many layers.
Sept. 15,95
My brother building a nice gray house near the winery. Said it was for me to make sweet wine. A small amount. I said it tasted good, and the other wine wasn't good.
Saw a cherry.
Saw a gray shirt for me to wear.
Sept. 16,95
Two bundles of grass, like rods bent.
Later saw a coffee pot water with a piece of grass floating in it. (I used a twisted bundle of grass to light a joint that one morning when I met Dave on the road and we cooked breakfast on the campfire at the lady's house she was being evicted from. Later that night they (aliens) warned me to not smoke again.)
A image of a Seven Up can spinning end over end in the sky above my trailer project. (Meant to finish nailing on the roof, as in Proverbs nine. Recall May 8,95, was similar. May 8 is my birthday.)
CLAIRVOYANCE Sept. 17,95
Heard: "vegetarian." (Meant to not eat so much meat.)
Two small aluminum tack nails on the hood of a brown pickup truck. One was on its side, and one pointed up. (Later that day, saw a boot on TV. One on its side and one upright. Later that day I also got a broken piano for fifty bucks, and a friend helped move it in his truck; similar to the dream. The boots meant my purpose or direction of working, and were like the two nails on the truck hood. A brown truck hood of similar color to the truck of the guy who helped me move the piano the next day. I had actually planned to nail the roof on this day. This is how the messages become mixed, using past and future ideas or events. There must be some sort of computer that blends common ideas in riddles.)
Saw an ax image, like the good one I saw later that day.
Earlier, yesterday, when thinking of asking the lady who was moving, about the piano, I thought there might be another piano in the back shed for some reason. I asked her about the one I saw in the main house. She said she wanted to keep it, but had another piano someone had left in the back shed. This must be clairvoyance or precognition. It has happened a few times after they first came. Somehow you think things beforehand, and then find out it is true. They can see things you can't, and then relay that message as if it were only you thinking it. You don't realize they are speaking, because it is so well blended into being your own thought. This is different, compared to when the thoughts or images happen. You know it's not coming from you then. There is a fine line where you can't be sure; it is so subliminal.
Some dreams of odd fragments of psychic and past days events, are very obscure and complex, and impossible to explain.
THE RED PLAID SHIRT Sept. 18,95
While working in the evening; "I admire your technique" was thought, right after I was cursing about the blackberries I was trying to remove, and had really tore into them with a brush ax.
Right before that, after deciding to not spray weed poison, came a thought "black listed."
Sept. 20,95
Thought I awoke and looked at the TV and saw a bucking bull with the rider barely hanging on.
Saw a red plaid coat. Saw a coat in turmoil lashing on the floor.
The thought "Don't cross me." (Means I was feeling guilty earlier, at being mad at Jeeze.)
Earlier was walking with an Indian lady, and a baby in her arms. Other babies and mothers in a large crowd walking on wooden paths with dirt on the sides. I carried my bed clothes and dropped my pillow, and found the baby had saved it and had it. We walked down a path in a row of people. The lady showed me where she had slept on the hard packed ground off to the left side by a right angle board walk, a year or so ago, and had left two coffee beans that had grown into plants. They were like flowers with beans in the top. Cups with buds and beans in them. (Like my tall cabbage plants.) Saw another bigger flower cup full of small onions like shallots. (I have some shallots grown in my garden from last year.)
Later saw some dead branches on the back of a overturned red canoe.
A big gray door of the old winery was falling on me. A board bumped my head. (Means to finish my trailer project, and put up braces.)
A tar knife holster. Also saw two drills. (Meant to finish the roof like I had been doing, pre drilling nail holes with my two sizes of drills even. Two as in church or to act upon.)
Later that morning, saw a bucking bull on a TV rodeo, and also a red plaid shirt laying in the laundry of the house I was care-taking. I hadn't even noticed it before, until the next morning. (The plaid pattern has many crosses.) The red overturned canoe seen earlier, with the dead rotting broken branch laying on top, meant to get ready, it's time for the rains to come. A upside down canoe is like a shelter. The red shirt will be washed up with the water (God's word.) It seems the red dirty shirt is a shelter like the canoe. A time of tribulation is in the winter. A plaid shirt to wear, blood red with crosses and washing of sins. The dead branch is shed on the canoe, like the dirt on the shirt. Blood is spilled when God's word floods and washes clean, and the cross is worn or carried.
Sept. 21,95
In the evening, saw a image of me on my motorcycle, turning between the two big pine trees, where the old driveway gate used to be. (I hadn't even thought of that old overgrown fenced over gate place, between the two big pine trees, in a long time. It is like the "two" as in church, where you pass between the two pillars and through the door. (They can see things with good symbolism, that you don't recognize or think of, and then use that in a riddle. Another example of this is July 5, 1994.)
In the image, the cycle went "break break," with a front wheel wobble effect that I could feel, after I pulled in between the big trees. (They can create a simulated "clunk clunk" effect, like a mechanical breakdown is happening while your riding in the vague image. This means to fix the front brake pads and not risk it anymore. I was worried about that again just yesterday when I hit the rear brake at a yellow light in town, and it locked up in a skid. The two trees I pulled between meant "church," or a place to see what's wrong and fix it.)
In the morning, awoke with a bad feeling about life, and saw a cracked window like the old one that used to be there in the room while care-taking Dusty's.
Saw an egg fall on the sand below the trailer and the yellow yoke showing when it cracked. This is the same scene where the sinking sand image of (Aug. 5,95) was, and also where I plan to put the old cracked window in the trailer project. The same window I got from Dusty's. (Means to not despair, even old stuff is OK, as long as I finish the project. All is sinking sand anyway. Could also mean I am in a transition tribulation stage, and like the window and egg, I feel cracked, and have the sinking feeling which is OK. If you trust in God you will have hope.
Sept. 24,95
Saw the breast image.
THE RABBIT RAN FAST Sept. 25,95
Hugging a white rabbit like baby deer, a friend caught trying to hide in a dirt hole. Saw some (three?) shiny big ball bearings on the road, and wanted to go back and get them before someone else did.
Sept. 26,95
Was thinking about plowing the field, like I did today, and saw a green thumb.
Image of a fair sized hole going at a angle into the ground. (Two days later while plowing, saw a big water pipe on the edge of the grape field at Mc Nabs. This was later in the day, of the blood in the ear dream, and water got in my ear, of the day before that. These events are coming up.)
While plowing today, thought about working for "Kohn" vineyards, but knew they didn't need me. A thought "Take no for a answer," came right then. I puzzled on this for awhile. Later a thought "Snow cone." Later realized it meant "no cone," or "Don't try to work for Cone." (This was to be the beginning of the new way of speaking during the day. They always speak through thought telepathy, but rarely during the day while awake.)
Sept. 27 or 28,95
A dream of putting a rag in my left ear, and was bloody, (like the "Russian, run for peace" logo, tee shirt, I found at a free box. It had blood smear stains all over, as if someone had a bloody nose, and used it.)
There was water in my ear from the shower a few days ago, and then a dream of the blood in the ear one day ago, and now the dream image of the blood smeared shirt also.
I was debating whether to wear that shirt to work or not, and did wear the shirt the day after the dream image of it; or was that the day before? I forget. That is when the riddle became obvious. The water, or "beep" in ear, word of God transforms. The water caught in my ear from the shower and the blood splotched shirt worn also yesterday, are the same. Hearing the water or word of God brings blood, and is the shirt that is worn.
On the European tractor I was driving, there is a "rabbit" symbol for fast, and a "turtle" for slow, to be readable in all languages. Starting from the clue given of the rabbit hole in the ground a day ago, and then seeing the big water pipe two days later, in the same setting, along with the other clues, the riddle goes: "The rabbit ran fast, hid in the water pipe, met the word of God, and became the blood stains that were on the shirt I was wearing. This was a complex riddle that unfolded over a three or more day period. This is proof of the ability to see every fact, and then formulate the complex riddle.
Some clues were psychic, (as in the rabbit hole being the water pipe,) some from the day before, (as in using the rag to clean water out of my ear, or and bloody shirt I wore.
I saw the big water pipe hole, (also with a forty five degree angle) two days after the dream of the hole in the ground with similar angle. The hole is also similar to the tunnel they take you in.
This means that in the future the rabbit will run for the hole, after from the past, he got bloody and wore the shirt from the water. Something like that. It is so complex to explain. The idea of the tractor being fast like the rabbit, plowing the field to make the young grapes grow, could even be a part of the riddle.
Starting with the clues at Sept. 25 , the deer is like the one that the dogs tore up while still alive. I heard it screaming like a baby goat or sheep (rabbit) that one night a while back. The three shiny ball bearings on the road are maybe my attraction to the subject (dreams,) or lights. The water caught in my ear from the shower: like the "beep," is like the water pipe (blood?); is like the deer or rabbit; is the blood on the shirt I wore; is the Russian "walk for peace" logo on the shirt; also shows a joining of two different worlds; is this book. Did I get that right? It is proof they can see so much that can be connected.
A NEW WAY OF SPEAKING
While plowing today, I was thinking of the very young vines growing in the protection of the paper milk cartons, and the thought: "Piper cubs" came. (This means the cubs are taking off. "Paper," as in the milk cartons around them, and "cub," as in young plants.) There is a slight play on the word "piper," that means "paper."
They are now speaking randomly in a riddle sometimes, as I'm out driving the tractor, thirty miles from home.
One other time was the thought "nervous breakdown," when I was very worried the tractor could roll over on a steep hillside terrace, if I got off the track.
You can tell when they speak, because the thought comes out of the blue, and holds a message that fits your situation. This is the new way of speaking, but has been done before. It is similar to the "beep" in the ear, in that it relates to a situation in your life; but now there are a few words spoken in riddle form. It comes unexpectedly, so you know it's them speaking in mental telepathy. As in "snow cone" and "piper cub," both hold a riddle to a previous thought process I just had, and both seemed totally unrelated at first, but turned out to be a message. That's proof.
Also had a dream last night of a red granite rock cutting machine, and a lady wanted three thousand for it, and I couldn't afford it.
Was also laying on the ground with big heavy tractors crawling slowly very near me. Was afraid of maybe getting crushed, but they slowly just missed me. One vehicle was a red forestry truck with a tractor on it. (Two days after this dream, I was driving my motorcycle in town, and in rush hour was overwhelmed and in fear of all the traffic. Then I saw the big red forestry truck with trailer and tractor, in the middle of the traffic jam. The psychic dream about that was two days, or actually a full day and a half before.)
Sept. 29,95
Image of a small stone pillar at the grape row end, like the end posts that hold the trellis wires tight to support the grapes.
Image of a orange basketball rolling from the rock walled water stream. (Means to only drink orange juice, and not alcohol. Two days later I drank two quarts of beer, and then recalled that it is true to follow the orange ball.)
Sept. 30,95
A dream of two kids slipping my wallet from my back pocket, while I was taking a pee in the bathroom. I caught them and saw my wallet by chance and fought for it when I saw it in his rolled pant leg. (The next morning I saw my refrigerator door open, and saw the raccoon must have opened it and had eaten all the hamburger, but didn't even mess it up or spill the pot of spaghetti. It ate the cooked meat I left laying on top of the sauce, and also the raw meat below the freezer of the small fridge.)
Image of a flesh colored rock having been dug from the field, as a tractor's plow had pulled it up. (I have been plowing for a week now. Later I found a flesh colored rock oil lamp. A rock with a dip place that could be used as a lamp.)
Image of oil stains at the starting of the row. (Means to not covet rocks. Saw oil drips later in the barn where the tractors parked. Stain as in sins.)
Heard a "beep" when I thought "He might explode."
MOVING STARS AND STARS THAT WINK OUT
Saw a moving yellow white bright star tonight in the north, and told myself "I'm going to go in the trailer for a second, and then come back out and look again." It was gone! Somehow I wasn't really shocked or very excited, but a little. Then I sat there looking toward in the east, and saw a different orange star now, moving moderate north, and slightly down, but faster and brighter then a satellite. Like a plane but non blinking and a brighter light of yellow. I looked away for a split second and it was gone right then! Then I was a little upset, and still looked in that area. I was excited, and said "Jeeze saucers!" About maybe ten or more seconds later, I was looking at three stars near that area, but higher in the east, and one seemed brighter and white; when it just winked out. I saw it just wink out totally, and then there was only two stars in that triangle. That's the story. This was so amazing, but I wasn't as shocked as I thought I should of been. It's more shocking now, just thinking back on it!
One theory is that they make you see it in your eye by altering your reality from inside your head, like you would a computer. Either a beam of some wave or particle form from the other dimension, and, or maybe also an implant. I've read in the "Uri" book that some people could see the lights in the sky, but others couldn't.
Oct. 1,95
Dream of: In a garden with a wood stove and water running off a tin roof onto the stove.
Then awoke to a vision of salt and pepper static that turned into a boat's propeller, and lower motor seen from underwater. (Might mean to fix my tin roof. The rains are coming. Means to travel on the water or word.)
Saw a plate of steaming meat that became a plate of green orbs or limes? (Means to eat more fruit and vegetables, and not as much meat.)
Then I recalled an image earlier that night, of a group of bell peppers hanging in a cluster like grapes.
When out on the tractor, while plowing, I was looking for signs on rocks; the thought "diviner" came once.
Once when on the tractor, I was thinking of a lady I thought might be a sleaze, but was maybe only my own imagination. The thought "Rayhab" came right then. Rayhab was a women in the bible who was adulterous. Rayhab the harlot. I learned that, listening to the preacher on Family Radios Bible study, even though I'm sick of that preacher's voice, and am out to overthrow that station. It really makes me mad listening to some of that. It won't be long before that whole station is turned upside down on its ear.
Later when I was almost finished dragging the railroad tie drag over the seed for the cover crop, the thought "pandemonium" came. I couldn't figure that one out then, but later the sprinklers were turned on and I was getting a little wet driving tractor towards the end, when the Mexican workers came out on four wheelers to check for plugged sprinklers. When I drove my motorcycle home, the big mountain was on fire again. (God's mountain. The same one that burned a few years ago, right before the major encounter. I talked about that earlier.) There were helicopters and borade bombers swarming all around it, and the word pandemonium seemed to fit again then, even though it was close to a hour later. The fire wasn't quite as big this time, but it was still quite a shock seeing Jeeze's mountain (Skull mountain) on fire again. It's been almost exactly three years since it burned the first time. I've come a long way getting to know the aliens since then. I didn't even know them on a conscious level then, (but had a long unconscious connection.) Now the program is progressed to speaking in this new way. The future is so exciting to look forward to. The hardest part is behind now. The fear is overcome and the bad habits have been fought back, but one must try to stay spiritually perfect, especially when one is such a sinful and crazy angry person. People can't hurt you if you love yourself.
A dream of rock oil lamp that flows out, and was on a grape row.
KINGS KITCHEN Oct. 3,95
The thought "Kings kitchen" came while driving tractor, as I kept looking at a impressive rock way up there on a mountain. It was a table outcrop with big boulders around it.
Heard "If I wasn't your mentor, I'd..." when I couldn't stop trying to look at rocks while driving tractor.
Heard "dysentery" when I went to drink old creek water, because I had no other, and was real thirsty. I even felt sick later.
Heard "slayer." Also heard slayer yesterday, but can't connect it.
Saw a spot of light once, when I thought of rain. Can't recall if it was with eyes open or closed.
Oct. 4,95
While laying in bed half asleep this morning; saw a image of a crowbar laying on the road over a bridge, when I thought of a possible killer that got away. (The dream world is described as images, so not to confuse with the real world.)
Saw a black rock image like a Indian grinder but wasn't.
Image of a black bird turd on a rock. (Meant that rocks were not worth saving.)
Saw a light spot when I thought I had to go to jail for the ticket.
While driving to work to plow, I saw steaming piles of shredded wood bark at seven fifteen AM, in the cold morning, and the thought "On top of old Smoky" came right then.
Heard "plasticine" when I stopped the tractor to pick up a art rock.
Coming home, I gazed up on burnt Scull mountain (Gods mountain) after seeing a mop up crew forestry truck pass me on the road. I was just thinking "Oh they're mopping up," and right then, the thought "mop and glow" came: Like the floor shine brand name, but this must mean the glowing embers
Yesterday evening I looked toward the northern sky, and for a split second, thought I saw a sparkle of light at first.
Yesterday or today is a Jewish holiday.
OJ Simpson was found not guilty on TV Today.
Heard "a foot in" when I stopped the tractor to pull a big weed still in the field. (Meant I might get to work longer here. The boss said I can work another week driving a big gravel loading tractor to dig out the lake fill.)
Heard "premenstrual" when I saw the well drilling truck drive down the road, while I was driving tractor. I thought back and realized I had just thought "That must be the truck from the new well they were digging." (This happened while awake; it means "the well is starting to flow.")
A dream last night of a girl I used to work with, acted like she really liked me. We were in a blooming row of flowers in the middle of the grape rows.
Had a vision that night, of new sprouting seedlings in between a grape field row, (like I've been planting at my job, of cover crop planting on the tractor. Means I planted the seeds.)
Later was a dream of the same nice girl I sat next to in a church pew. I offered her some noodles, and she took them and gave me hers that had chili beans in it even.
Then a dream vision of a spot, that focused on a black top road, then closed in on itself. (This is a puzzel. Maybe means powerful path.)
DEAD PEOPLE PACKED IN BOXES
Was also a image of a small pink newborn rat or cat that was just being "crunched" by a cat eating it. I could even hear and feel the crunch noise. (The small rat's pink color was similar to a small rose quarts rock I found in the vineyard yesterday. Later that day I saw a big clip used in a tractor's pin hitch, and it was bent slightly and resembled the shape similar to a fetus, and laying on the road by a small bridge. It was the shape of the newborn baby hanging in the cat's mouth that had killed it. This means the rose quartz rock from the past, became the newborn fetus. Thought it was me at first, but maybe it was the barking rat dog I hate, that's frightened of me because I attacked it. Maybe that's why it barks all night. It knows I'm after it and it's schizoid. This could be a side effect of the encounter, or from an angry childhood, where I create the situation from acting out fighting feelings, and the dogs become worse. They are just a pack of barkers.
Oct. 5,95
Image of a knife, cutting the cartilage at a bone's end. (Was almost late for work today, and had to speed to get there. Means I was cutting it close.)
Dream image of a guy fell off a wagon on the side of the road, and when he got part way up, I saw he had no head. Meant don't fall off the wagon and lose your head. (I drank a bottle of wine last night and felt bad about it and also had a headache. I kept saying "Why Jeeze, why did I do that?" I promised to quit.)
Later during the day while driving the tractor at the old Mc Nab ranch at (Ceago), I thought about my watch, and how it keeps stopping and losing time, and how I should get a new one. Right after thinking that, the thought "Seiko genesis" came. I knew it was a riddle, and then realized that genesis meant "new beginning." I vaguely recall a old commercial of a Seiko watch called "Genesis."
Later while driving, I was thinking about the seed being planted by the automatic seeding machine behind the tractor, and how it was a mixture of three types of seed, and right then, the thought "trail mix" came. Like the food one takes on a hike. The fact I was leaving a trail of a mixture of seeds was the riddle.
Later toward the end of the day, I missed planting a row, and by chance caught the mistake and realized it was right in front of somebody's house and would be seen. Was then seeding it and relieved I caught that, and the thought "malitoff-cocktail" just came. This was rather odd, but must relate to blow up, or that the person could become angry.
Oct. 6,95
Later that day I stopped to pick up a rock, and the thought "Lupus" came. Like the blue flower seed that was planted in a few special fields with separate rows of red yellow blue and green. (It is very expensive seed.) This relates to wolf, and meant I am a rock hound.
Oct. 7,95
A scary dream of dead people packed in boxes, black and dead. Some were pink, (like the fetus rat) and one was alive and just got in. I walked over the big bins of four bodies in each, and saw a pink head on one that was alive. While stepping on the edge of the bins, black tar stuck on my foot and swarming black flies tried to bite. One bit my arm and hurt. Then bees, and one bee started down my back neck shirt collar. Right then, an invisible hand grabbed it, and then a vision of a small person like a bee with a stinger, that was falling down to the ground.
Later saw a flag with a circle in the center, being held up in a window of a dark trailer. (Means to finish trailer project.)
Then was a couch standing up, and someone rocking it heavily forward and backward. I stood there and wasn't affected, and was able to keep my body still and let my legs take the motion, (similar to the way I stand up while driving the tractor, so as not to take all the bumps.) A friend on the couch showed me how it was so easy.
Then a vision of a flag blowing in the wind, with a sun getting bright in the center, that was similar to the flag in the window.
Today was Sunday, and I got into a major argument with a young preacher, who said he'd call the cops to get me out of here. I didn't really get upset. Later told the other church's people, to listen to the Dreamland radio show.
THE FOX AND THE GRAPES Oct. 9,95
While driving tractor planting seed, I spied a half missed picked grape plant, and was trying to tear the grape clusters off, and didn't have a knife. While doing that, the thought "laceration" came. I knew it meant I needed a knife to cut the stem. A piece of glass or anything sharp.
Later while planting seed (with the seed drill) by the road, I saw a guy drive by on a Harley Davidson, with all his camping gear, and it looked like he was going cross country. I was thinking about what his life was like and how it must feel, because (I have a BMW road bike and have done a little cross country cruising.) Right after thinking about how he must cruise and camp out, I heard the thought "bellanoma," or "bellatoma," or some similar word starting with bell, such as a medical term for a disease. Finally realized "Bell" helmets are the popular style, and the guy had the common ailment of many bikers. I knew this was the riddle. It is the only way it would fit.
Out 11,95
A dream of a white rock shaped like a fox's head. I liked it and wanted it. Was holding a fox or small dogs body that was dead but then it started to kick and scared me. It ran over to the vineyard where the two missed grape plants I wanted to pick were, and was quickly gone.
Later the next day while driving a big loader and seeing the big bucket with teeth and a thumb flap of the very big excavator machine on tracks, loosening the dirt, a thought came right then: "diametrically opposed." Didn't know what it meant, but thought it related to the big trenchers bucket with opposing thumb.
Later the thought "water pick," as a person was spraying water on the dirt with a fire hose to keep dust down.
Oct. 12,95
A dream of a big white pillar in a room, then became a big goblet shaped wine glass.
Then an image of the vineyard by the highway. (The one I planned to retrieve the missed grapes from the two plants there. The same vineyard in the dream where the fox ran into.) While seeing the vineyard by the road image, I saw some bright lights approaching on the highway, that reminded me of when they came. (Bright lights bring flashbacks, and the dream felt this way.)
The grapes I planned to pick; the white rock and the white fox in that field, dream from yesterday; then the white pillar and the wine glass; then seeing the field, and the lights coming down the road: are all part of this riddle that has pieces given over a three day period. The first day was when I saw the un-picked grape plants, and wanted to go back and get them.
Later a thought "you are cruel" and then a bright light became brighter, as it tracked slowly across my vision while eyes closed. Somehow my hatred for dogs and other factors tie in.
Later a dream of at a friend's house, and I wanted to sell my blue bowls cheap at the gallery, and not rip people off.
Later came a thought when just awakening: "Acknowledge Dumi's only beginning to understand." Dumi is my brother. I was at his house last night, and told him about the telepathy and moving stars in the sky. I said "It's them altering reality." He said "It's possible it's your unconscious." I kind of acted like I agreed, even though I had just been trying to explain how I know myself well enough to know if it's coming from me or not.
Also argued with Les, the religious neighbor, who was visiting Dumi then. I tried to convince him it's from God. I was told to leave his church last Sunday, by a young smart-aleck preacher who said he'd call the cops. He said "I'll tell you." I said "No, I'll tell you," and we went back and forth until he got real mad. Later the next day I was thinking of that, and a thought "You reap what you sow" came; meaning I made him angry and so caused the scene, and can blame myself for the rejection. It's the same with barking dogs. If I try to run them off they only become worse and attack when they see me. Somehow I must avoid situations that become like this. I've been so blasted out by all this, it doesn't even bother me much anymore, like it used to. It's kind of sad and shocking, the reactions you get into.
A fart.
Image of cutting meat.
The saying "surgery." (Later that day, thought it meant to stop eating so much meat, but later I smoked at a friend's house, and think now it's related to smoking again. They knew I was going to smoke, because they see three or more days into the future.)
MINISTERING SPIRITS Oct. 1,95
Green peppers I was eating in a cooked dish, like the ones given to me at Charly's the next day. (psychic) Means to eat what is good, and not the bad green stuff.
Oct. 14,95
Piss water being poured into a fresh water pot.
A pen being "clicked" when entering a courtroom to face a judge. Means to not contaminate the good word.)
Later, while driving the loader, the thought "ministering spirits."
Also heard a high pitch "beep" while on the outhouse, and thinking how I didn't need to smoke pot like others who are a slave to it. Thought "I don't need to be that way," and then came the "beep."
Oct. 16,95
A dream of someone touched my shoulder, but was invisible. Grabbed me to hold me back. (Later the next day I smoked.)
Oct. 17,95
A dream of seeing a lot of fancy furniture of my sisters all in a field. I said "You could start a store with all this stuff." I had a small green dresser with a split broken leg, I needed.
Later in a dream, I was in a car, and the guy behind me talked loud in a monotonous voice like a politician or loud preacher. I said "That's it, I'm leaving," and grabbed the keys and left the people there. I walked up the road and saw a black long haired cat on the road side sleeping, and with old crushed leaves caught in it's fur, and I hugged it and felt a love feeling. (The guy talking loud was actually the newsman on the radio, that mixed with the dream. I realized this right when waking.)
Oct. 18,95
While driving the big loader in the gravel pit, I thought about if I should pay bail with the 175 dollar check Dusty gave me, because he said it was his fault I got a ticket for riding in the back of his truck. I debated about going to jail. A thought "At the drop of a hat" came then. Before that, I thought of how I had smoked. "Snap out of it" came as a thought. (Both these thoughts came while awake and driving a loader, thirty or more miles from home.)
I HIT THE BIG ROCK Oct. 19,95
Early before waking, was a image of the big wheel loader tractor's bucket, that had hit a big rock in the river beds gravel, and jolted it. After that, I saw water start to fill where the rock had been hit. (This is symbolic.) Later that next day, I hit a big rock, and the day before, (In real life) had also seen water filling in a area where I had been digging. (Means that in the past the water came, and in the future I caused the big rock to bring water.
Was also a image (before waking,) of tomatoes in a black pot, and gravel. (I had wanted to save some of the tomatoes going to waste on the ranch, but had no time or container. This must be a riddle somehow. Maybe it means we are the ripe tomatoes in the black powerful pots. Red as in blood is ready to be spilled or eaten.)
A dream of talking to my brother-in-law about dogs, while in the back of a bus. He said "I thought you were into Jesus." I said "I'd like to bash that dog in the head with a Jesus statue." (The dog barked last night and I had a anger again. It never stops.)